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When the sun rose the next morning, James watched as the dawn rays illuminated the apartment. Next to him Lily slept peacefully. It had been a long night, as both them attempted to satiate their desire for one another. Both spent, they finally ended up in James's bed as the night drew to a close.

As good as the night had been, it had only confused James more. He didn't know where he and Lily officially stood but he refused to put himself in a bad mood. He wanted to enjoy the moment while it lasted.

Although he hoped it lasted a long time.

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Lily woke up calm and serene despite the circumstances she had put herself in. Her eyes darted to the clock next to her as she took in the time. 7:30. She still had a few hours to compose herself before Alex came home.

She made to move away from James, still wondering when at what point they had ended up in his bed, when she felt him tug on her waist. She rolled over and was surprised to find James so alert this early in the morning. He smiled at her and she felt an overwhelming urge to kiss him. But she repressed it not wanting to stir up any more trouble.

"Good morning." James leaned forward and kissed Lily on the forehead. She could feel her body flush, reacting to his touch.

"Morning." Lily didn't know what to do next. But she figured getting out of his bed would be a step in the right direction. Her mind worked to think of something to say when he interrupted her thought process.

"Do you want to go get some breakfast? I don't know about you, but I'm starving." James flashed a quick smile, one that Lily found so sexy she couldn't resist.

"Sure, sounds great."

Half an hour later, Lily and James were at neighboring cafe, both lost in thought. Lily picked at her eggs, stealing glances at James who was determinedly staring into his cup of coffee.

James hated the awkward silence between them. He looked up at Lily who wasn't as much eating as she was pushing her food around on her plate. When she lifted her head she caught James gazing at her. She smiled for a lack of something to say. How could she put into words what she was feeling? She had never been more conflicted in her life.

James set down his cup and made a stab at conversation. "I've been wondering since I woke up this morning what was next, you know, between us. What are you going to say to Alex?"

Lily studied him, trying to read his face. "Say to him about what?"

James looked at her in disbelief. "About us obviously. I meant what are you going to tell him when you break up with him?"

Lily felt a tiny bit of anger flare up inside of her. "Who said I was breaking up with Alex? I don't remember ever saying I was going to do that."

Now James looked furious. "So when Alex comes home later today, you're going to pretend everything is all hunky dory? Did last night mean nothing to you?"

Lily blushed. "Of course it meant something. But I never said I was going to leave Alex."

"Well what did you think you were going to do Lily? Continue dating Alex while you fuck me behind his back?" James could feel his hands shaking in anger, his world crashing down around him.

Lily flinched in her seat. She was not used to James being so volatile. "I don't know, I didn't exactly plan it out."

James reached into his back pocket and took out his wallet. After throwing several dollar bills on the table, he stood up abruptly and Lily could almost feel the anger radiating off of him.

"I'm going home. I've had enough of this game. I don't appreciate being used and I can't believe I was naive enough to think you would take a risk."

Before Lily could stop him, James stormed out of the cafe, leaving her alone, and tears fell into the remainder of her uneaten breakfast. She knew he was right, and she knew she was coward.

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Three days. It had been three days since James had last spoken to her since that awful encounter in the cafe. Alex had come later that day, finding a somewhat distraught Lily, who was attempting to blow off her sad demeanor as final exam nerves.

James took as little notice of Lily as he could. It hurt to look at her and try as he might he couldn't stop thinking about her. He knew he had been harsh with her that morning over breakfast but he hadn't been able to stop himself. Every negative emotion he had stored up had just released itself in that moment. The rare times he did look at Lily, he could see she was downtrodden but he didn't dare hope it was because of him.

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On the seventh day of silence, not that Lily was counting, she told herself, Alex came home from class looking especially pleased with himself. His good mood even lifted Lily's spirits slightly. Alex went over to Lily who was sitting on the sofa staring blankly at her laptop.

"Do you feel like going out tonight Lils?"

She didn't but she felt she owed it to Alex, given her moodiness lately.

"That sounds fun. What were you thinking?"

Alex smiled. "I was actually on my way home from class when I ran into James." Lily heart started to race in her chest at the mention of her ex lover "He said something about going to this new restaurant with a new girlfriend and he thought it might be fun if we all went on a double date."

Lily felt like a block of ice had been dropped into her stomach. Her mind struggled to comprehend everything she had just been told. James. A new girl. A double date. Her mind conjured up a dizzying array of horrific scenarios as she thought about having to sit across from James and act normal.

