I don't own anything Twilight. Everything belongs to Stephenie Meyers. No copyright infringement intended. I'm just playing around with her creation.

This is my Christmas present to all my fabulous readers. I really hope you enjoy this and have fun for the holidays.

Previously: Edward learns about what Bella was going through for the last nine months and about her disappearance. Tanya and Kate stumble across a mystery girl in the woods, she's definitely a vampire and she seems to have amnesia.

Chapter 5: Be Careful What You Say

Bee's Point of View

I couldn't believe I had been with Tanya and her family for five months now. Everyone had taken me in with open arms and loving smiles. No one really cared about my missing past. Sure everyone was curious at first, about my identity, my past, my creator, but that all dwindled away like the days had.

I still couldn't believe I was actually a vampire, a real, blood drinking, dazzling vampire. I still had no memory of who it was that never wanted me turned but I could vaguely remember fighting with the person about it, a lot. I knew the change was something I had longed for but I couldn't remember why.

The only thing I could recall was being alone in a lush forest, then everything after I awoke in the boathouse. It wasn't much to go on but Tanya and Eleazar spent a lot of their time looking for answers I was afraid would never be answered.

After five months of drinking the blood of animals, my eyes had turned to a rich golden color. I now felt more like a member of this gentle and caring family than when they first took me in.

Everyone was greatly pleased at how well I was doing when a human came near, usually delivering mail or packages, or a Jehovah's Witness, which I found incredibly ironic. Humans just had no appeal to me. They had a dirty, unwashed odor, even when they wore perfume; something about their scent reminded me of a wet dog or a bag of dirty laundry.

Much to my surprise, everyone had agreed to test my urges for human blood fully, or lack there of. They had decided that a long awaited trip to town was in order; they wanted to buy me some things as well. They mainly wanted to get me clothes since my body was smaller than everyone else's, all the clothes I had at the moment were too big.

We were all sitting in Tanya's mini van heading for Fairbanks. I was allowed shotgun so I could see the scenery better. It took us about five hours thanks to Eleazar wanting a moose.

I was surprised by the massive size of the city. There were buildings bigger and taller than our house. For some unknown reason I was feeling homesick. Everyone started chuckling when they noticed me practically bouncing in my seat.

Tanya pulled into a little strip mall on the outskirts of town. "I guess we start here. Bee, you can get out now, just remember to stay calm."

Ever since Tanya found me in Canada she was like a mother to me, always protective, always teaching, and always loving. Kate was like a big sister with the way she always played around and teased me. Irina, Carmen and Eleazar were like aunts and an uncle. They had become my family.

Kate grabbed my hand and pulled me into a little clothing store. She immediately started holding shirts and dresses up to my chest, sizing them. This eager shopping style felt very familiar and tiring. She found several outfits for me and several more for herself. The scent of blood from the other shoppers and clerk didn't lure me in the slightest.

We left the store and walked down the boardwalk, enjoying the warm, overcast day. Tanya came flying out of a store in front of us and started running toward us.

"Bee, I got you something," Tanya smiled widely as she held up a necklace. Dangling from the chain was a delicate jeweled bumblebee*.

"Oh Tanya, it's so sweet." I brought my fingers up to touch the dainty little bug. Tanya quickly maneuvered around me and fastened the chain around my neck. I grabbed the bee and held it up to look more closely at it.

"Tanya, there you are. Looks like Bee is doing incredibly well," Carmen looked me over up and down with a cheerful smile.

I returned her smile. "Yep, no thirst whatsoever. In fact they smell disgusting to me."

Eleazar came up behind Carmen toting several shopping bags, he looked completely defeated. "Are we about done here?"

I didn't even register Eleazar's question as a silver sedan, hatchback pulled into a spot directly behind him. I felt my eyes dilate as I looked at the car then I fell to my knees screaming.

I felt everyone panicking around me, trying to calm me down and get some answers for my sudden blow-up. They were all looking around for the unknowing culprit.

