Chapter 10.

Ayame

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" I heard the director's fiercely upset voice ring through my ears. "KILL HIM!" he screamed as the echo from the tunnel followed.

Ikuto's smile dropped and I could feel the hate and sadness building up in place fo the happiness and relief I felt to finally be free. I finally had a choice and my choice was…to let Ikuto live.

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No." I whispered in finality. I wasn't going to let this man run my life any more. the memories of all the pressure and hard work and beatings forced on me ran through my mind and the depression sank even deeper into my subconscious.

I shuffled around slowly so I could face the director and did the one thing I never wanted to do. I lifted the gun and aimed steadily at the director before pushing the trigger and letting the bullet hit him straight in the heart.

He stumbled back in an instant, struggling to breathe and gasp for air. Blood poured down his white button up and soon he was falling. His men caught him of course but by now he was as good as dead.

I turned back around to face Ikuto to see him smiling up at me. He was everything to me. Everything I ever wanted and everything I would always want to have. He sat on the road under the tunnel and that's when I heard one last command run through my mind.

Shoot…

The voice was nothing more but a whisper but it rang through my ears loud and clear. I felt my once steady hand quiver-Ikuto didn't notice-and soon my hand was pulling the gun up again. I pointed it at Ikuto, stunning him with the most horror stricken look on his face and tried hard not to cry as I felt a huge lump forming in my throat.

"Amu…?" Ikuto whispered softly to me with those pleading midnight blue eyes. His voice cracked and he pleaded with desperate attempts in his voice but I couldn't stop, not now.

Do it NOW…

The voice hissed again and I knew what I had to do. I shifted hands to hold the gun and placed the mouth of the gun at the side of my forehead.

"I'm sorry Ikuto. I love you." I said before I cocked the gun.

"NO! AMU DON'T-" Ikuto screamed before I pulled the trigger. The last thing I heard was Ikuto's screams of horror and cries of pain.

I shot out of bed screaming but soon I felt someone's arms around me. My first though stunk my mind but I couldn't stop it before it rang through my brain quickly.

Ikuto…please let these arms be Ikuto's!

My screams were muffled from this persons shirt and by the time I got a whiff of them I knew it wasn't Ikuto. The smell was far too familiar to ignore. The smell of cinnamon and vanilla spread through my nostrils quickly as I gasped and inhaled Onii-sama's scent. He was right, I was going to wake up not very happy tonight.

"I told you so little sister…" Onii said gently chuckling as he patted my back sweetly and gently swayed me side to side. I was thinking of everything I had dreamt about. Was it a dream? Was it a memory? It had all seemed so real, as if I was actually doing those things, as if I actually felt everything that was going on. My name wasn't Amu though and this girl had black in her hair with little floating people around her. That definitely wasn't me…was it?

It was an eerie thought to me and soon I was shaking even harder than before. that's when I heard the door burst open.

"What's going on?" I heard Ren's familiar voice call worriedly in my room after he practically kicked my door down. I would be surprised if it didn't have at least a little dent or scratch mark in the white wood.

"Ren…?" I whimpered quietly and that's when the tears started to fall. Ren's worried eyes were now scared and soon Onii moved off my bed to the back of my room so Ren could take his place. Ren ran over to me and wrapped his arms around me tightly and I placed my head in the crook of his neck as I sobbed and hiccupped quietly into his skin.

"Ayame…what happened? What's wrong, baby?" he asked quietly. I was still shaking in his arms but soon I was calming down. He smelled of perfume and this made my tears fall even harder now…he was with another girl tonight or a few nights ago but I decided not to make a scene or ask questions tonight. I just answered his questions.

"Another bad dream I guess…but this one was…terrible." I said shakily. He sighed regretfully and held me tighter than ever.

"I'm so sorry…I should've been here. If I was here maybe I could've-" he started but Onii cut him off.

"You couldn't have stopped this Ren. Only one person could…" he said cryptically and Ren gave him a spiteful look. Who could've stopped it? Me? Him? Who…? But somewhere in the back of my mind I knew exactly who.

"I could've stopped it. I know I could!" Ren said kissing my head gently.

I sighed into his perfume soaked, lipstick covered shirt and soon Onii-sama was out of the room. Leaving me and Ren to talk for whoever long we wanted.

"You smell like perfume…" I whispered quietly into ren's shoulder and closed my eyes. My voice wasn't angry or resentful like it usually, but more hurt and saddened. Ren's body was stiff now and I heard him start to make up an excuse but soon he just gave out a little regret fill sigh and started to apologize.

"I'm sorry…I'm so sorry. You know none of them mean nothing to me." he said quietly. I felt the tug on my heart and before I could speak he was pulling his tight black tee shirt off his to reveal his perfectly chiseled chest.

"Is that better?" he asked genuinely concerned. I smiled at him wryly and leaned my cheek on his warm shoulder. He smelled like himself now; earth and cologne.

He pulled my chin up to look up at him with one finger and gently pressed his lips to mine. I thought I would taste another girl on his lips but I didn't, I tasted him. I tasted the sincere love he had for me and the passion we held for each other in this kiss.

He gently pressed me back first onto my bed so he could hover over me while we kissed, never letting our lips disconnect. I was still angry at him, just like every time, for going out and doing some other girl from his shows but right now was seriously all that mattered to me. I was just happy he came back to me. Happy he was with me and decided to come back to me and not stay with those groupies.

We stayed like this for a few hours, taking gasps of breath every once and a while and whispering sweet nothings to each other, until we fell asleep in each other's arms. But even though we had kissed for hours on end, I still thought of the things that rang through my mind every once and a while.

I wish this was Ikuto…

Okay okay! I know you guys must be horrified with me for not updating in so long and I'm sooo sorry! I just had to update my other stories and seriously I got grounded for TWO MONTHS! Then I got a major case of writers block…the doctor gave me a few pills to unblock the brain and BAM! I wrote three chappies to make up for everything! don't give up on me you guys! I love you all and please review!J

-Wolfie