Chapter Twelve
Charlie opened the curtains in his room and saw the large snowflakes making their way to the ground, just like they had been when he went to bed
He turned around and saw Kay, still fast asleep, in his bed
He crawled over the bed again and kissed her cheek, running his fingers through her hair, like he did every day since... that day
He knew Kay was still worrying about it, he couldn't blame her, they were trying to keep things as normal as possible, for now anyway
As he started to get dressed for work, she woke up, which she never did anymore
"Do you have to go to work?"
He turned around and looked at her, a small smile on his face "Yes I do" He got on the bed again "But hey, I'll be home tonight. And I'm off tomorrow and Christmas Day..."
"Oh God, Christmas! I can't see my parents, not yet, its too soon"
"So... you want to have Christmas here?"
She nodded "I'll cook, promise"
"Don't worry about that ok?" He said, still smiling. He smiled at her twice as much as he use to, just to reassure her of things "You'll have to go shopping today though. Grab whatever, I don't care"
"Are you sure? I don't want you not to have a good Christmas"
"As long as I spend it with you, it'll be good, ok?" He kissed her "Now get some more sleep. I'm just outside if you need me"
"Ok..."
He pulled his shirt over his head, kissed her again and headed outside
As he struggled to open the gates through the high amount of snow, he realised that the next time conditions were this bad... there'd be a little person around.
His heart started pounding at the thought of it, he always managed to hide the fear when he was around Kay, but not so well when he was alone. He couldn't let her know how worried he was, she'd told him that if it wasn't for him she didn't know what she'd do...for some reason that worried him more, having them both depend on him when he was on a small wage, he'd have to get another job...
He shook his head vigrasley, to keep the thought from his head...for now anyway...
...
Sky knocked on the door of the cottage, Kay opened it almost automatically and pulled her in
"So you want me to take you groccery shopping?" She asked
Kay nodded "We're staying here for Christmas now"
"Feel its too soon to tell the parents about the little one?"
Kay nodded
They'd told Sky about it as she was their most trusted friend, and they had needed to tell someone
"I'm still freaking out about it" Kay replied "And I know Charlie is too, despite how well he's hiding. So even if we didn't tell them, they'd know something was up"
"Good point" She said "But you know most-if not all-the food for the holidays will be gone"
"I know" Kay put her bag on her shoulder "Charlie told me to grab whatever there was"
They went out the front door, heading towards the car.
Charlie smiled and waved as they went past, they did the same as Sky said "So you've only slept together once?"
Kay sighed, having to lie to her friend again, but it was so her and Charlie were safe "Yes, Sky. We were drunk...it just happened"
"Ok, just making sure"
...
Kay snuck down the stairs to start on breakfast and dinner, she'd have to be quiet as not to wake Charlie
But as the mixed smells of food headed up the stairs, Charlie's eyes slowly opened.
He turned over, reaching for Kay... to find she wasn't there.
He raised himself up on one elbow and breathed in deeper, now he knew where she was now
He headed downstairs and in to the kitchen, he put his hands over her eyes "Guess who"
"Santa?" She said
He smiled and kissed the back of her neck, making her turn around and kiss his lips, making his smile turn into a grin
"Good morning" She said, leaning on his chest
"Morning" He kissed her head
"Breakfast shouldn't be long"
"Ok" He said "I'm gonna go grab your presents from upstairs"
The day consisted of eating, watching TV, making out and ignoring the many phone calls from Kay's mother and Aimee
"They're not giving up are they?" Charlie said as the phone went off again
"No...and I'm not either" She said "They'll only ask one hundred and one questions anyway"
"Hmmm, true" He gave her a squeeze "All in good time"
"Or no time..."
"Kay..."
"I know, I know, I will tell them" She paused "Eventually"
"Yeah, when he or she's like 2 years old"
"...maybe..."
He smiled and kissed her head "Don't worry"
"All I do is worry"
"I've noticed"
She hit him round the head, he laughed and said "Hey, don't worry about it...for now"
...
But it turns out, Kay didn't need to worry about telling her family about the baby...
It was December 30th, Charlie was shutting up for the night, when he suddenly felt like something wasn't right
He headed in to the house, Kay wasn't in any of the down stairs rooms, so he went up the stairs to his room...she was sat on the bed, hugging his pillow
"Kay?"
She looked at him "We don't need to worry about telling anyone"
He sat down next to her and wiped a tear with his thumb "What do you mean?"
"There is no baby"
"How'd you know...?"
"I'm bleeding"
"Oh" He said "Oh" He put his arms around her and let her cry
"Either I was never pregnant and the test was wrong and this my period or I've miscarried"
"Did you stop taking the pill?"
She nodded "Wasn't much point carrying on with it"
"So it might be your...?"
"Yeah"
"Did you really want the baby?"
"Part of me did...another wasn't so sure... but now this has happened, I wanted it more than I realized"
He kissed her head "Your time will come, I promise. And if it comes to it...I'm here if you need me"
She smiled slightly "Thanks"
They just sat for awhile, arms around each other...nothing was going to change now...well except maybe one thing
"Kay..." He whispered
"Yeah?"
"I've been thinking..."
"You don't think its a good idea to do it again do you?"
He shook his head "No" He kissed her head "I'm sorry"
"Don't be sorry" She said, her voice wobbling still slightly "It makes sense"
"I do want to do it one last time though..."
"When?"
"New Years Eve...or is that too soon after...this?"
"I'm not sure... if we had actually been trying then yeah but... I don't know"
"Well when we wake up in the morning or whenever, just let me know, ok?"
She nodded "Ok"