I look down at my feet. On the surface I still felt some anger, but as I got older that anger vanished. I realized why he committed seppuku, even though it was still a selfish deed, I realized that when I became a Jounin, now the same rank as him, I could carry on the clan. Now no matter how hard I tried I could come up with even an ounce of anger towards him. He passed on so much to me, I now have the respect that he has. Now I feel his pressure, his burden, I too share it.
"Kakashi, come on don't space out on me now" Akihira said waving her hand in front of my face.
"Akihira you are smart enough to figure out the answer yourself." With that said I looked at the picture of my sensei, and left.
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Sakumo POV
I find Jiraiya sitting under a shade tree, training Naruto. He hears me coming and glances at me without turning his head.
"So, how did he take it? Or haven't you gotten that far yet?" I look away from his face gathering myself,
"I think he took it alright, but I was the one to take the wrong way."
"Let me guess you bolted as soon as you saw the look on his face."
"Yeah..." I said looking away from him. Naruto, overhearing our conversation looks at me and retorts,
"You ran away? He was right there! You had him! Yet you ran instead of facing your fears?"
"Naruto!" the Sanin yells back, "Don't talk to your Sakumo like that! Sakumo could kill-" But at this I put my hand up and Jiraiya stops in mid-sentence with a rather concerned look on his face.
"Naruto has every right to criticize me." I reply, "But the look on the face was similar to Karei's when she was in childbirth, a look to this day still haunts me."
"Hmmm." The sanin ponders. Naruto now becomes inquisitive,
"Wait so did something happen when Kakashi-sensei was born?"
"Naruto! Have some respect!" But once more my hand goes up to silence him.
"Naruto can ask what he wants. Continue Naruto."
"So what happened exactly?" The blonde-boy asks.
"Ahh..." I begin, sighing and looking skyward, "When Karei was in labor, several complications arose, and if weren't for Akihira and Tsunades' efforts, I would have lost both my wife and my son." Narutos eyes widen at the thought of not having Kaakshi in the village. I went on to continue, "Karei was in her final moments of labor, and a certain look came to her face. A look mixed with fear, pain, exhaustion, joy, shock, tears down her face and a trace of death began to cloud her eyes. It was this nearly same expression that was on Kakashis face when I showed myself to him. I couldn't take it. Once the baby was delivered however, she was as happy as can be." I could feel my face relax, my tense muscles release themselves.
"Telling that story again Sakumo-kun?" I hear a soft voice say. All of us turn our heads to see a visitor has come.
"Haha! I was wondering when you'd show up!" Jiraiya boomed. But I am frozen to my seat.