But somewhere in her thought process one detail stuck out. James had suggested the double date. Not Alex. Which meant what, that he wanted to torture Lily by parading around with a new girl? Lily weighed her options wondering if she had enough time to fake an illness, but when she glanced up at Alex, she could see the eagerness in his face and she felt herself cave.

"Okay, Alex, what time are we meeting them?"

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James hadn't planned on running into Alex that day. It had just been a happy accident when he ran into Lily's boyfriend on campus when he came up with the plan. It was a spur of the moment idea, one that could easily blow up in his face but he knew it would be worth the risk.

The fact that James didn't actually have a girlfriend didn't deter James one bit. He knew he could find someone willing to accompany him to dinner at the last minute.

It just seemed like too good of an opportunity to pass up. This was his chance to provoke Lily. She never wanted to take any type of action when it came to him. But James knew that jealousy could be a powerful motivator and he was banking on it.

Maybe just maybe, he could prove to her once and for all that she belonged with him. It had pained him not to talk to her this past week but he thought the distance might do them both some good.

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Later that night, Lily was in her most stunning silver gown, anxious to get the night over with. While she was getting ready her mind went back and forth between Alex and James and she couldn't even decide who she dressed up for.

She and Alex had arrived at the restaurant early and Lily was rocking back and forth in her chair ever so slightly. Ten minutes later, she caught sight of James walking in with a woman on his arm. She was tall, blonde, and apparently very wealthy, her handbag alone cost as much as Lily's entire outfit.

She was everything Lily was not.

Lily wondered if James had brought a woman to dinner that was the exact opposite of her to prove a point but her mind went numb when James stood across from her, a shadow of his old smirk sliding onto his face.

James helped his date into her seat, taking note of how stunning Lily looked that evening. But her face was set in stone and James knew she was attempting to block any emotion from showing on her face. His mind reminded him to introduce his date to the awaiting couple.

"Alex, Lily, this is Simone ver Blanc, I'm so glad both of you could meet us for dinner tonight." He flashed a mocking grin in Lily's direction before turning his attention back to Simone.

Simone ver Blanc smiled up at James. She and James had actually been biology partners a couple of semesters ago. Back then James had helped her pass that class and she was happy to return the favor now. She knew she was only there to make the girl in front of her jealous. James had explained the situation to her when he first asked her to dinner earlier in the day. As Simone studied Lily, she could easily feel the tension between her and James and she knew it wouldn't take much for Lily to crack.

Simone made a stab at conversation and was ready to get the ball rolling on James's plan. "I've been dying to try this place out for ages. I hear their food is simply amazing." As she said this, Simone made sure to place her hand on James's forearm, rubbing his upper arm gently and smiling appreciatively at James.

Lily felt a strong urge to stomp on James's foot under the table as she watched the beautiful woman across from her caress him. She had a sneaking suspicion that this woman was strictly here for her benefit. But Lily only had one thought in her mind.

Fight fire with fire.

Lily leaned closer to Alex, picking up his hand and interlocking his fingers with her. He smiled happily at her while she raised an eyebrow at James, whose eyes; she was pleased to see, flashed mutinously.

"I hope the food is as good as you heard Simone. Of course, I've always been more interested in dessert." She gave a quiet chuckle as she squeezed Alex's hand tighter. James shifted angrily in his chair and took a deep breath to compose himself. He had not expected Lily to fight dirty.

Simone could feel a battle brewing and chanced a sideways glance at James. She could see him chewing on the inside of his cheek and she wondered how long this would last.

Lily felt quite pleased with herself. She was certain that this double date was a setup and she was relieved she had not succumbed.

The two couples ordered their dinner and made polite conversation. Simone of course, was extremely charming and Lily at times found herself at a loss for words. But she felt it was better to stay quiet than to make a fool of herself.

Once or twice Lily could have sworn she felt James's leg brush up against her, but the second she would look up to confirm it; he was resolutely staring at Simone as if she was the most fascinating creature on Earth. Lily could feel jealousy churning in her stomach and she knew she needed some air and bit of time to herself if she was going to survive the night.

Lily turned to Alex, noting that he also seemed to be enraptured with Simone's latest enticing tale of her summer abroad in Brazil. She frowned slightly but steeled herself to make up an excuse to get away from the table.

"Hey Alex, I'm just going to go grab my jacket from the car. I'm a little cold." Alex looked back at her, and made a move to get up from his seat.

"I'll go get it sweetheart." But Lily shook her head vehemently, determined to put a temporary distance between her and James, who was also looking at her with a renewed interest.

"No, that's okay Alex. I want to get some fresh air too. I'll be back in a minute. Can I have the car keys?"

