A/N: Sorry this took so long, i honnestly didn't mean to. But school, robot unicorn attack and poletical debates have taken over my life 3

Just as though it had been planned by some horrible force in the world, Hiroki unlike in most stories, never ended up finding Nowaki that night, he ended up returning home late that night and piss drunk from drinking a little too much.

Opening the front door, hiroki lost balance and smacked into the floor with a loud thud. Laying there for a few more minutes, making sure the room wasn't spinning anymore, Hiroki got back to his feet, shutting the front door behind himself.

He felt nothing but nausea and heartbreak. The brunette took some time, holding himself up with his hands pressed firmly against the wall, just to get to his room. Slipping a few times, he made his way to his bed and slumped his body over onto the cold blankets.

He had finished crying to himself when he began to get to the bar, so now he felt like he couldn't do it anymore. The idea of Nowaki being somewhere here was enough to keep him wanting to look around, he couldn't let his tears show when he did find the boy though. Of course Hiroki had SOME dignity left to make it seem that he wasn't totally dying without the raven haired boy.

Laying there in a drunken mess, he gripped onto the sheets tightly attempting to stop the room from spinning more. Feeling disgusting, hiroki shoved his head back into the pillows. He began to fall asleep, drifting in and out of consciousness.

He could hear something moving across the floorboards, disturbing his sleep again. Shifting so that he could sit up. He felt utterly sick when got up alittle too quickly from the bed.

"Hello?" He hissed, grabbing his head as he stumbled several times to get back onto his feet. In the dark kitchen, he could see someone walking around and the front door wide open.

"H-hey!" he stumbled backwards, feeling the affects of alcohol still just a few hours later.

The shadowed figure moved quickly towards the brunette who nearly fell back onto his ass. Feeling a pair of arms wrap around his torso, he gasped in shock.

Misaki was pacing around the living room, glareing at Akihiko who was awkwardly sitting on one of the chouches. "Misaki… I can explain." he started, but was cut off short by the look Misaki gave him.

"can you? Usagi-san… I can't believe you… fine. Explain yourself. Explain to me why I should just march out the door right now and go live with my brother again? Tell him all about what we used to be." the brunette sat himself down on the other couch across from the older silver haired male.

"I'll tell you the truth… That night, Hiroki had a break-down." Akihiko stared, folding his hands together as he leaned onto his lap. "He came over and I comforted him… It became.. A little…physical but only for the right reasons. I know it's not really an excuse but I owe him in a way… from before I met you, and I was not over your brother." He looked over towards Misaki who just continued to give him the same look.

"As a best friend he needed me, I love him too much to see him in pain. It's like you and you're sempai from school, you'd do it for him wouldn't you? I've known Hiroki since I was very small and first moved to Japan." shifting his position again, Usagi gave Misaki a loving smile. "but I don't love him the way I love you… you mean the world to me and I don't want you to leave me. I couldn't live on.

Hiroki had the same problem. He couldn't live on without Nowaki, which was why he was so stressed out that you had to bring him to the hospital just not too long ago. He just couldn't do it anymore…"

Waiting for a answer, Usagi stood up and made his way to the other side of the table to get a good look at Misaki.

The brunette just sighed and shook his head. "Alright… Whatever." Standing up, the green eyed boy crept up the stairs without another word. Leaving Akihiko without an explanation to anything. He would just sit here and wait for an answer.

Would Misaki come down the stairs with his things packed up, or would he come down stairs and smile at him. For once he couldn't attack the boy and get an answer.

Hiroki had found himself in the arms of the notorious Miyagi, he smiled at the brunette and held him tightly.

"I found him!" he announced proudly, still holding the frail boy who wasn't feeling the best.

"Huh? Miyagi what are you doing here? Found who?" Hiroki was put back down and attempted to shove Miyagi off of him.

"Wow dude, have you been drinking? Anyways I found Nowaki and brang him back to my place, he didn't have a place, and I had NO IDEA it was him till he started talking about you!"

Hiroki looked up at miyagi in disbelief, its true that this could all have been a dream. What were the odds, was this really happening?

Attempting to steady himself against the other man, Hiroki grabbed onto Miyagi's arms and pressed his face against his chest. "Y-you're sure that I-its him?"

Feeling miyagi beginning to move, the brunette stood up by himself again, waiting for the raven haired man to finish doing whatever he was up to. His jacket landed on top of his head, freaking him out for a second and almost giving him a heart attack.

"Pull this on, I'll drive you to my house so you can find out for yourself!" with a gentle hand on Hiroki's back, he led the younger boy towards the door and the two stumbled out the door towards the car.

