More Singing YAY :) angst too :s
Another morning waking up beside Brittany; I could totally get used to this. I'm seriously considering the fact that she could be part angel or something. I just count myself lucky that some stupid guy didn't get her, I did. Her eyelids opened slowly and she yawned like a little puppy. She stretched her arms and rolled around, a bit too much though because she fell off the side of the bed mid stretch. I crawled over to her side of the bed and looked down. There she was laughing to herself clutching her hand.
"You ok sexy?" I giggled.
"Yea... Ouch... my hand hurts." She said with a little frown.
"Awh, c'mere I'll make it better."
She got to her feet and curled back up under the duvet.
"Now show me your hand." She held out her hand in front of my face, she winced as I took it in my own.
I scanned it, nothing broken or dislocated, I could tell after years of Cheerio's injuries. I kissed what seemed to be the sorest spot and watched her face go from hurt to happy in a matter of seconds. I smiled rolled to sit at the side of the bed.
"Better?"
"Uh huh." She grinned.
"Thought so." I smirked.
We both got changed and headed down to grab some breakfast. Her mother had two bowls of cereal ready. She smiled at me and kissed Brittany on top of her head as she sat down. We devoured our cereal and headed off to school. Regina grabbed hold of my shoulder as I was about to leave the kitchen.
"Santana, you above anyone knows how much I worry about Brittany. I know this town does take kindly to 'difference'... so please don't let anyone hurt her. She's such a caring soul; she doesn't know how to deal with it."
"I know, and that's the last thing I would have let happen." I said strongly.
She wrapped me in a hug and with one final squeeze she let me go. I followed Brittany out to the car.
"What did she say to you?" Brittany asked as I got into the passenger's seat.
"Oh nothing, it doesn't matter."
"It does to me." She said as she ran a hand up and down my thigh.
"Well um I hope you don't mind but I told your mom about... us and she was just saying that I should take care of you or whatever." I muttered not meeting her eyes.
"Well she took it ok then? I guess that's good. And you take care of me already, so everything's ok, right?... San?" she tried to capture my attention, but I was too far off thinking.
To be honest it wasn't ok. I knew we were going to walk in to school today and Brittany was going to be called some awful names and she'll just freeze and I'll have to step up and fight for her yet again. I mean I loved doing that, it gave me this feeling inside that made me feel like a hero or something but it's got to the stage where I don't know if I'm always going to be there. What happens when I'm not, what happens if I don't hear her call my name. I did this to her, I could have just left the feelings, thrown them away. Brittany wouldn't have minded either way. I had to face my actions. I was Santana Lopez not that Asian glee girl who doesn't know how to talk. I could do this; I've always had to do this. Suck it up Lopez.
"Yea B, everything's ok." I mumbled after a long while.
I knew I hadn't convinced her but the answer would tide her over.
So I was right, we walked in and tah-fricking-dah we meet a collection of apes jeering and laughing. I just simply turned to Brittany.
"Do you love me?" I spoke softly.
"Yea... Of course I do." She replied. That's all the motivation I needed.
I nodded and walked over to the group of about six.
"Look I'm not sure what is wrong with you bizarre freaks of nature, I mean how many times do I have to tell you all that you're not getting any of this?. I swear if you don't stop and leave us the fuck alone I'm gonna make sure none of you get football scholarships anywhere, and don't think I can't. You all are just gonna stay here as Lima losers struggling to keep a job at the Pick n' Save."
"It's not like you any better than us Lopez." One of the giants snickered.
"Dude seriously look at me I could do anything I want seen I still have my brain intact."
"You're on your last warning Lopez." Another one of the brutes shouted.
"Try me bitches." I stood with my arms crossed. That was a bad mistake.
Two of the jocks grabbed me and flung me against the lockers behind. I landed on the ground with a 'thud'. That was painful. I looked up to see the highfiveing fuckers standing there smirking. I got back to my feet and punched one of them square in the face. I hit him so hard I swear I heard his jaw crack. As for the other I kicked him in the stomach, knocking all the wind out of the guy and sending him coughing backwards. I laughed at the sight but then everything went dark.
"Shit man, you shouldn't have done that." A manly voice called in a muggy haze. There were a lot of footsteps and then it went silent.
"Santana please wake up." I heard a voice murmur. A hand clutched my own.
"Oh crap... what the hell happened?" I questioned as my eyes tried to adjust to the light.
"San... your awake... oh god those stupid football players hit you." she said with a grimace. "I was so scared."
"Ugh don't worry about it." I got up and sat at the side of the bed I was on. I hated the nurse's office.
From what I could tell I was fine. I felt my face and I could feel my eye sting. I didn't bruise easily which was good because that would have been a nasty one. I grabbed Brittany hand and led her out. I brought her to the choir room because I knew that was the one place those idiots obviously wouldn't be.
"Santana I'm so-" Brittany began as we sat down.
"Don't, it's not your fault. I went over to them." I said with my hand still feeling my eye.
Her hands reached out and cupped my face and before I knew it we were kissing, quite intensely. I moved closer to her and put my arms around her. It was times like these that I remembered that it was all worth. Sometimes though if I was honest it was easy to lose sight and forget.
The bell echoed around the silent room and we pulled back. She told me I had been out for the whole day and we had Glee now. Jeez those guys must have killed me or something.
The choir room began to fill up and Mr Schuester stood up the top. Quinn came up to me looking worried.
"Santana, I thought you went home, are you ok? I helped B take you to the nurse's office." She said as she put a hand on my shoulder.
"Yea don't worry about me I'm cool." I lied.
