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TWILIGHT IS OWNED BY STEPHENIE MEYER. I am only playing with her toy's so I can make them get naked.

'I remember when something so plain as a beautiful day like this could make me smile' I thought as I made my way to the bus. It's been two weeks since I started riding the bus to school. Before everything took place, Logan would be sitting outside waiting for me and complaining about us being late. It's been fourteen days since I've seen or heard from him yet the black and blue marks still haven't completely faded.

In five short days I will no longer call Arizona my personal sunny state. In five very short days I will be living in my own personal hell. I just can't fucking wait to say goodbye to warm sunny Phoenix, and hello wet rainy dreary depressing Forks.

I had to remind myself that this was my call. Renée made my options rather clear once Logan and I'd problems were out in the open for the world to see. His family blamed me for it, that I did something to cause the beatings.

My mother blamed his family for pushing him too hard and causing him to "crack" as she so nicely put it. To face reality it's hard to picture someone with a 3.9 GPA, editor of the school paper and all around Mr. Perfect as a druggie and abusive boyfriend.

It was much easier to blame the social outsider. Logan and I never fit to anyone but ourselves. He was good looking, knew how to hold himself with complete confidence, almost as if he was regal.

At least that's how he acted around other people. When it was just us he was just like me shy, always unsure of what to say, and happy out of the spot light well that's how he was before the drugs.

Though his parents never would allow themselves to view him as that, they swear I got him hooked on the drugs which caused him to beat me so in their mind's I asked for it. Even though I didn't even know what a xanax looked like was until he talked me into taking one. "All the other guys' girlfriends do what they ask them to, why can't you just do this one thing for me? I would never let anything happen you Bella what's the big deal I take them and I'm fine don't be such a pussy about shit Jesus."

I remember the look in his eyes as he looked down at me. I remember thinking he was right I'm over reacting about everything its one small pill what could it really do that would be so bad? I snorted at my once so innocent thoughts. Out of the corner of my eye I saw an old man staring at me funny, months ago I would have gave him a timid smile at an attempt to prove I'm not crazy for snorting at nothing, now I just shrink back and wish I was back in bed away from prying eyes.

Trees started to come into focus as the bus slowed to a stop in front of the entrance of Phoenix Union High School. I felt a small sigh exit my lungs before I even had a chance to stop it. Logan's family begged me to keep the 'little mishap' as they called it a secret. That he was going to get help, they changed him out of Phoenix high and switched him to Temple Union high school.

Everyone knew something was wrong just no one knew what. Since sixth grade you could always find me by finding Logan and vice versa, so when I started to come to school alone the questions started. I just shrugged and didn't talk to anyone it wasn't until the following week did it start getting bad. At first people just thought he was sick, his parents wouldn't allow him to talk to any of his friend's, so everyone looked at me for answers like I was some kind of fucking magic eight ball or something. It was then I talked to Renée about moving in with Charlie. I could handle the whispers and the stares, it was the questioning I couldn't take.

Making my way across the parking lot, I could see from the corner of my eye the pointing and whispering and so my day starts. I saw Logan's normal group of friends standing by their cars talking in low whispers. I felt my body give into a small shudder before I could stop it remembering how once there was a time when they were my friends. I turned focused only where I was walking and with that willing everyone else to just disappear. That's when I heard my name being called and I was forced back into the hell was so commonly called high school.

Naomi was waving at me to slow down. "Fuck me" I muttered kicking at the ground while I glanced up at her. "Hey Bella" she said trying to pass of a fake smile while toying with her books in her hands. I sighed not even trying to hide it "What's up Naomi?" I said looking at her overly fake blonde hair and tiny shirt with an annoyed face.

She looked around before answering me "It's just that we are just a little worried that's all. No one can get a hold of Logan and no one knows what's going on with you two, so if you talk to him could you please just tell him to call one of us?" her words rushed out of her while she stared at the ground. I stared at her open mouthed and shocked, it's not like she didn't try to jump Logan all the time now she was asking to tell him to call her? The hair dye must have really leaked in to her brain, I heard jokes about it but now I was seeing it right before my eyes.

My eyes narrowed as I watched her play with the pages on her notebook and glanced around unsure if she should met my gaze or not. I was so enraged I didn't even hear anyone walk up until I heard her voice.

"Want to fill me in on what the fuck you could possibly need Naomi? Besides the given of a fucking clue?" I looked over to see Alex with her long jet black hair and perfect body glaring at Naomi with unleashed hate in her eyes. Only the stupid fucked with Alex. I mean the really stupid. Naomi was one of the leading bitches in the school but everyone knew that when it came to Alexis Muir it was best if you shut your mouth looked down and walked away.

I can't think of a time when even a teacher messed with her. She was my best friend and one of the sweetest and good hearted people I've ever known, but it took a lot to get to that side of her, she kept walls up at all times. Naomi returned the glare but kept her voice light "What I was just talking to Bella that's all no big deal" she shrugged and shifted weight from her left foot to her right then back again uneasy. "Well if it's not big fucking deal how about it doesn't happen again got it?" Alex spat not even trying to play nice as she turned on her heel and walked away pulling me with her.

Glancing back over my shoulder I saw Naomi still standing in the same spot we left her looking like she had just been slapped in the face. I laughed and turned back around, a little too fast for someone with two left feet I felt myself starting to fall then Alex's hand on my arm standing me up straight. "Jesus Swan how the hell are you going to make it on your own you can't even walk on flat ground most of the time" She laughed at me while I blushed a little and tried to hide my giggle.

Besides my mom, Alex would be the only other person I would miss, she was the only one who cared about me as a person, not as Logan's weird pick of a girlfriend. We made it to our seats right as the bell went off and the teacher closed and locked the door leaving the tardy to make their way to the office. And so my lovely day is in full swing I glanced at the clock willing it to be closer to 2:45pm then it was only three minutes before I looked again. I sighed for what felt like the millionth time today as I saw it read 9:12AM. I saw Alex look over at me and give a short chuckle when she saw the look on my face as I stared at the clock.

I gave her the finger under my desk and heard her trying to contain herself as I stared ahead like a good student would. That was until I heard myself let out a snort at my own thoughts. To the right of me I saw Ian Turners look at me like I just proved what the rest of the school had been saying, I really did lose it. I smiled to myself if they only knew, if they only fucking knew.