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Damn You Alice,
I swear if you tell anyone and i mean anyone at all, i will never speak to you again, my urge to keep it a secret? hah! More like my urge to live!! Maybe you've forgotten this, but he is a doctor! a well respected liked doctor. Please remember this Alice, it takes hours to get here even by plane, thats more then enough time for him to kill me for telling someone and to get out the here. I know your only trying to help, and i appreciate that but please think before you do. To you he is sincere and nice, but to me.... well i think he blames me for you and her leaving. And no you can't tell her, if she knew... she wouldn't do anything, I know you still think the reason i was left here with him, was because Girl's are suposed to live with girls, and the samething for guys. But come on Alice you smarter then that! you want to know why i was left here and you got to live with her? Yeah i would to. Because i still can't seem to fathom why unless of course she doesn't accept me as her son. I've always been an outsider looking in at the picture perfect family you all were! doctor father, stay at home wife devoted to her family, perfect daughter... but where do i fit in, with this hallmark card image? Why did you get to live with her? Why not me? Why not both of us? Don't defend her, unless you know what it's like to have to lie to everyone, to hide the secret that you are literally dying to tell... Hoping maybe one day someone will figure it out, and stop it. Wondering what you did to deserve something like this! To be scared to come to your own house hoping that he is still at work. She would not come and get me, and you know that! Stop believing the damn lies and see past that to the truth, because your the only one i have and if your not on my side then i'm fighting this battle alone, and i just win. Please Alice.... you can't tell anyone. My life relies on you.
Let's look on the bright side... At lease YOU get to live a semi-normal life
EDWARD