Chapter Thirteen
"We don't have to go to this party you know" Charlie said as he did the zip on Kay's dress up
"Its fine, we said to Will that we'd go months ago"
"I know, but a lots happened since then"
"I know it has...and no one knows about that stuff, so we still have to show our faces"
"Yeah, I guess" He turned her round "We can always lie and say one of us feel sick at one point and see the New Year in together, just us"
She nodded "Yeah, ok, we'll do that" She knew what question was coming next
"Do you want to or not tonight?"
"Well, it'd be a nice way to end the year and start the new so...yeah"
"Ok...how far can we go in front of people do you think?"
She shrugged "Probably hugging and dancing, like last time"
He sighed "Alright...but if we go in the gardens..."
"Ok" She smiled "I get it"
"But just incase..." He pulled her closer and put his lips on hers
She kissed him back and hung on to his shirt, mainly for security, he was the one thing on this earth that she was sure of...but she wasn't so sure of his feelings
He smiled at her as they pulled a part "You ready to go?"
She nodded "As I'll ever be"
He kissed her cheek, he knew she was still hurting from yesterday...he'd much rather stay here, just them, instead of being with their friends and Will's family
"It'll be ok"
"I know it will be..." She let him drag her close again "...as long as I'm with you tonight, I should be ok"
"I won't let you out of my sight ok?"
She smiled and kissed his cheek "Thanks...now lets go"
...
Charlie placed their bags on the bed as someone knocked on the door
Kay opened the door, to find Sky, a considered expression on her face
"Whats happened?"
"What do you mean?" Kay replied
"I can feel your fake happiness miles away, whats happened?"
"Oh..." She looked at Charlie, he nodded
"There's no baby Sky" He said, he put an arm around Kay and kissed her head
"Did you miscarry...?"
Kay shook her head "Test was wrong"
"Oh... well... try not to think about it ok?"
"I won't be"
Charlie looked at his watch "We better head downstairs, otherwise they'll come up"
"No one say anything about this to anyone ok?" Kay said "Just forget it"
The other two nodded, and they went downstairs
...
When the party was in full swing, Aimee found her sister by the food
"Kay" She said "Mom won't stop hassling me now for why you weren't there for the holidays, can you just tell me?"
"Charlie was sick, I wanted to stay with him" She lied
"So Charlie's more important?"
"Charlie was alone! I wanted to stay with him, so shut up!"
Aimee blinked at her sister, there was more to the story than her sister was letting on
A tear fell from Kay's right eye, she hoped her sister couldn't see it in this light "I'm going to find Charlie"
"Kay..." Her sister said, concerned
"No, Aimee. Just let me find Charlie, please" She pushed past her sister and desperatly to started to look for Charlie
The music was loud and despite the busy room, she felt alone. She tried not to let the tears spill, her heart racing as she ran through the crowd...where was he?
The lights were making things spin, she had to get out of there. She started to do a quick walk out, when someone touched her shoulder, she span round and fell into Charlie's arms
"Its ok, its ok" He looked around, lifted her head and gently kissed her "You want to go upstairs?"
She nodded "Yeah...please"
He took her hand and walked through the crowd and up the stairs
Once they were in the room, it was surprisingly quiet, Charlie could hear Kay's ragged breathing now
He looped his arms around her now and held her tight, his lips gently brushing her temple
She put her arms around his neck and closed her eyes. This was her safe place, her happy place, not rolling around under the covers...as long as she got to keep this, she'd be just fine
Charlie lifted her head and kissed her lips, making both of their hearts race. She kissed him back
It wasn't the usual kind of kiss they shared when they were in the bedroom, it was just different, like they were desperatly trying to send each other a message
Charlie looked into her blue eyes "Tonight not the night?"
She shook her head "Not tonight...sorry"
"Don't be sorry" He said, and, to show he wasn't mad, he kissed her again
"We can do some more of that though"
He laughed "Are you getting changed first?"
"Yeah, I think I will, this dress is driving me crazy" She replied "Can you unzip me?"
"Anytime" He smiled, pulling it down, she elbowed him
Her dress dropped to the ground, took off her bra and started searching for the t-shirt of Charlie's she'd brought to wear at night
"You're tempting me..."
She looked up at him "Don't even think about it"
He kicked off his shoes, laid back on the bed and said "Fine...be that way" but his tone of voice showed that he was joking,
She pulled the t-shirt on, then pulled out her hair clip, letting her blonde hair tumble down her back, like waves. She removed her make up and smiled at Charlie
He smiled too "This is the way I like you best"
"What?" She said, lieing beside him and letting him pull her close
"I like you natural the best"
"Ohhh. I like you natural the best too"
"Then let me get changed"
She rolled away and let him get off the bed
She watched him strip down to his boxers and pull on his sweats for bed, now he was tempting her...
He smiled and lay back down "This is what its gonna be like soon... but I like it"
"Good...because I like it too"
He kissed her "It'll be just fine"
...
Charlie watched Kay sleep, she looked so peaceful, so perfect and God he loved herso much.
He gently kissed her lips, moving some hair out of her eyes
"I love you" He whispered
Part of him ached for to wake up and say I love you too... but he knew it wasn't going to happen
He put his fingers through hers, kissed her hand and closed his eyes, before lightly kissing her forehead