A/N: so I got a few reviews and one of them suggested that I get a Beta so I am now looking for one. Apparently I need to be careful of mistakes(which I already knew since I'm no good at English but yea), so if anyone would like to volunteer as one then I'm listening.

I know that it has been like MONTHS since I updated but seriously don't bail on me now and plzzz gimme a break I've been moving houses and have lost like most of my stuff. Plus I gotta study 4 a science test and complete a few assignments, not to mention catch upon all the class that I missed when I was away moving hoses. You have no idea what happened I mean I LOST MYLAPTOP of all things to lose, seriously, then I had to rewrite the chapter since it well was AWFUL and school just started. Ugh. I'm screwed, but still trying my best 2 update. Enjoy next chapter. And plzzz be patient I'm doing my best!

P.S I'm all ears 4advice on where this should go. Sorry for the long Authors note.

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HUSH HUSH- currently one book(second one in november)

And EVERNIGHT SERIES. (three books)

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DISCLAIMER: not me. Jace owned by Cassandra Claire, I'm not even sure if I spelled it rite.(further proof that I'm not her. LOL)

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Recap: Rose and Jace were going for a drive to her new home. Rose said that she would only go with him she could drive. He said yes and now they are on their way to the flat.

ROSE POV
Ok so maybe it was a mistake to take him up on his offer for a lift. The silence is horrible. I mean it's really uncomfortable and I'm afraid that if I say anything then it will come out pretty rude...not that I care he deserves it. He's such a player and really annoying sometimes, not to mention forceful. He just won't take no for an answer. It kind of pisses me off and yet it is pretty cute as well. Get a grip Rose you're losing it. Not surprising with the past that I have. Ok I gotta stop thinking about that, it was seven years ago I'm a different person now.

Just at that moment, when all the memories flooded back to me, all the screaming and shouting, the gun shots and the men filming it all, me watching it all happen, unable to turn away or move, from the back garden. Jace interrupted me, asking if I was ok.

"Ye...yea I'm fine." I replied. "Just...uhh... thinking." I tried to smile but I don't think that it came out that way, since the frown between his eyebrows deepened.

"Are you sure? You haven't said anything insulting this whole time and from what I saw earlier I'm not so sure you're the type to 'keep quiet'. Plus you look like you're gonna be sick." He added as an afterthought trying to lighten the mood.

I knew that he was trying to cheer me up because he didn't believe me about 'being okay' and if I was honest with myself, then it was working. But I wasn't honest and so I took it as an insult. It was just as well because I was starting to let this guy in and I have never done that before not with anyone.

The case with Lucy was and is different. She's been my friend since forever. I've known her all my life and she is a girl, even if she doesn't really GET IT she still respects my space and knows that I will tell her things when I feel like it. Plus, unlike some people, she doesn't look at me with sympathy in her eyes. And neither does he. All the people in this school know about what happened thanks to the insane amount of gossips, so, there is a high risk that he knows as well but I prefer to think that he doesn't. Otherwise the situation can get difficult. I can tell that he has something hidden as well but I'm not gonna ask. If he wants to tell me then he will.

"Are you sure you're okay? You look like you're struggling with something." He said, with worry evident in his voice even though he was trying to hide it.

I turned to look at him, as we were already at the apartment. When I caught his eye I saw a flicker of emotion in his eyes, but it was gone so fast that it made me wonder whether I had seen it or not.

"Honestly?" I said quite seriously. He nodded his head. I wasn't going to go into detail about it and if by any chance he didn't know, I wasn't going to tell him at all. For some reason or other I did not want him to look at me with sympathy in his eyes like most people do. I wanted him to treat me like he would a normal person, well maybe a bit better than a normal person, but a normal person none the less.

I wanted to trust him, I really did- even though I hated myself for it. he seemed so sweet when he was away from all those people at school, it made me wonder whether this was really the guy that I had seen on TV, the guy that I had seen be such an asshole to so many people, the guy that I hated.

I took a deep breath and asked him whether he knew about what had happened to me seven years ago, if anyone had told him. He nodded his head so I began with my story. Not all of it but most of the essentials.

"Ok, so, about seven years ago when I was almost ten, I was out with my friends' family. When I got home instead of unlocking the door to our house and walking in I decided to surprise them and go in from the back garden, giddy with excitement over what I did on the weekend. My friend had invited me to go to an amusement park and my parents had said yes. We had, had fun and I was really happy, until I got home. When I reached the backyard I could hear screams and shouts coming from inside so I went over the window and looked inside. What I saw shocked me so much that I couldn't say a word or even move. I looked at my parents and they were tied to a chair with my little brother, he was only three." I whispered the last part the whole while staring at my feet.

I looked up and turned to see Jace with this look in his eyes, which made me realise what I was doing and so I quickly covered up any trace of emotion on my face, which wasn't hard since I've had so much time to practice.

