We're coming to the end of this little story, so thanks to all who reviewed! Much appreciated! There's going to be one or two last chapters, haven't quite decided yet.
I slipped away from Brittany on the couch as she fell silently to sleep. I brought down my laptop and sat in the armchair opposite. I searched through all the Beyonce lyrics I could find and settled on two songs. I decided a mash up would be best, so I fused the two songs together as best I could. It sound kind of iffy but it was the lyrics that mattered. I looked up from my laptop to see Brittany still sleeping deeply. I saved my song and turned off the laptop. I got up and picked Brittany up, cradling her. I brought her upstairs and laid her down on my bed. I pulled back the covers and tucked her in. I then changing into my pyjamas and slid in next to her. I kissed her once on the forehead and drifted off to sleep with my arms protectively draped around her.
We got up the next morning fumbling around trying to shut off my alarm, which had for some reason decided to work today. First I hit it, but no it wouldn't turn off so Brittany scrambled over me to fix it. She tried talking to it, and of course that didn't work so I reached down and plugged it out from the wall and lay back to find Brittany on top of me with her legs either side of my waist.
"Sorry." She giggled.
"It's cool. It's just so fricking loud." To this she laid her head down on my chest and sighed with content.
"I love you Sanny." She said softly.
"I love you too." I replied. "School?"
She shifted uncomfortable and nodded. "I guess so..."
I picked her up and placed her down on the ground. She looked to her Cheerio's uniform and saw the stain. I took it off her and brought it to the bathroom and went to work. I turned on the tap and rubbed the fabric to together to try and loosen the corn syrup up. I needed to bleach it but that would have to wait.
"B, grab my spare uniform out of my closet." I called.
"Ok San, Thanks." She replied.
I left the stained uniform hanging over the side of the bath drying. I got changed into my own outfit and made a mental note to steal Brittany a new Cheerio's uniform. We got to school a little bit late so the halls were empty, thank god. I walked Brittany to her first class and told her teacher some random excuse about a dentist appointment to which he just shrugged and nodded. I winked at Brittany and waltzed back out into the hall. I walked to Mr Schue's office to see him sitting there grading papers. I knocked on the door lightly and walked in.
"Mr Schue?"
"Hi Santana, aren't you supposed to be in class?"
"Not important, listen I wanted to talk to you about something for Glee."
"Umm ok, what is it?"
"I want all the Glee kids in the auditorium after school." I said bluntly.
"Why exactly?"
"Well is it doable?" I demanded. When you're Santana Lopez you don't just ask for things.
"Well I think so but Santana why-"
"Cool, let all the Glee peeps know, thanks." I said as I strut out of his office.
"Santana!" I heard him shout after me but I already hightailed it.
I strolled to whatever class I had and sat down the back, all I could think about was the song. Half of me didn't want to go through with it, but I was Santana Lopez and I was gonna bring on a show because I had no other choice. I wanted so badly to sing and for Brittany to understand and to kiss me and say we'd fight it together; say that everything would be ok with out that look in her eye, telling me in fact the opposite.
I couldn't involve Principal Figgins because with my past, my parents said one more major incident no matter how I was involved they'd pull me out of that school and move us all to Florida. I couldn't tell anyone but Quinn, and I made her promise not to say a word. She thought I could handle it and frankly, so did I, at the time.
The bell rang for lunch and I went to find Brittany, I waited at her locker as Quinn and Puck passed.
"Have you guys seen Britt?"
"No, she was in my first class but then second period I don't where she went." Quinn answered.
"Yea, I think she was supposed to be in my English class, but I guess she wasn't." Puck thought out loud.
I cursed under my breath and started to walk away.
"Lopez, we were talking to you?" Puck called as Quinn pulled him away.
I ran to the bathroom and called her name, no response, just terrified freshmen's staring. I growled at them and stormed out. Santana was on the war path. The crowded hall separated to let me pass, no one daring to step out from their lockers. I checked the classroom I left her in this morning; nothing. I tried Ms Pillsbury office and again nothing. The choir room, the auditorium, the basketball court and the football field. I panted as I ran from one to the other. I sat on the football field propped up against the goalpost. I looked to the bleachers to see a lone blonde girl sitting up the very top. I made my way over and jogged up the steps. I slowed my pace as I neared her; she had her head in her hands. I sat down beside her and put an arm around the girl.