Alex sat back down and handed the keys to Lily, who felt a rush of relief. Avoiding James's eyes, she excused herself from the table and made her way out into the parking lot.

Lily stood next to the car after she had found it, and closed her eyes, desperate to erase the jealousy and desire that were mingling together in her stomach. She took a deep breath and the cold air that hit her lungs was refreshing. But she knew she couldn't stay outside that long and opened up the car door to retrieve her jacket.

She was about to close the door when she felt someone behind her. Instantly Lily's body tensed up, ready to fight off the person who dared come up behind her. But when she whipped around, she felt as though her breath had been knocked out of her body.

James towered over her, and even though it was dark, she could see him smiling. "I thought I'd come check on you. It's not a good idea for women to be out in parking lots alone at night."

Lily clutched her jacket to her body, her heart swelling at the sight of James. "You're speaking to me again?" She noted his friendly demeanor and wondered what was behind the shift in attitude.

James chuckled and stuffed his hands inside his pants pockets. "Obviously. Anyways, are you ready to go back inside?"

"Why are you out here?"

"Well technically, I told Alex and Simone, I was going to the restroom but I don't think they heard me. They were very much absorbed in conversation when I left them." James had actually found it a little odd that Simone and Alex had managed to hit off so well, but then again his main concern was Lily.

Lily rolled her eyes at James and mentally calculated the best way to move past him. "Well, I guess you should get back to your girlfriend then." She made an attempt to move past James but he blocked her path.

"She isn't my girlfriend."

"Well whatever she is, it's rude to abandon her halfway through dinner."

James grinned at Lily's feeble attempt to get away from him. "She'll get over it."

He bent down to kiss her but Lily in anger, stamped on his foot just like she longed to do earlier. James yelled out in pain as he hopped away from her

"Jesus Christ, what was that for?"

"Like you don't know? What the hell are you doing James? First you blow up in my face because I don't break up with my boyfriend, then you ignore me for an entire week, only to suggest a double date with my boyfriend so you can parade some hot woman in my face. What are you doing?" Lily felt rage bubbling in her stomach and she yearned for an explanation.

James opened up his mouth to give her one, when she shook her head at him.

"Later, we have to get back or they'll start to notice we are missing."

James couldn't argue that point and so they made their way separately back to the table, only to find Simone and Alex still deep in conversation.

The rest of the dinner was excruciating with Lily trying to ignore the heated looks James was sending her whenever Alex's attention was pulled away.

Lily held back her sigh of relief when the bills finally arrived at the table, eager to end this horrid experience.

"It was so nice meeting you Lily. Maybe we can all get together and do this again." Simone smiled sweetly at the red head, determined to get one last dig in. Simone waved goodbye to Lily and Alex as she and James walked to their car.

Lily could feel her heart thumping in anger but took a deep breath to console herself. She knew she would talk to James later.

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Later that night, after Lily made sure Alex was passed out from the night, she quietly knocked on James's door. It flew open at once and James stepped aside, allowing her to come inside.

Lily rounded on him instantly. "So do you mind telling what tonight was all about?"

James shrugged. "I missed you."

Lily felt a hollow laugh escape her lips. "And your way of showing me you miss me is by going out on a double date with me and Alex? You know, most guys just send flowers."

James smirked. "You never seemed like the flowers type of girl. Which is ironic considering you're named after a flower."

Lily rolled her eyes and attempted to get back on topic.

"I just don't understand what you're doing James. You've barely spoken two words to me this past week. You made it clear you didn't want to do this, whatever this is, anymore. What changed?"

James frowned. "I told you, I missed you. I know I overreacted that day in the cafe, but I was frustrated. I thought maybe if I ignored you for awhile, I could distance myself from you. But it seems like the more I try to stay away from you the more I want to be with you."

Lily opened her mouth to argue; their situation was still the same, The man in the adjourning room was proof of that.

But James cut her off. "I know nothing's changed. But I can't help it. I can't stop thinking about you. That's why I suggested that stupid double date tonight. I thought that maybe if you were jealous enough you would realize that you don't belong with Alex. But I know it was stupid and I'm sorry."

Lily felt herself instantly forgiving him. "So what are we going to do?"

James didn't have an answer for her. "I don't know. I know we can't keep sneaking behind Alex's back. He is your boyfriend and I should have respected that. So I guess for now we try to act like adults and put this behind us. It was wrong of to assume you would break up with your boyfriend for me. I'm sorry." He knew if there was any chance they might end up together, he couldn't force it. It would happen on its own.