Her eyes searched mine. "I'm coming over today." I nodded and she hugged me close for a moment and then went to sit down beside Mercedes.
"Ok, who's gonna start us off today?" Quinn raised her hand and stood up. She waltzed over to the piano. She steadied herself and began.
If I beg and if I cry would it change the sky tonight?
Will it give me sunlight?
Should I wait for you to call? Is there any hope at all?
Are you drifting by?
When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
And then I lie all by myself, I see your face, I hear your voice
My heart stays faithful
And time has come and time has passed, if it's good, it's got to last
It feels so right
When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You, you disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear
I missed all the signs one at a time
You were ready
What did I know starting our lives
No, my love I'm ready to shine
When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then
You disappear, you disappear
You disappear, you disappear, disappear
I clapped for the girl. It was a really impressive performance. I looked to Brittany who clapped longer than anyone else and sat on the edge of her seat wide eyed. She looked to me and smiled. I sighed and rested my head on her shoulder for a moment.
"Well done Quinn, you girls are doing well so far!" Mr Schue enthused. "Looks like we're down to you Brittany."
Brittany looked to Quinn and they shared a glance, she then hopped out of her seat and skipped down to Brad and explained what seemed like a complicated plan to him which in fact was just her song title. She stood there, and stared me right in the eye.
Remember the first day when I saw your face?
Remember the first day when you smiled at me?
You stepped to me, and then you said to me,
I was the woman you dreamed about.
Remember the first day when you called my house?
Remember the first day when you took me out?
We had butterflies although we tried to hide it,
And we both had a beautiful night.
The way we held each other's hand,
The way we talked, the way we laughed,
It felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
ooh oh oooh
She moved up to where we were sitting and sang to me. Normally I'd be uncomfortable but because of the conviction in her gaze I just sat there in utter adoration.
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me, you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed?
Remember the first day we had an argument?
We apologized, and then we compromised
And we haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games?
Remember the first day you fell in love with me?
It felt so good for you to say those words
Cause I felt the same way too
She took my hand smiled.
The way we held each other's hand,
The way we talked, the way we laughed
It felt soo good to fall in love
And I knew right then and there you were the one ooh oh ohh woah
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love,
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul.
Her stare intensified.
I'm so happy, so happy that you're in my life
And baby now that you're a part of me
You showed me,
Showed me the true meaning of love (the true meaning of love)
And I know she loves me
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul
She looks at me and her brown eyes...
Tell her soul
Everyone but Brittany and I stood up in applause; we sat there encased in each other's stare. She gave me a goofy smile and Mr Schuester's voice broke the gaze.
"Whoa Brittany, really nice." He smiled chirpily. "I'll have my decision on the winner by the end of the week."
"Um Mr Schue, Britt and I have to go to the bathroom." I said as I grabbed Brittany's hand and practically ran her out of the room.
We sprinted to the janitor's closet and locked it. I pressed her up against the door and kissed her desperately.
"You're... so... hot... really... good... song." That's all I could manage between the passionate kisses.
"Thanks... baby... I ... love... you" She breathed.
I pulled back. "I love you too sweetie." I kissed her neck a couple of times and the bell rang.
"Crap I gotta get Quinn." I said disappointedly.
"Ok... will you walk me to my car?" I nodded and took her hand.
We walked out the front door with Brittany and spotted Quinn. I held up my finger symbolising that I'd be there in a minute she nodded and leaned back against the school building. We got to Brittany's car and I forced her up against it. I smirked and planted a few kissed on her lips before I pulled back and opened the door for her. She got in and gave me a little wave as she drove off.
I walked back over to Quinn who was wearing a very smug smile.
"You too are so freaking cute together." She said happily.
"Yea... shut up Q." I laughed.
We then linked arms and strolled to my house and filled the silence with mindless small talk. When we got inside we went straight to my room. Quinn sat down on my bed and threw her bag on the floor. I sat on the chair at my desk and met the girl's worried stare.
"So why you here Q?" I asked bluntly.
"Santana you're supposed to be nice your guests."
"Oh sorry my mom never taught me that." I said sharply.
"S don't be like this. Just talk to me."
Quinn knew me better than anyone bar Brittany. She knew my family history and even had me over a couple of times to save me from being alone.
"It's just been getting harder with me and Britt, you know?" I said and my face fell. "I thought it'd be all rainbows but it's the fucking opposite. I don't want to do this to Brittany, I see the look in her eye sometimes and it hurts."
"Oh San c'mere." She said and patted the space beside her.
I hesitated for a moment, but then I pushed myself up and beside her. She put her arm around me and I sighed. It was weird being touched by someone other than Brittany. I knew Quinn loved me and it was cool to have another close friend after Britt.
"Santana, it'll get easier." She said reassuringly
"What if it doesn't? I don't want put through this."
I really didn't, the one thing I didn't want to happen more than anything was happening. I wonder if I just left, would it go back to normal. Would Brittany be left alone? I mean Brittany didn't understand her feelings I don't think anyway, she'd move on wouldn't she, find someone new. I'm bad for her.
"Quinn, will you promise me something."
"Sure San, anything."
"Ok... if I was to every go, just leave, would you take of Brittany for me?" I said slowly.
She shifted and looked at me. "S... what are you saying?" She said as her eyebrows knitted in worry.
"Look Q I need you to promise me this, please..." I trailed off begging for her promise.
"Ok, I promise but I swear Santana if you do something stupid Brittany will never get over it."
"Yea she will." I muttered but Quinn didn't catch it.
Days were shit. I need to see Brittany again. She's like my little drug; I needed a hit really badly.
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