"Brittany?" she stirred slightly as I called her name. "Britt, what happened?
"They wouldn't stop, I asked them to, but they just wouldn't stop." She said in an eerie whisper.
"B, what the hell did they do to you?" I asked angrily.
"They just wouldn't stop shouting at me... and I called you San... but you weren't there... you didn't come." She stammered, her words laced with pain.
That hurt. I think I've been stabbed through the heart. I pretty sure those words were a dagger in her hands; a she just drove it through me. I could feel myself welling up, but not for the fact that my girlfriend sat beside me upset, it was the fact that I let her down; I let her down bad. I wasn't there like I'd promised. Anyone else would have been there for her, god I'm such an idiot. I didn't sniffle of whine I just sat there and cried silent tears of utter sadness.
Brittany looked to me a few moments later; she didn't cry she was just wounded by all the vindictive name calling. I tried to dry my tears quickly but she stopped my hand.
"I'm sorry B, fuck, that's the only thing I say to you anymore." I said in a hushed voice.
She didn't reply. She just simply held her pinkie out. I smiled and locked our pinkies. She laid her head on my shoulder and sighed.
"It'll be ok San." She didn't even have to look at me, I could actually hear the look in her voice and she had to force herself to lie. She had to force the thought of greener pastures ahead on herself.
We didn't go to the rest of our classes instead we walked laps hand in hand around the football field. We didn't really talk much, we just kissed and hugged and told each other that one loved one another; mushy couple stuff. I heard the distant echoing of the school bell and told Brittany we had to go to the auditorium.
"What's the auditor..." She trailed off with a puzzled look.
"Aw-di-tor-re-um" I enunciated. "The big hall where we perform with the Glee kids." She simply nodded.
I loved her adorable perplexedness. Her brow knotted together and then relaxed after my brief explanation. I also liked how she never questioned me, not once had she ever asked why we did what we did. I didn't deserve her. I didn't deserve the amazing person she was. We strode into the auditorium, fingers laced. We sat down next to Quinn and Rachel. Mr Schue stood on the stage tried to get the group to settle down. He final got all of our attention.
"Well gang, this visit to the auditorium was by special request by Santana, so if you wanna come here and explain." He motioned his hand towards me and everyone turned to look with confused eyes. I got up and kissed Brittany on the top of her head and made my way onto the stage. Mr Schuester nodded to me and took a seat in the second row. I took a deep breath and looked to Brittany.
"I wanted to sing this, simple as. Listen to the lyrics and if it means something to you, great. If it doesn't; whatever." I walked over to Brad who was waiting patiently at the piano. I then sauntered back to the centre of the stage. I looked to Quinn and she smiled supportively. I then looked back to Brittany as I begun.
Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound
My gaze narrowed and I smiled at the beautiful blonde.
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
I looked at everyone and then settled on Quinn.
I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But I'm not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
I'm left with no shoulder
But everybody wants to lean on me.
I guess I'm their soldier.
Well, who's gonna be mine
I felt tears burning behind my eyes but I'd rather cut off my feet then cry in front of the Gleeks. I looked back to Brittany who seemed to be paying full attention.
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I bottle all my hurt inside,
I guess I'm living a lie.
Inside my mind each day I die
What can bring me back to life?
Brittany had begun to clap along and beam.
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.
I can see your halo halo halo
I was finished and I needed to cry so badly. Mr Schue stood up and clapped.
"Santana I think we have our winner congratulations."
I looked to Mercedes who just smiled and nodded approvingly. "Thanks Mr Schuester."
"Well I think we can finish up early today on that note." He announced as he clapped his hands and everyone filed out.
Brittany got up onto the stage and hugged me. "That was nice. Are we going home now?"
That was it, 'nice'. No 'oh Santana I completely understand' or 'I didn't know you were feeling like that'. I probably expected too much, it was Brittany after all. The one time I wanted something from her, to concentrate, scratch that, the one time she needed to concentrate and big surprise she doesnt. She just stood there expecting an answer.
"I'm going home alone." I said quietly
"Umm ok? Will I see you later?"
"Probably not." With that I readied myself to leave. "I love you B, always will."
"I love you too." As she said it I kissed her lips and wrapped my arms around her.
I let go and walked out of the auditorium alone. I then walked home alone. Once at home I cried... alone.
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