Do Not Own Hey Arnold!
Chapter Five
Unfaithful, Untruthful,& Untold Love
"What do you mean you liked it?" Phoebe asked me while we were still in the ice cream shop.
"I mean….It felt better than before we kissed" I said.
"How?"
"Well ummm…..he kissed me back"
Phoebe's eyes widen. "Oh my god, I can't believe it. What going to happen now that happen?"
I shrugged my shoulders.
"Well you two shouldn't act weird when you are around each other"
"I know but, it was like out of nowhere and I kind of feel ashamed at what I did" I put a spoon full of ice cream in mouth.
"Why should you"
I almost choked on her ice cream by Phoebe's responds.
"Phoebe"
"What? You should be with Arnold not Lila"
I shook my head and then spoke. "Phoebe what you don't understand that he don't want to be with me. I'm not pretty and I'm sometimes not nice to some people even to him, face it I'm not the one for him."
"But the kiss…"
"I was drunk and didn't know what I was doing" I interrupted her. "Let's go back to eating our ice cream Phees"
"Eating" Phoebe said repeating what I said like she always does. I don't know why Phoebe is still trying for me to asks Arnold to be with me. He doesn't want me, he wants a girl like Lila pretty, nice,& smart I'm just smart and that it. Nobody wants me.
After we were done with our ice cream and leave out the shop, Phoebe had to go home to help her mom with cleaning the house.
"Okay I see later" I told her.
"See ya and remember to do the homework in chemistry before tomorrow" she said.
"Don't worry I will do it….maybe" I joked.
"Whatever" She gave me a hug then walked away and I walked in the other direction from her. I was walking past the movie theatre until I saw Lila standing by herself in front of it.
'What is she doing there all alone?' I thought to myself.
Then I saw Sticky walking up to her and then they gave each other a hug and shared a kissed. My eyes were widen and I walked fast so they wouldn't see me then turn the corner quick. Oh my god….Lila cheating on Arnold with Stinky!
I peeked from the corner and see Stinky arm wrapped around Lila's waist and holding her close to her. I didn't know what to do, should I tell Arnold? I should but, they might have already broken up. No way, Arnold would have told me when we saw each other earlier. Man this is crazy.
I went back to walking to my house and I kept seeing Lila and Stinky kissing in my head. I got to tell Arnold the next time I see him.
It Monday, Me and Phoebe are on the bus going to school.
"Lila and Phoebe did what!" Phoebe said out loud. I cover her mouth with my hand and shhh her then looked around to see if anybody heared. Nobody was paying attention to us. I took my hand off her mouth.
"Keep it down I don't people to know" I said quietly.
"Why? Now people can know how Lila is not really who people think she is" she said quietly too.
"Yeah, but I want to tell Arnold not anybody else"
"I can't believe it. Lila and Stinky"
"I can. He been liking her ever since she came to P.S. 118 in fourth grade"
"Now I can't wait until we get to school" Phoebe said joking. We both laughed. And I can agree with her I can't wait either.
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We finally arrive at school and when we get off we see Arnold walking with Gerald and Lila. 'I need to talk to Arnold alone' I walked up to them.
"Hey Helga. Hey Phoebe" Arnold said.
Phoebe waved at them.
"Hey Arnold, can we talk alone?" I asked him.
"Yeah sure" he said.
"But, Helga can we talk first….alone?" Lila said.
"Okay" I said.
Me and Lila walk away from the group to somewhere far away from them.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"I saw you yesterday" she said. My heart beat fast. 'Shoot I'm busted'
"What do you mean?"
"At the movies. I saw you walking by and I know you saw me with Stinky"
"Yeah and I want to know why you cheating on Arnold?"
"Because I don't want to lost Arnold"
"Lila you can't be messing with Arnold's heart. Cheating isn't the answer"
"Why do you care you don't even like Arnold"
I was silent, I didn't know what to say.
"I brought you over here to tell you not to tell him. I know what I'm doing and I break up with him when the time is right"
"And when that? When you and Stinky are married?" I said. What is wrong with her. Did is the terrible thing Lila is doing and I don't like it.
