*As we all know Stephanie Meyer owns all twilight characters… I've just edited them to fit into my story! :)*

-Edward-

(6 months later)

I was laying on my couch after my long day at work and just wanted to relax. I had a lot to think about as usual. Bella and Jasper were going out a lot lately and every time she got home she would come to my apartment and talk about every detail. I wish I had the guts to tell her how I felt. If I had then she could either fall in love with me, or at least stop coming to my apartment and bragging out how sweet Jasper is. Don't get me wrong…Jasper is a great guy and we have been friends for awhile but to hear her goosh over his 'amazing kisses' or the 'sparkle in his eyes' when he looks at her. I found myself holding a grudge against Jasper although I knew he had no idea about my feelings for her.

Alice has come over a few times while they were out and we've sped a few tears to say the least. I knew she was hurting as much as I was but I tried to be the macho older brother and help her feel better. She was worried that Jasper didn't even know who she was which is lie obviously! She's my little sister and Jasper has been to my childhood home MANY times while we were growing up. All I could do was hold my little sister as she cried over a guy that was dating my love.

I watched the clock impatiently as I waited for Bella to leave for her date with Jasper. She was already at home and should be getting ready at this very moment. Jasper was due to pick her up in forty five minutes. I sighed as I turned my attention back to the television, my eyes not really watching the screen but just the colors that were displayed. I pulled myself off the couch and to the fridge to grab a beer, opened it, and then headed back to the couch. Before I reached the living room there was a knock on my front door.

I walked the couple feet to my doorway and opened the door, thinking it may be Alice coming to wait with me through their date once again. When the door opened and I saw Bella my heart stopped before returning double time. She was wearing a stunning black dress that reached right above her knees and black heels. She looked into my eyes and smile shyly.

"How do I look" she asked as she spun in a little circle.

"Beautiful as always" was my response as usual. "Aren't you suppose to go out with Jasper tonight?" I couldn't help but ask even though I knew that was why she was dressed up.

"Yes I am but I needed to talk to you before I left. May I come in?"

"Of course." I stepped aside allowing her to enter the apartment and glanced as her ass as she walked by. Damn she has a sexy body. I ripped my eyes away from her backside as she walked into the living room.

"Everything ok?"

"Of course Edward I just need to talk to you. Get your opinion of something that I've been debating….that's all."

Curiosity hit me and I just looked at her and raised my eye brow. "What have you been debating?"

"Well as you know, Jasper and I have been dating for a few months now and I've been debating whether it's time to….well you know."

I was far past confused as she glanced down at the floor. Was she talking about sex? My heart clenched as I reached my hand towards her. She grabbed my hand and we walked to the couch, sitting side by side. She still hadn't looked up at my face and as much as I was hoping that this wasn't a sex talk, I knew in my heart that that's where this conversation was heading. I was speechless beyond belief and I couldn't imagine the look on my face.

Bella slowly looked up into my eyes and looked away from her. I knew if I looked into her caramel colored eyes then my traitor tears would show as I spoke the words that my body really didn't want to say. "You want to have sex with Jasper?"

"Its been six months and I think that the emotions are there. It's not my first time Edward as you know but I was wondering if you and Jasper have talked about it at all. We've kissed a lot and have came close to stripping each others clothes off before but I don't want to throw myself at him and then be rejected you know."

At this moment I wished for the first time that I wasn't Bella's best friend. Don't get me wrong I love being here for her even though I can't have her but I hated that she came to me for advice like this. I wanted to be the one curled up in bed with her and holding her all night. I wanted her to scream MY name as I made her cum on me. I wanted to be the one to kiss her until the sun rose. I shook my head trying to clear the thoughts. I knew Bella was waiting for my response but my body just sat there waiting for my heart to break into a million pieces once again.

When I finally found my voice it came out as a whisper, "If you think ya'll are ready." I didn't dare look into her eyes and see the emotion that played across her face. All I wanted at that moment was for her to walk out and leave me to shed my tears over her, my best friend, my Bella that I had fallen in love with.

"Are you alright Edward, your breaking out in a sweat."

"Im FINE" I snapped as I jumped off the couch. "I'm just going to go lay down. I'll see you tomorrow." I wanted to let her know that I wouldn't be awake when she got home from her date. I definitely didn't want to hear about this night.

She slowly got off the couch and walked up to me. "Um…ok Edward. I guess I'll see you tomorrow. Thanks for your input." She hugged me awkwardly as she headed out my door. DAMN IT! Why couldn't I tell this gorgeous woman that I'm in love with her? I've never had a problem talking to a woman before. I had dated a few girls before I realized that I only had eyes for Bella. I guess it was easy to talk to them because I didn't love them, but honestly I never gave myself to love anyone other then my best friend.

I quickly thought about dating someone to get my mind off Bella but it was thrown out of my mind before I really had time to think about it. I knew that Bella was the only woman I'll ever have this much love for. As I shut and locked my front door, I grabbed my cell phone and headed to my room. I quickly called Alice, I needed to hear her voice, I needed to be comforted now.

She answered the phone on the third ring. "Hello brother" she said and I could tell she was smiling. Man did I love my little sister! As soon as I heard her voice I wondered if she was the right person to call. She was the only one who knew about my feelings for Bella but I wasn't sure if she could handle knowing that Bella and Jasper may or may not have sex for the first time tonight.

"Hey little sis, how's school?" I was chickening out. I didn't know if Ali would be mad if I knew this information and didn't share or if she'd rather not know.

I was arguing with myself when she responded, "Edward what's wrong? Don't do the small talk crap. If you need to tell me then please do, I can handle it!" Her voice was stern and serious. Here goes nothing…

"Alice take a deep breath before I tell you. I'm not sure if you'd even want to know but Bella just left here and…um.."

"Spit it out already" she snapped.

"She's think about having sex...with him…tonight" It came out more of a question then a statement. I heard a loud thud and my heart clenched at the sadness my little sister felt. Damn why did I open my big mouth! "Alice…..Alice…..Hello…..ALICE!" I was screaming now, worried about my little sister.

She voice sounded dead as she picked the phone back up and she responded. "I have to go, bye Edward."

*I hope yall enjoyed this chapter. Oh poor Edward and Alice! Review and let me know what you think!*