"Stupid, shiny, Volvo owner..." was all I could say as I rocked back and forth.

"What just happened?" I heard Tanya ask as she placed her arms protectively around my shoulders and me as tightly as she could.

"My guess would be that something terrible happened in her past that dealt with a shiny Volvo." Eleazar answered. "Someone needs to tell Edward not to bring his car."

An even louder scream passed my lips and I tried to free myself from Tanya. Everyone was suddenly wrapping their arms around me, holding me still. I was shaking violently and I tried to loosen everyone's hold on me.

"DON'T SAY THAT NAME!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, my eyes started to sting and my body felt possessed.

It took all five vampires to hold me down; my limbs were flailing around, trying to free myself. I had to get away from the silver car and the name that only succeeded in tearing a hole in my chest.

"Bee, why can't we say that name?" Tanya asked as she took my face in her hands and forced me to look at her, her eyes were pleading and sad.

"You just can't, don't say that name... please." I begged as my body was consumed with sobbing.

"She's completely lost it," mumbled Kate.

"Shut up Kate, she just had a traumatic change is all remember?" Tanya lifted me in her arms and carried me to the van while my body still shook.

She placed me in the passenger seat and examined me. I was no longer in hysterics but I was still on edge. What just happened to me? One minute I was fine and smiling then the next I was scared and having a fit. Apparently the sight of a silver car will send me in to a panic and the name 'Edward' will send me hurling over a cliff of a mental breakdown. What was wrong with me? Was I this broken as a human? Am I broken now, even as a vampire? Was there a way to cure it, was I even curable?

Tanya's Point of View

I drove us all home in silence, not one word was spoken. I watched Bee rest her head against the rain blurred window and wondered what was going through her mind. She looked so lost and broken and deader than she already was, more than any of us combined.

Ever since Kate and I found this innocent creature I found myself wanting to protect her. But how do I fight against an invisible enemy? How do I help her past this pain from her former life? I had spent the last five months trying to contact the one person I thought might be able to help her. Damn him, why wasn't he answering his phone?

As soon as I pulled onto our drive way Bee fled from the car and disappeared toward the house. I stopped the car in the garage and let everyone leave and enter the house. I remained in the van for awhile thinking.

Is this how our mother felt when dealing with the three of us? I'm sure this scenario was worse; at least we remembered who we were. Bee didn't know who she was, that she was in fact a vampire, or anything about her past. I hit the steering wheel out of frustration and the poor thing whined at the abuse.

Irritated, I climbed out of the van and made my way slowly to Bee's room. We had given her the bright, light blue room at the end of the hall and she seemed honestly happy about the decor, thank you Esme. I readied myself to knock on the slightly open door and saw Bee was sobbing on her bed, wrapped up into a tight ball.

At seeing her like this I wanted so badly to join her in her crying. Thanks to Irina's gift, though not a very useful one for what the Volturi would consider valuable, it helped us to understand a little bit about Bee's traumatic past. At first Irina didn't want to tell us what she witnessed, but we eventually convinced her.

She sighed heavily then looked at us with sad tortured eyes; Bee was reading a book in her room. "She was tortured by a female vampire then she was raped by another vampire. There was venom in his semen, she was changed by that." The room fell silent as we all thought over Irina's words. We didn't even know that was a possibility, venom in semen, we had never heard of anything like it. But Bee was proof that it can happen, it was sad and scary but it was a fact. If Bee was to learn about how she was changed, I'm sure she would be devastated.

Despite being a blood-thirsty monster she still exuded innocence and sweetness. Even though she had unknowingly been turned into a killer she was still the angel I could see from a past life. She was love personified.

At this very moment I couldn't go in and help her, I didn't know how to help her. She was in an unknown place with no answers and the only person capable of maybe answering some of those questions was unreachable.

I turned away from her door and headed back down stairs to attempt to reach our friend the doctor. I grabbed my cell phone off the kitchen counter and walked into the sunroom. I was getting annoyed with my inability to reach any one of our old friends when we desperately needed them.

