Qhuinn's POV
As we lay there panting, trying to catch our breath, all I could think
about was the male in my arms. At that point, he was my whole world.
And since this was our first real, totally uninterrupted kiss, I didn't
want it to end. And I had a feeling he didn't want that either.
And somehow, even though we were barely inches from each other, we
still couldn't look into each other's eyes. I know on my part, I was
afraid he'd see how much I desperately, desperately needed him. How
vulnerable I was to him right now. And at the same time, I was also
afraid of seeing rejection in his eyes. Afraid I wouldn't be able to
handle him not caring for me the same way I did for him... I mean,
after all, he did have Saxton now.
Shit. Saxton.
At that thought, I started to pull away. And I'll be damned if Blay
wasn't going to let that happen. He brought one finger under my chin,
forcing my stare up to meet his. "Hey," he said. And I'm not sure
what he saw on my face, fear of his rejection, or disappointment from
realizing the truth of the situation, but his face fell in response.
"Qhuinn," he said, clearing his throat. "Don't go there. Please.
Whatever it is, just... please. Not now." And again, he brought
his lips to mine. This time is a slow, very sensual way.
Pleading, urging me to just be in this moment with him.
And yeah, I was so on board with that.
I let myself get lost in the feeling of his lips caressing mine. God,
his lips! Oh so soft against mine. Opening and closing, no
penetration needed. It was just purely and simply about the
connection, about feeling the same thing at the same time.
And man, was I feeling him.
Ever so slowly, Blay rolled us over so that he was on top. It was...
weird enough to be kissing him, (natural, comfortable even, but
definitely not something I was used to just yet...) And the fact
that he was taking control of the situation like this, really threw me
off my game. Plus, it was Blay. My sweet, soft, yet still somehow
kick ass, Blay.
Soon the kiss deepened, becoming more heated and urgent. Blay pinned
me down using the full weight of his body, but I didn't want to move
too fast. He was too special and what we had between us, whatever the
hell that may be, was still too fragile and new. As his hands moved to
the hem of my shirt I noticed he was trembling slightly, only this time
I didn't think it was from passion… but more likely from pressure.
While he started to work my shirt up, leaving burning trails on my skin
from his fingertips, his mouth moved to my neck…. And I knew, one tiny
little scrap of his fangs, and I'd absolutely lose it. I had to take
control quick before things got too far. I knew Blay wanted this, but
sometimes the boy just got in over his head and didn't really know what
he wanted.
I had to take control… except with Blay working my shirt and his lips
still at my neck, it was gonna be tough… shit, yeah… real tough.
Being the selfish creature I am, I let him keep working a minute
longer, not being able to help propping my knees up and letting them
fall open so that he was cradled between my thighs. And god did that
feel perfect. And that's just it, we were perfectly matched. He was
just a few inches shorter than me so his hips fell right where I wanted
them to. I could feel his hot length begin to harden against mine.
And yeah, my soldier was pretty much at attention too.
He let out a lusty, throaty moan as I involuntarily rolled my hips and
it was too much. In a sudden surge I had him on his back. Grabbing
his hands once more I drew them over his head as my lips came crashing
down on his. And there was no way I was letting him off easy this time.
Since I was straddling him now, I pulled back so I could catch my
breath. Far enough so that, while still holding him in place, he
couldn't reach me with his lips. I was wrong.
Apparently his animal instincts had kicked in as he stretched up,
pulling against his restraints and licked at my lips. When I refused
to respond he went a step further and sucked my bottom lip into his
mouth, dragging it out with his teeth when he retreated. The fact that
I was still panting through all this and still trying to hold him down
made it that much more erotic. And I think he knew how far gone I was
because one tiny, tiny nick of his teeth would have sealed the deal
right then and there. But if something was going to happen, it was
going to be right.
As he started to slide his tongue into my open mouth and over my teeth,
I growled low. A warning. Probably the only one he was going to get.
It got his attention… well, sort of.
He sucked a breath in while still against my mouth, effectively
stealing my breath and leaving me literally breathless. "What?" he
whispered, raising his eye brows in mock innocence.
Who was this sex monster and what had he done with my 'shy, innocent,
non-aggressive, non-confrontational, never-let-himself-go' Blay?
Blay's POV
God, I couldn't believe we were doing this. I can't believe we're
doing this. It's actually happening. It's gonna happen. Right now.
With Qhuinn.
And that's what makes it all alright. Okay. If it was anybody else,
well… but it's Qhuinn. And I wanted this so badly. I want him.
"What?" I asked when he pulled back. I saw the resolve in his face,
but there was restraint there too. He was fighting it. Of course he
was. He always had.
But then it changed. The restraint faded and the resolve
strengthened. I could feel him hardening against me as a promise of
things to come and my breath hitched up a notch in response.
Straightening his legs, he let his full weight fall on me, bringing us
together from hip to toe. He still held my hands above my head,
propping his upper body off the floor while I had let mine fall back
down. He growled again, seductively this time, and accentuated it with
a very deep roll of his hips. I bit my lip hard and let my head tilt
back silently, remembering that we weren't really in a private space
here.
I tried to bring my hands up to Qhuinn's … anything, but he wasn't
having that. "Stay." He said, slamming my hands back down and behind
my head. I automatically laced my fingers through and when he was
apparently satisfied that I wasn't going to remove them, he let go…
only to drag his hands first to my shoulders, then down to my pecks. I
let out a hiss as he slide down to my nipples, made small circles and
pinched me slightly through the fabric. God, I wanted my shirt gone.
I wanted his shirt gone. I wanted to be skin to skin. I tried again
to reach for his shirt and again he growled and forcibly brought my
hands back to their previous position laced behind my head.
"Stay. There." Man he was hot when he was in control… which was all
the time.
"God, I want you. I want to feel you" I whispered. My voice was so
raspy that I'm not sure how he understood me, but he did. Applying
pressure, he raked his hands down my abs to just over my navel.
Grabbing a hand full of my shirt, he fisted it, pushing it up as far as
it'd go and brought his mouth to my skin, setting it on fire.
Too soon though, he rose back up. I was about object when he grabbed
both sides of my shirt and practically ripped it off over my head,
pulling me into a sitting position with it. His aggressiveness was
such a turn on that I could barely see straight. As it was, Qhuinn was
looking at me like he was a starving man and I was his first and last
meal… which was just fine with me. Sure, we'd seen each other topless
and even naked plenty of times, but in a situation like this, it made
it all feel new. Like the first time.
His hands were following his eyes. Starting low, at my sides, just
over my hip bones, at that perfect little 'V' so many people worked so
hard to get. And yeah, I have to admit, I was pretty cut. It was
nice. ((An. ;) ))
He had rolled back on his knees, basically sitting in my lap. I took
advantage of his momentary distraction …me, and slide my hands to his
back, under his shirt.
Just then, Qhuinn's breath slowed as he kissed my neck. He slid his
hands down my arms, pulling away slightly till we were holding hands.
As he did this, he was making a soft "shh"ing noise.
Shit. He must have noticed I was shaking again. I really was no-good
at the whole sex thing. It all scared me. I wanted it, I want Qhuinn,
but I'm still not really sure what I'm doing or if I'm doing it right.
And I really don't want to mess things up with Qhuinn. Not on any
level and especially not like this.
"Shh...Hey," He said, "Relax".