The ride was painfully long for hiroki, amusing himself with his fingers which were barely peaking out from behind the jacket he wore. Even this small distraction was nothing compared to the thoughts of Nowaki possibly being at miyagi's.

Eventually reaching the small house that Miyagi usually shared with Shinobu, Hiroki got out of the car rather quickly. You could tell in his face that he was no longer tipsy, but was very concerned, something that wasn't usually painted on his face.

As Miyagi opened the door, Hiroki felt his heart pounding against his chest. Miyagi was across the room now, pointing at the shut door down the hallway. "He's in that room, just peek in. If it's him you totally owe me." Miyagi's smile grew when he saw the slight spark of excitement in the latter's face.

Being quite careful, hiroki reached out, his hands shaking as he twisted the door knob slowly and poked his head into the room.

It was quite dark in the room, a small amount of light streaming into the room from the windowsill. His eyes could barely make out the large figure cuddled into a heap of blankets on the bed. Beginning to second-guessing the fact that this was his Nowaki, Hiroki turned back to miyagi and shrugged. He shut the door after he was finished peeping, sighing in irritation.

"I'm not sure." He leaned against the wall confused. "If it's not him…. Then I shouldn't go in there. Can I wait till the morning?" He felt rather stupid, being much too shy to go into the room to check. What if he was caught staring? And what if it was someone else ?

"I think you should go in there, just sneak in and if he wakes up and it's not him tell him you're looking for something in the drawer." Though this was a pretty good idea for a cover-up, Hiroki couldn't find himself walking into the room and sighed.

"Can I just come back in the morning or something? We don't work in the morning." the brunette began sniffling and coughed into his hand.. "This way I can just find out when he comes out. I'm sure he's putting himself threw along, not to mention he might want a good night's sleep."

With a nod Miyagi began walking back down the hallway, motioning for Hiroki to follow him. After taking another left turn they made it to the living room. "you can take the couch, normally I'd offer the bed…But Shinobu is in there sleeping at the moment. Stay the night, I'll bring you some Timmy Hoes in the morning."

Hiroki nibbled on his bottom lip, debating weither he should stay or leave again. It was a long walk back to his house and it was rather nippy outside. "alright." Looking up at the raven haired boy who was already holding some sheets. "uh…"

"I already knew you were going to say yes."

"what makes you think I would say yes?"

" 'Cause it's you." Miyagi laid the blankets out and began snickering to himself. "atta boy, get some sleep. Shinobu will be up soon, he'll most likely make you something to eat since he's insane about cooking."

With that, Miyagi disappeared into the hallway again leaving hiroki to himself.

Crawling into the poorly made bed, hiroki turned onto his side and yawned. Exhaustion eventually took him into one of the deepest sleeps he'd had in years.

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It was as thought he had just closed his eyes when he was forced back up again, a tight pain in his spine as he shot up in surprised to feeling a hand against his chest.

Shinobu, was gazing down with his confused blue eyes. "I made breakfast if you'd like. Would you like anything with it?" For once Shinobu was in a good mood when Hiroki met him. Last time he was the one who was throwing spitballs at him and ended up getting detention.

"mm- sure." standing up, you could hear hiroki's back crack, his next thought was 'I'm getting old' which reminded him of the fact that miyagi and Shinobu were WAY too illegal, but nether seemed to care.

Following his student into the kitchen he saw two other men sitting at the table sipping their coffees. Instantly hiroki knew that one was Miyagi, he was facing the older man when they walked into the kitchen, the other boy was much taller than what he remembered Nowaki to be.

Realizing this his stomich sank a little.

"Shinobu, can I talk to you in the other room for a moment?" Miyagi stood up from his chair and left myself and this stranger together by ourselves.

Ignoring the other male for the first few akward seconds, I began putting a few things onto my plate, who cooked cabbage first thing in the morning?

Searching the counter I looked for my promised coffee which should have been awaiting to be drank by me. "Miyagi-san wheres my Coffee?" Turning around, I looked down the hall, in my peref I could see this 'Nowaki' clone… wait… not impersonator.

He stared up at me with his wide blue eyes, confused and broken. I stared down at him, how had I not realized that this had been him before?

"It's in the fridge!" Miyagi called out, no where near the kitchen still. Which I was half happy for, this meant that I wouldn't have to have him staring at the both of us. I called back a thank you, grabbing the coffee and walked over towards Nowaki.

"we… need to talk." I could already feel my chest clench, what if Nowaki didn't want to hear the truth? Why did I even care anymore?

Nowaki had grown a lot since he had left… Infact this terrified me when he stood up. I half expected him to get up and turn the other way, but he stood in front me. He had matured aswell….

"Hiro-san…"

MY heart fluttered and I couldn't take it anymore, I began crying into my lover's arms.

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