Chapter Four
The Doctor's POV

"Mum!" Lexi gasped, shocked at her mother's audacity. I was fairly shocked as well. I attempted to swallow the tea I had chocked on at the same time I attempted to come up with a semi-intelligent response.

"Ms. Steler," I began after regaining at least some of my authority over my own thoughts that were threateningly close to returning to memories from the night prior that I had so far done a moderately good job of locking away. "I can assure you that I would never…"

"Never what?" She asked cutting me off, "Sleep with my daughter? Because I can tell by the look on both you're faces that you already clearly have."

"Mum, drop it." Lexi tried again.

"I mean don't get me wrong, I don't care what you two do in your private time."

"I wouldn't purposely put her in a situation that…" I continued to explain lamely.

"That compromised her moral integrity? Because believe me, she's not a-"

"Mum!" Lexi gasped again horrified. I risked a glance in her direction. She was staring at her mum with an intensity that I hadn't seen before from a human, with the exception of maybe Rose on that beach in Norway. I mentally smacked myself for this thought. How was it that my mind still wandered back to Rose in a situation like this one?

"Alright, alright." Her mum said, "I get it, too embarrassing a subject for the new couple to talk about in front of The Mom."

"Yeah, something a bit like that." Lexi said putting hear head in her hands in frustration. I scratched at the back of my neck grappling for something to say to break the tension that hung in the air ominously like a Dalek invasion fleet.

"Well I'm going to go make some more tea since I'm out and the Doctor choked on most of his." With this statement Lexi's mother got up, picked up the tea tray off the table, and disappeared into the kitchen. Both Lexi and I let out an unconscious sigh of relief and I chuckled nervously.

"Well that was thoroughly awkward." I said after a few painfully long seconds.

"You can't say I didn't warn you." She replied meeting my gaze for the first time since that unfortunate conversation of a few minutes ago. There was another silent pause.

"Do you want to sneak out while she's in there mangling some more tea?" I asked with a grin.

"Yes!" She said gratefully.

I think I know why all the time
But I'm lost when it comes to you
I turn a blind eye every time you cross my mind
Don't wanna know what I feel for you

"I can honestly tell you that I have never been more confused by a mother's reaction than your Mum's." I told Lexi once we were back in the TARDIS. "Normally they just assume that I have slept with their daughter, or son, you'd be surprised about that one, and they slap me. Jackie Tyler and Francine Jones both have a pretty good arm."

"So I've heard." She said with a grin remembering all the stories I'd told her.

"And on top of all that," I continued, "This is the first time that I have actually been guilty of …" I immediately regretted continuing.

"Guilty of…?" Lexi inquired with a giggle towards my uncomfort.

"You know… that." God this was awkward.

"Shagging?" She offered. I coughed and looked at the scanner instead of answering. She laughed and walked over to the console.

"Sleeping together?" She said after few seconds. I nodded. She laughed again. "Can you bring yourself to say it?"

"Does it need saying?" I asked, "You and I both know what happened. It was a mistake. It won't happen again." She went quite. I rubbed my forehead in frustration.

"Right." She agreed, "Don't need to worry about the past or anything when you can travel to the future." She started walking away.

You were my days, my nights
My pictures of fate
I wanna travel back in time
I wanna see what I can save
Do you?

"You didn't want to talk about it did you?" I asked hoping that the answer was no, even though it was obvious she was confused and talking about it would probably help.

"No." She lied, "I'm going to go sketch something." I nodded.

"Oh and Lexi!" She turned back. "I was thinking about the early 1900's. What do you think?" She smiled.

"Yeah. Sounds great, not that I have a choice; not like I know how to fly the TARDIS." She paused, "Yet."

"Go on down the wardrobe room on your way and find yourself a nice dress. A nice, appropriate dress; don't want you starting a riot."

"I will anyways." She warned with a kidding smile. And with a slight wave she headed off into the depths of the TARDIS.

I set the coordinates for the correct time and place, London of course, and then headed off to the wardrobe room myself. Normally I didn't dress up when going to a different time, but you couldn't visit the 1900's without a posh top hat. I entered the wardrobe room and nearly tripped on a dress that lay rejected on the ground. I looked down and saw that there were piles of dresses everywhere. I shook my head and began picking them up and putting them back on hangers. It had been a good half an hour by the time I'd finished and grabbed a brown silk top hat.

Sometimes I wanna go back
To where we were
Sometimes I wanna go back
To where we were before
Where we were

I wandered towards Lexi's room twiddling my hat between my hands. She didn't answer when I knocked so I let myself in. Lexi was lying on her bed, surrounded by pencils, fast asleep. I chuckled and crouched down to pick up her sketchbook that had fallen to the ground. I began to leaf through the pages. They contained sketches of the last few days, the fireworks, the restaurant, the gate to the planet's center, and me.

I sat down on the edge of the bed as I starred at this picture. It was a picture of me lying in bed on my side, my head resting on my hand. I wasn't wearing shirt, I assume nothing else as well, but the picture only went to the end of my ribs so I couldn't be sure, and I was looking out. I remembered that this was a memory from Lexi's point of view so I must have been looking at her, but my eyes were so intense that my image startled me. I wondered, had I looked at her that way because I had been entirely engulfed in the moment, happy even? Or was it the simple desire caused by the aphrodisiac? I looked…I looked like I was in love. I wasn't in love and it wasn't my fault what happened. I tried to convince myself that the bond I felt towards Lexi was as platonic as possible under the circumstances and that she was no different than any other companion I'd ever had.

I put the book down on the bedside table and then set my hat on top of it. I had convinced myself that there were no feelings of love between us, so I gently pushed a strand of her hair out of her face and settled down on the bed next to her, wrapping my arm around her waist. My last thought before I drifted to sleep, nothing special about our relationship at all. Convincing yourself of something is one thing. It's another thing entirely to lie blatantly to your own subconscious.

I'm always looking for a sign
That could lead me back to you
But I won't go there half the way
Don't wanna lie
Don't wanna get over you

Notes: Song: Where We Were By:Adam Watts-The next chapter is basically going to be them avoiding their feelings some more…but do not fear, Jack is coming really soon I promise. =)