Lily shook her head. "No, you're right. I shouldn't have led you on. And maybe one day we can even be friends. But do you really think we can put this behind us?"

James laughed. "It's worth a shot. I'm kind of ready for things to go back to normal. So, truce?" James extended his hand and Lily laughed at the gesture. She felt like things might finally be going the right way. She grasped his hand, and ignored the the tiny spark between them.

"Truce."

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In the weeks following their truce, Lily and James had kept true to their word and behaved. They tried to act cordial to one another and tried to stay out of each other's presence as much as possible. Lily thought once or twice maybe she and James could end up being friends. But it was too early to tell. For now Lily concentrated on her finals and pushed any thoughts about her roommate to the side.

When winter break mercifully rolled around, Lily grew excited at the prospect of relaxation, sleep and peace.

What she didn't foresee was being hit with the flu the moment winter break started.

When she had woken up on that slightly chilly morning, she felt as if her body had been run over by a truck. Every limb of her body ached and she felt a sick swooping sensation in her stomach. She had barely made it to the bathroom when Alex had followed her in, concerned.

Lily hated for anyone to see her sick so she sent Alex out of the house to get some cold medicine. Lily groaned as she climbed back into bed. The last thing she needed was to be sick. But she knew the illness was temporary and that thought sustained Lily as she drifted into an uneasy sleep.

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A week later, Lily knew something was wrong. She had never been this sick, this long. Lily had woken up every morning expecting to feel better, but instead felt more nauseous with each passing day. She was lying in bed again when Alex came in with her lunch, a look of worry etched into his features.

"I think you should go to the doctor Lils. You've been sick for over a week." He sat down a tray of chicken noodle soup in front of her. The very sight of food made Lily queasy and she turned her head away from it. Lily brushed off Alex's concern; he tended to worry too much.

"I'm fine Alex. It's just the flu. Lots of people get it this time of the year."

Alex hesitated, but didn't want to argue with Lily when she looked so weak. "Okay Lils. I just hope this goes away soon. You don't want to be sick on Christmas." Alex shook his head. "I can't believe it's the twentieth already. Which reminds me." Alex checked his phone. "Will you be okay if I go out for a little bit Lils? I just have some last minute shopping to do." Alex grinned at her, and Lily feebly smiled back.

"That's okay Alex. I'll try to take a nap or something."

Alex smiled at Lily's brave front. He blew her a kiss from the doorway and closed the door behind him.

Lily pushed the soup away from her and groaned when she felt another wave of nausea hit her.

She turned over, desperate for a bit of sleep, when something interrupted her thought process.

Alex had said it was the twentieth. Lily knew something about that date was off. She thought back to a day earlier in October and realized something was missing.

Something very important was missing and the realization hit her like a ton of bricks. She didn't have the flu. But she couldn't be, could she?

Lily jumped out of bed and searched for her phone. When she finally found it, she consulted her calendar and for a moment she couldn't think. But she knew she couldn't just sit there panicking.

She needed to know once and for all.

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James loved the holidays. No school, no stress, and tons of joy. But James wished deep down, he could have spent it with Lily. He actually hadn't seen much of her in the past week; Alex had told him she had the flu.

James had popped his head in her bedroom earlier that week and she did indeed look ill. But she had smiled at him and thanked him for visiting her.

It was times like that James missed Lily more than ever. Just seeing her lying like that, so defenseless and weak, he had wanted nothing more than to comfort and take care of her. But he behaved, knowing both of them had agreed to keep their distance.

James was in his room, researching some possible scholarships for next year when he heard a gentle knock on his door. He opened it and was surprised to see Lily standing there. She looked a little better; her skin wasn't quite as pale but something in her eyes troubled him.

"Can I come in?" Lily's voice shook as she tried to steady herself against the doorframe.

"Of course." James hastened to move and made a place for her to sit on his bed. She sat but gave no indication she was about to start talking. James waited but decided to break the ice.

"So what's up?"

Lily closed her eyes, not knowing where to start. "I went to the doctor today." After her realization she had decided to find out for sure.

James nodded. "Yeah Alex told me you had the flu. That sucks." But James wondered why she felt the need to tell him about her medical issues.

Lily felt tears starting to build. "I don't have the flu." She felt her tears spill onto her cheeks and she hurried to brush them away.

James felt alarmed at the sight before him. He wanted to pull her into his arms but wasn't sure if that was allowed.

"What's wrong? Did something happen?" James's mind scrolled through all the possible and horrific ailments Lily could possibly have.

Lily bit her lip and mustered up her courage to tell him the truth. "I'm pregnant."

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