The only person that I knew who could see through my charade is no longer in my life. Luce can read me well but she could read me better. The last time I saw her was a few years ago. The day that we had a huge fall out with each other. It was on that day when I decided to move to this place, and Luce being loyal did the same. I'm secretly glad that she came and I think that she knows it. I feel like a stupid girl after that day.

"You're staring at me. Look if you really want me all you have to do is say so you know. I mean you're not really my type but I can make an exception." The comment interrupted my mental flashback and pulled me back down to earth.

I couldn't stand to spend another moment with this guy. He acts like a creep the moment I start to open up to him. Doesn't he know how hard it was for me to tell him all that stuff? Obviously not Rose, he's a jerk remember? I mentally smacked myself.

I turn towards him and look at him with loathing and say "You know, I was just starting to think that you weren't what I thought you were, I guess I was right the first time."

I get out of the car and start back towards the apartment. Before I stepped inside I turned to him and said snidely "the three men standing over my family were three guys who had had their fifteen minutes of fame and were looking for more by brutally murdering my family, just goes to show what fame can do to you I guess." With that I gave him a death stare and started to walk away, I turned back and glared daggers at him while I said "and I was just starting to like you". Before I turned around I saw that unknown emotion in his eyes again. This time I was sure that it was there but I chose to ignore it. He was such a jerk.

JACE POV

As soon as she started to speak I was mesmerised. But when she got to the bit about her parents being tied up the spell was broken. I don't know what made me do it but I put on a look that makes me look like could give a shit, but I did, I don't know what it was about her but I wanted to hold and tell her that it was alright but I didn't... I couldn't.

Most of the time the look makes girls want me more, but I knew it wouldn't work with her. But I did it anyway. The look on her face told me all I needed to know. She was hurt, I knew she was. And yet I didn't try to correct her.

I knew how hard to was for people to open up to someone they just met and yet I didn't say anything. I didn't apologise, I didn't get rid of the look, ask her to continue or even make up some stupid excuse.

She looked hurt especially since I had asked her to tell me her story in the first place.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

With every word I hit my head onto the steering wheel.

This girl was going to be the death of me.

I just can't get the look on her face when she saw me out of my head. She looked so hurt and pissed. God, she looked soo good even when she was mad.

But when she was telling me the story all I wanted to do was to hold her and take away her pain. Make her feel happy. She shouldn't be sad. She deserves more.

The look she gave me when she walked out of the car and up to her front door. When she told me that she was just starting to like me. That had done it. I wanted to scream out to her and say I'm sorry to tell her that I didn't mean it and take t all back. But I couldn't it's like my tongue was stuck to the top of my roof. I couldn't talk at all.

Before she turned on her heel and stalked away she gave me this loathsome look, which made me hate myself even more.

Here I am saying that she should be happy when, I'm making her unhappy as well. What a jerk I am. She was right.

I have to fix this before it gets serious. I have to do something. Stop her from getting sad if I can.

Flashback:

Yo-you have t-to be ...str-stro-strong...son...fo-for...you-your mum...now...a-and y-yours-yourself. I... love...you...

END OF FLASHBACK

I-I had to get away from all these memories. All these unwanted things.

So I stuck the key in the ignition and drove. I don't know how long I drove for but I somehow ended up at the beach.

I got out of the car and started walking.

As I looked out at the ocean I watched the sun set and let myself be. I put all my guards down thinking that I was alone and immersed myself in my senses.

I could feel the coolness of the breeze on my skin with the faintest of smell of fish hmm, there must be a fishing station here somewhere, the soft yet ruff sand between my toes, most would find it uncomfortable, but me on the other hand, it reminded me of the fact that no one's perfect. On one and nothing. I could smell the salty water in the air and taste the saltiness of the ocean on my tongue. I could hear the soft sound of the ocean calling out to me and hear the waves in the distance gently crashing into the Cliffside in the distance, along with the low howl of a lonely dog further away. Never before had I felt so peaceful, so alive... so carefree.

I stayed that way for a while. I don't know how long, when I heard the soft footsteps of a person behind me. The ease of the situation disappeared as easy as it had come with the appearance of this stranger.

I turned around and saw a young girl around my age walking towards me. She looked unsure with herself.

"Hi, my name is Isabelle" she said, uncertainty evident in her voice. "I'm kinda lost and was wondering if you could give me directions to..." she looked down at the paper in her hand and said "Areal High" I looked at her with renewed interest. She seemed to have seen it and said "I'm looking for an old friend. Do you go there?" she asked. I gave her a curt nod. She smiled in return. "Well maybe you know her, her name is Rose, Rose Archer." I looked at her dumbstruck. Who is this girl?

A/N: so anyone wanna guess who she is? Plzzz review if I get 5 reviews for this chapter then I will try to update on Thursday. So plzz review. And I'm looking for a Beta so if your free send me review. U guys have been awesome so far. Keep it up!

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