"Look Helga, if you tell him I will tell him you liked him and had a crazy crush on him" she said with a devilish smile.
"You wouldn't dare" I threaten but she wasn't scared.
"I would and even if you tell him I will back up my story and he won't believe you"
This is what I get for telling my secret with somebody I don't like.
"Now let's go back to the others and pretend this conversion never happen"
"Whatever" I mumble.
We walk back to Arnold, Gerald, and Phoebe.
"Ready to go?" Lila said cheerfully to Arnold and wrapped her arms around his neck and then they kissed each other then Arnold let go of Lila and he turn to me.
"So Helga what you want to talk about?" Arnold asked. Lila looked at me.
"Oh nothing, I forgot" I said.
"Okay let's go to class babe" Arnold said to Lila as they hold hands then walked off.
"I see at lunch Phoebe" Gerald said before walking behind Arnold and Lila.
"Bye Gerald" Phoebe said. She looked at me confused.
"Let's go to class"
"What happen? I thought you was going to tell him" she said.
"Yeah, but Lila told me if I tell him he won't believe me and that is true" I explain.
"Wow. Now what?"
"I don't know" I shrugged my shoulders.
We start to walk up the stairs to the school.
I can't I'm being blackmail by a goody two shoes. This week is beginning to be one crazy week.
"I'm home!" I yelled in the house. I didn't hear anything but, Miriam's snoring in the kitchen.
'The usual when I get home from school' I rolled my eyes then went up to my room and closed the door behind me then threw my bag on the floor in the corner then flop back on to my bed and closed my eyes for a while until I open my eyes and got back up then went to my desk and sat down then open my drawer then pull my diary(this one don't have my poems of Arnold) and open it then started writing in it.
Dear Diary, This morning I was going to tell Arnold that Lila, his girlfriend, is cheating on him but, she told me if I tell him she will tell him I use to like him and he wasn't going to believe me. I don't know why she is doing this, she just said she tell him when it is the right moment. What the hell does that mean? I don't understand love anymore it like people don't care if they hurt the other one who really likes them back. And I wish it didn't happen and I hope one day I might that special someone for me because Arnold and me is never going to happen. Why is love like this?
I closed my book then put it back in the drawer but, I just notice a purple book in there so, I pull it out and open it.
It was old because I saw my poems in there about Arnold. I flip through the pages. I was so heads over heels for him. Then stop at one poem that caught my eyes.
I read the poem to myself.
These are the words I cannot say
But they come from the heart
Despite all the arguments
I've liked you from the start
I like the way your mind works
The way you're so unique
And when I'm in my darkest hour
I long to hear you speak
I like the way you walk
The way you slightly smile
And when you moved close to me
You cause my heart to go wild
I like the way you're different
I like those mysterious eyes
Actually I like everything
Even what's inside
I long for you to hold me
To feel your lips on mine
I know it isn't work yet
We need a little more time
But these
Are all the things
I guess I cannot yet say
Like how I somehow manage
To think of you all day
Yes I'm scared you'll hurt me
Just break me and leave
I don't want to have to worry
I don't want to be deceived
How all this can work
I'll guess we'll never know
But don't turn your back on me yet
I'm not quite ready for you to go
I'm sorry for writing this
But it's all I can do
It the only way for me
To say I love you
For these are the words
I just cannot say
But things will be different
One day…
I sighed then closed the book and put it back in my drawer.
'Now I don't feel that way anymore'
I got up then left my room then went downstairs to the kitchen and saw Miriam sleeping on the counter with a box sitting next to her head. I walked over to the box and looked through it and saw a book that said 'Miriam's Diary' on it.
'She asleep, she won't know'
I went to the cabin and took out a bag of chips then went upstairs to my room.
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As far as I read it, it she had this book when she was a teenage to when she marry my dad.
June 1984
Dear Diary, I had a beautiful baby girl today. Her name is Olga I was so happy and Bob was kind of happy but, he wasn't as happy as I was. It seems like ever since I was pregnant he was disappointed, I don't if he was mad because he didn't have a boy or he having a child. But right now I really don't care.
