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In the previous chapters I know I made Piper into a total witch but hopefully with the end of the last chapter and the ones to come we'll see a turn around, we'll see!

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CHAPTER 8

Mom,

I just want you to know that coming here, to this time, was probably one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. I knew that seeing you all again would be hard, that being close and unable to tell you about me would be torture but I had no idea just how hard it would be.

When I orbed into the attic there were the aunts, Aunt Paige had been turned to stone so I concentrated on keeping Aunt Phoebe safe. But after the Titan was gone I was hit with my first real test, standing face to face with a ghost, I wanted nothing more than to run to her and beg forgiveness for letting her die. All I could do for those first few moments was stare, hypnotized by guilt yes but mostly from the incredible love that I felt for the aunt that was no longer in my future. Luckily for me she turned her attention to Paige, but then she asked me who I was and lying to her was hard but not as hard as what was to follow, there you came walking through the door and I felt my heart jump.

Seeing the mother that I lost when I turned fourteen was one of the most agonizing moments in my life second only to watching her, holding her while she died. I couldn't focus on you at all so I rushed into an explanation of what happened to Paige, all the time in the back of my mind saying over and over that you were not my mother,that my mother was dead. Luckily for me, everyone was to busy trying to free Aunt Paige and later saving the world to really concentrate on whether I was who I claimed. Seeing Aunt Paige for the first time wasn't so bad since there was no time to talk seeing as you three were only minutes away from becoming goddesses, which was a good thing for me. I commended myself for handling the whole seeing your family alive again really well and thought that even though it hurt I could get through this.

I was to soon find out that that wasn't the way it would go, I found myself reliving your death over and over again in my dreams, unable to sleep and obsessed over saving Wy I found myself butting heads with you three more and more. The more your hostility of me grew, the more I found it difficult to separate you from the mother I knew, I couldn't understand how you could possibly hate your son even if you didn't know who I was. In my mind, even if you didn't know me, that somewhere in your heart you'd be able to recognize me as family, and know that I was only trying to help. I know I didn't make it easy but growing up there were times where I saw you treat demons better than you did me and all I wanted was to save Wy and in saving him saving you and the aunts as well.

I'm sorry for having to become a person that you don't approve of, of all the things I had to do to survive in a world where my older brother was the tormentor. I'm sorry for the things I've had to do here to survive, for becoming a person that you don't even like, for all the lies I've told but mostly for the hurt I've caused.

It's almost over now, I won't be here to bother you anymore, my time has come and it'll soon be as though I never was. In coming here to the past, I've messed up to much, broke you and Leo up wiping out my existence, it's only a matter of time now. I'm fading away, it's kind of a strange feeling, to feel as though you're here but not here at the same time. To know that everything you've ever done will soon be gone, wiped from the minds of those you love as though you never were. I don't hurt, at least not from physical pain, the emotional though is another matter, but that too will soon be gone. Please don't cry now that you know who I am, I am still the same neurotic future boy that has been a nusiance in your life since I arrived, not your son.

I have to hurry, my left hand has started to fade and I'm pretty sure my right one will be going soon. Save Wyatt whatever you do, do not let him grow up to be evil, save him and hopefully you'll save yourself as well. No matter what you've done in this time, I'll always love you, whether you'll know it or not I know what would've been, that you would have been the best mother anyone could ask for.

Love, Christopher Halliwell

Folding the paper up, Chris placed it carefully in an envelope, wrote Piper on the front, he laid it on the desk in the office at P3. Gathering the strength he had left, he sat on the couch, that had become his bed and waited for death. As the minutes passed his entire body vanished completely only to reappear and become solid once again.

"What the hell?" Chris was shocked, he had no idea what had happened but he was back, really back and he wasn't sure exactly how he felt about it. He wasn't sure if he could go back to the way things were before, he had been prepared for his demise but not this.

"Oh poor Chris and all you want is to die." Barbas had shimmered in and had read his fear. "Ah, poor Christopher, your own mother hates you."

"Mom, why do you hate me?" Chris whispered to no one.

"Christopher, why must you be so neurotic? You're only here to hurt my baby, my only son, I wished you would just go back to the future." Barbas had taken on the voice of Piper and was pushing the young witch-lighter.

"No, I'm here to save Wyatt, that's all I want, to save the future."

"Get the hell out of here before I blow you back to the future, I don't want you here." Barbas/Piper screamed at him.

"Chris, I'm going to kill you if you hurt my son." Barbas/Leo joined in.

"No, no, no ,no!"

"Leo if anyone is gonna kill Chris it's gonna be me." Barbas/Piper said holding her hands up ready to blast.

"Just do it, kill me, if that's what you want go ahead I'm ready to die."

"Ah Chris, why don't you save them both the trouble, you're not worth it, go ahead and do it yourself." Barbas said when he noticed the boy was ready to give up, dropping his head in his hands with tears running down his face.

"Go ahead Chris, mommy and daddy wants you to do it, they'll never love you like the twice blessed, you'll never be the son they want."

"No." The broken boy whispered though his tears.

"Yes, why don't you ask them if they love you, if they want you to live."

"I want to kill him myself." Barbas/Piper screamed sending a blast toward the boy.

"You'll never be as good as Wyatt, we'd all be better off if you were dead." Barbas/Leo added throwing an lightning bolt his way.

"So now you know, go ahead do it before they finish you off."

Chris orbed himself to the Golden Gate bridge, allowing himself a quick look down before jumping hoping that the end was near and he could finally get away from the parents that wanted him dead. He felt like he was flying for a few minutes before the pain hit, closing his eyes he waited for death for the second time that day.

In the manor

"Have you two found my son?" Piper asked as she walked back in the attic.

"Not yet, he's blocking us. What about his baby version?" Phoebe was dying to know what had happened with Leo.

"I hope so." Piper answered running her hand across her stomach.

"So does this mean you two are back together?" Paige asked quickly.

"I don't know but hopefully we've managed to save my son." Piper responded.

"You did tell Leo didn't you, about Chris I mean." Phoebe jumped in before Paige could speak.

"Yes but we'll talk about that later, just please I have to find my son." Piper pleaded.

"Wait a minute, I got him, he's not blocked anymore." Paige said sounding excited for the first time in hours.

"Where?" Piper demanded.

"Bottom of the Golden Gate bridge." Paige answered,

"Well let's go, orb!" Piper said.

Paige grabbed her older sisters by the hands and orbed to where Chris was.

"Well where is he?" Piper shrieked.

"Oh my God!" Phoebe gasped, the pain was sickening.

"What?"

"The pain, he's hurt, he's dying, oh no." Phoebe explained as she saw the lifeless form of her nephew lying on the ground.

"Where is he?" Piper begged anyone who would answer, as her sister rushed to the side. Turning her head she saw where her sister was going. "No, no, no, please be okay." Piper cried as she ran to her son's side, crying with an anguish only a mother could feel as she found her son lying there almost dead, blood pooling around his body.

"Chris, Chris wake up, I'm so sorry, I'll make this better I promise."

"Mom?" Chris whispered.

"Yeah baby?"

"I'm sorry, I gotta go, see ya."

"NO! Chris I will NOT let you die! Do you hear me, you will not die! LEO, LEO, GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE NOW!" Piper screamed at the heavens.

"No mom I wanna go."

"No!No!No! LEO IF YOU LET MY SON DIE I WILL KILL YOU!"

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