Hi guys... just a simple fic... a birthday gift for myself...

I am a late bloomer (Gosh, I hate myself for this)...

I just woke up one day and heard Taylor Swift's song on the radio...

(I mean... DUUHH! I heard this song like, a gazillion times now...)

I instantly fell in love with the lyrics... it felt so desperate and I loved it!

I immediately saw Sasuke and Itachi... the rest is history!

So here is the result of my immediate inspiration...

Happy Birthday to me!

You Belong With Me

Itachi Uchiha : Doubtful and Troubled

Oh... do I know you? What? Oh yeah... I remember now. Sorry... I just have a lot in my mind right now. I think you know me... yeah, you are right... I'm Itachi... Itachi Uchiha. I am sitting here with my dumb girlfriend... yeah, you heard me right. No kidding, I really did say she is dumb. We had a fight yesterday... it wasn't my fault... She saw me and this other girl I met 2 days ago in a... well, we were... uh, never mind. I think you get the picture. Anyway... she started making a scene. I had to promise her things (that I never intended on fulfilling) just to shut her up.

I am tired. Honestly, I never found contentment... There was always something missing... I just can't pinpoint what. My life is troubled... people would look up to me as if I'm like a god or something. The girls in my life... well... they are so willing... I am just a man... I get tempted sometimes, must be the hormones. But it's always the same, after the physical rush... my real world would tumble back to me. I am so fucked up... I just hope I would find out my reason for living soon. I want to live a life with direction. I want to have a clear mind soon. I feel so troubled and in doubt all the time.

What did you say? Oh, you want to know why I am like this? I am not contented... I am not satisfied. Why? I don't know... You don't believe me, do you? Well... I think you can keep a secret... You will? Good... I really need to get this out of my system. I've been wallowing in this confusion for years now. You see... I think I don't know myself anymore. I am so troubled... I am doubting my intuition... I have been through a lot... but this thing that's bugging me... it's different from everything that I've encountered... I... I think I'm in love... and I am sure it's not just lust... Must I go on?

Why are you snickering? I am confessing things to you... I am serious... Listen... young teenage love is so easy... it is synonymous to lust... you like someone and that someone likes you back... then after that, you are a couple... you hit the sack and kaboom! You break up... young love is so shallow... I had those... I can't even remember all their names. Personally I know right from the start that I never loved any of them. I just needed distraction... and someone to cover my manly needs... temporarily. I am afraid this love that I am talking about will go nowhere... will have no future at all.

Why? Well you see... it's really complicated. You want me to elaborate? Okay... fine... but promise me one thing first... don't laugh. Okay, you promise? Good. Here goes... You see... I've been carrying this burden in my heart for years... let's see... one... two... three... seven years now to be exact. I really am so confused... I am not sure if this is right or wrong. But it feels so right... no matter how wrong it may be... I don't have anyone to talk to about this... they might get the biggest shock of their lives. You really wanna hear it? Okay... here goes... I think I am in love with my brother, Sasuke...

You still there? See? I told you it would shock you... I know... I know... hey... chill out... I really don't know how it happened. I am thinking it was because of our parents' death. I became possessive of the only treasure in my life. Sasuke was so young at that time... he needed comfort... I gave it to him... but I ended up getting too attached to him. My fraternal love elevated to something deeper. I never thought it could happen... I mean... we are men and related by blood. It's really complicated don't you think? I have to force myself to put a space between us... that's when the girls came in.

But it became worse. The more I distanced myself from him, the more I needed him. Everytime I have sex with any willing girl... I see him in her place. I even see him in my dreams. Fuck... I am so fucked up. My brain is damaged beyond repair. Lately after reminiscing, I realized that all my girlfriends were pale and have black hair... must I tell you the reason? Do you think I am already a lune? This incestuous love has to go... I am loosing my mind, for Kami's sake. The burning desire that I have for my younger brother really has to go.

What will happen to me? What will happen to us if I tell him? Sasuke, my brother... he is 16 now, and heavens he is the most delicious thing my eyes has ever set up on. He looks like an angel that fell from the sky and lived on earth. His skin is so creamy and flawless, that I have this undying urge to mark it as my own. His eyes... those sad, speaking eyes would always send shivers to my spine everytime he would look my way. His mouth... those pink lips... Kami... how I dream of tasting those lips... I want to know if it tastes as sweet as it looks.

I never wanted anyone this way before. Don't call this curiosity... I am a confirmed bisexual. Though I am seen more with female partners, I had a couple of same sex flings before... Believe me...I really had those. And I don't care what you think. I am old enough to understand these things. I tried to get my brother off my mind, but as they say... the more you cover the flame, the hotter it burns. I don't know if I can go on like this. I have kept this feelings inside for years, I am at the verge of exploding. I really need to decide soon... I might loose my self control...

So finally... it's out. I can't think straight as of the moment, I am so confused right now... and my girlfriend is looking at me, her dark eyes are pleading... I really feel sorry for her... I will never learn to love her like the way I love Sasuke... I will never need her the way I need my brother. I better go now, I need to take her home... She will calm down later... I know what she needs... that's what they all need after all... I'm too tired... I think I better end my relationship with her... she is getting too clingy and I don't like it... This will be our last night together...

~tbc~

i decided to upload every chapter today...

it's my day after all...

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