I took a deep breath and dialed his number. One ring. Two rings. Three rings.

"Tanya?" the voice I had been longing to hear finally answered his phone.

"Damn it Carlisle, where have you been for the last five months? I've been trying to reach you." the irritation was seeping from my voice.

"I'm sorry Tanya, Edward's soulmate has gone missing while we were away and we've been looking for her," he sounded exhausted.

I hissed at hearing Edward had found his soulmate and it wasn't me, but at the same time I was happy for him. "I take it you haven't found her yet?"

"Unfortunately, no we haven't. We have no clues as to her whereabouts and Alice is only seeing mist. We're completely lost and Edward is beside himself with worry...but that aside, why have you been so eager to get a hold of me?" I could hear the pain and lose in his voice and I started hurting along with him.

"Have you ever heard of a newborn vampire with amnesia?" I heard him gasp suddenly.

"What, as in no memories from being a human? Alice was that way but we found out she was in an asylum before-"

"I mean no memories at all. She didn't know her name or even know that she was a vampire. Today we were in town and a couple things sent her into hysterics." I knew about Alice's story but Bee's was different.

"Okay that is odd, she had no idea she was a vampire..." he was getting curious now.

"No, when we found her she told us she was trying to drink water when she would get thirsty."

"WATER! Okay I'll be there as fast as I can. Don't let her leave." Carlisle informed me hastily.

"I don't think that would be a problem, she's happy here. Just promise me you'll hurry, she's emotionally falling apart." I begged him.

"I promise…I should be there within the week."

"Thank you Carlisle, see you soon." I closed the phone and breathed a large sigh of relief.

Thank god I finally reached Carlisle; he should be able to find a solution for this poor innocent girl. He might even be able to restore her memories. We all had so many questions surrounding Bee. My biggest question was; who was this he that wouldn't allow her to become a vampire.

Carlisle's Point of View

I have never encountered a scenario such as this. Sure Alice remembered nothing about her human life but at least after when she was turned she knew to drink blood and even remembered her middle name. But this girl, this girl was completely blank, with no knowledge of whom or what she was. I'm sure Tanya and her family was doing a fabulous job with teaching her but there was only so much they can do.

"Everyone. Living room. NOW!" I didn't have to raise my voice and I was grateful, I was really the quiet type.

All of my family assembled in front of me quickly and everyone had a confused expression on each of their faces. I looked over to Alice with a questioning look and she shook her head no. There was still nothing on Bella.

"I need to go to Denali and help Tanya out with a mystery newborn; I'm not sure when I'll be back. I was wondering who would like to accompany me." I looked around at all the bewildered expressions; apparently I had asked a stupid question.

"Did you really have to ask, of course we're all going," Esme answered for everyone as they scattered to get things packed. "Who knows, maybe we can get a lead on Bella?"

Within thirty minutes we were packed and loaded up. Emmett, Jasper, Alice and Rosalie were in the BMW while Edward rode with Esme and me in the Mercedes. In the last fourteen months Edward wouldn't step near the Volvo, I had mentioned selling it and getting him a new car and he had exploded violently, refusing to part from the vehicle. It successfully ended that topic.

We drove from our home in Quebec and headed for Alaska. Sure we could have taken a plane but some of us needed time to think. And we wanted our own cars in case we needed them.

I continually glanced in the rear view mirror to my son. He relaxed in the back seat with his head pressed against the window. He was lost. When we left Forks I feared he would waste away or find someway to end his life. But now that Bella was missing and possibly in danger he was like a puppet, being pulled by the strings that we wished for. In the words of Charlie Swan, he was a lifeless doll.

I actually prayed that we would find Bella soon and hopefully she would be unharmed.

Chapter End Notes:

I would have a fit too if I was reminded of something like that. What else could set her off, any guesses? What will happen when the Cullens finally reach Alaska? Will Carlisle be able to restores Bee's memories?

This will be my last posting till after New Years. I'm catching up on some of my stories in the mean time.