"And you would think Dad would be thrilled that Olga was born" I said to myself. I turn the page then a chip in my mouth.
April 1987
Dear Diary, Me and Olga are staying at my mother's house for awhile because me and Bob's argument earlier. He is so controlling and demanding, he always want to win something. I don't understand him but, I still love him I don't why but, I do and right now we need our space for awhile.
I turn the page again and start reading about how Olga was doing so great then I turn the page again.
March 1990
Dear Diary, Me and Bob had another argument and I'm staying at one of my friends house. Yesterday when I came we drank all night, now I got a mad headache I need to lay back. I'm getting so tired of this life now I wish it will stop or just start over.
I turn the page again and read about her beginning of drinking then on the next page she went to rehab, I turn the page again it read that Miriam went back to drink after another argument with Bob. Mom sure had a messed up life then.
I turn the page again.
February 1993
Dear Diary, I just found out that I am pregnant and when I told Bob he was angry. He wants me to have abortion. I told him no then he said 'do it or I will leave you' I shook my head. Then he left the house. I don't know what to do, I love him and I want to be with but, I don't want to kill a unborn baby. I think I will have to so I can be with Bob.
Two weeks later
We couldn't get the abortion because it was too exceptive and Bob don't want to pay too much money. So we keeping the baby I'm kind of happy but, Bob seem really angry at me, he won't touch me anymore or look at me like he use to do. I don't know what to do, I wish I never had this baby.
What the hell?! I can't believe them. A tear runs down my cheek and I get out of bed and storm down stairs where mom and dad were at and walked into the trophy room.
"What the hell is this?!" I yelled at them. Miriam woke up from my yelling.
"Watch your language young lady!" Bob said.
"I should have the right because of this!" I showed him the page of the diary I was reading. He and Miriam was reading it was surprised themselves.
"Where did you get this?" Miriam asked.
"From the box in the kitchen"
"What was you doing reading my diary?" mom got up and put her hands on her hips.
"Forget that, you were going to abort me! You sick mom and you too Bob!" I said with tearing running down my face.
"Look that was back then in the past, we wasn't thinking" Bob said getting up too.
"Whatever. When Olga was born she was the best you ever had but, when I was born you pissed. Well you know what I'm pissed and I hate both of you!" I yelled with anger. I was so mad I thought my head was going to exposed.
"Helga we love you" Miriam said trying to give me a hug but, I pushed away.
"No you don't. If you didn't want me then you should have gave me up for adoption!" I threw the diary on the floor then ran out the house and down the street with tears running down my face. I wanted to get to away from them, I needed to get away from them.
I ran into the park and then sat down on the branch so I can caught my breath. It was getting dark and I just wanted to be by myself right now.
"Nobody loves me. Arnold don't love me, my own parents don't love me what else can happen?" I said out loud. I felt a rain drop on my face then it started to rain more rain drops.
"That just great" I got up and started walking hugging myself to stay warm.
A couple of minutes later I heard somebody walking behind me, I turn around and there was nobody there. I turn back around and started walking again and the walking behind started back up again. I walked faster and the foot steps were faster then I started to run and then I tripped. I heard the heavy breathing of the person who was behind me. I turn over to the person and it is the same guy from the party.
"Remember me?" he said with a sinister smile.
"Leave me alone" I yelled I got up and try to run away but, he grabbed my arm and pull me to him.
"What wrong? You not happy to see me?" he asked. I struggled to get free but he still holding.
"You really need to stop fighting back cause I don't want to hurt you" when he said that he reached into his pocket and pull out a knife.
"Why are you doing this?" I asked.
"Simple. For revenge"
"Because my friend kicked your ass?"
"No! Because you won't love me, you never loved me."
What hell is he talking about? "You never gave me a chance, you always wanted him"
I then realized who he was and I couldn't believe it. It was…
Hahaha you thought I would tell you! :D
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Sorry but, you have to wait until the next chapter to find out! But if you already know who it is than good for you! =) LOL
Review plz.
P.S. The poem from Helga's old diary isn't mine, I got it from a website. But anyway isn't it sweet?