Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Supernatural
Note: Since I did Dean saying goodbye, I thought I'd give Sam something to cry about. After all, he misses his big brother. This is before he met up with Ruby.
Sam stood in front of Dean's grave. Well, it wasn't a real grave, not like the one his mother had. There was no tombstone in a graveyard. Instead, Sam gave him a marker in the middle of nowhere. His own private resting space and someplace no one will see Sam cry. Sam visited Dean every day for the past month, rain or shine, demons or no demons, day or night, he came.
Sam sighed as he tried to fight back the tears. "Hey, Dean." Sam said to the small wooden cross. "It's just me again. . . .I miss you every day, y'know?" Sam choked. "Bobby and Ellen and everyone else say it's supposed to get easier, but it just gets harder." His heart pounded in his ears. Dean's name pulsed through his heart, sang in his mind and ran through his blood. "What am I supposed to do, Dean? I can't go back to a normal life. . . .to college; you and hunting were my life." Sam kicked the dirt. "You wanna know a secret? Remember when I told you, I only went with you to find Dad? I lied." Sam cried. "The moment I saw you, you felt so. . . .wrong. You put on a brave face for your little brother. But you were alone. The Impala is so empty, Dean. A nice car like that should be filled. Dad wasn't there, mom wasn't. . . . " Sam whispered. "And, I'm sorry I wasn't there. . . .Dean, all alone and I'm sorry you waited so long for me. I may be a freak; you may be a freak, why not be freaks together? How could I resist? " Sam said. "Dean because of you, I have saved so many lives. WE have saved so many lives. You saved mine and I'm sorry I couldn't return the favor." Sam blinked away tears. "Even though you're gone, the people who you saved are going to remember you. Dean Winchester, the Lonely Angel. You never asked for fame or waited around for thanks. . . .Dean, I miss you so much. . . .But I have to move on, right? Because, it's going to be okay. I have to keep fighting the good fight. So, this is me, fighting the good fight. Everything I do from now on, it's for you Dean. You may be the big brother who saves my ass, but I'm the little brother who supposed to catch you when you fall. But, you've never fallen. Not even in death. So, I'll be here waiting to catch you when you fall from Heaven." Sam closed his eyes. "Say 'hi' to mom and dad for me. . . .Bye, Dean. I'll come back tomorrow." Sam touched the cross before leaving.