*Stephanie Meyer owns all twilight characters used in this story. I just own this story plot and many twilight merchandise…including my new Eclipse DVD! Can't wait for breaking dawn! *

-Edward-

I was stunned that Alice just busted me out in front of Bella and I wasn't sure that this was the right moment to tell my Bella, my love that I was in love with her. I stared at Alice dumbfounded as she winked at me and then left the room. My attention was quickly pulled back to Bella. She was staring at me confused and oblivious to the things I wanted to tell her so bad but my mouth wouldn't function.

"What do you need to tell me Edward?" she asked, her voice shaking like it usually does when she's nervous. I opened my mouth to speak but closed it again quickly. How do I tell her? This is my chance and I can't blow it. I looked at her gorgeous face and I could tell she was getting worried. "Edward you're my best friend! You can tell me anything" she whispered.

I walked over to her and sat her down on Alice's bed. I gripped both her hands in mine and looked into her chocolate brown eyes. "Bella I um… I'm not quite sure how to say this but…I have feelings for you. More then friendship feelings…I understand if you…" My confessions were interrupted by her jumping off the bed and stepping away from me.

"You what? How fucking long have you felt this way?" She was frustrated and I understood that.

"Years" I said. Unable to speak much more. This was one of the hardest things I've done in my life and I was so scared of losing her.

"Years? You've liked me as more then just a best friend for years?" She was starting to sound a little pissed off and I wasn't really expecting that. In my dreams I thought she would run and jump into my arms and say she loves me too…I guess that's my fantasy though because I don't think that's going to happen.

"I didn't know how to tell you" I whispered. "I wasn't sure how to tell you and I was scared."

She started pacing back and forth in Alice's room, refusing to make eye contact with me. "Edward I cant do this right now. I'm sorry but I need to go somewhere and think." She spoke the words in a rush and ran towards the front door. I called for her to stop but she ignored the agony in my voice and left, allowing my door to slowly shut behind her. I stared at the door for several minutes before I realized that Alice was standing in the living room watching me.

"I'm sorry Edward. I thought she'd be ecstatic. I thought you'd get your happy ever after like you deserve. If I would have known…"

"I…I need to get out of here. I'll be down at the bar on the corner if you need me." I grabbed my wallet and walked out of my apartment and down to the bar. Things did not go as planned but I just hoped that I wouldn't lose her all together. I hope that she'd continue to be my best friend. I don't know what I'd do if I lost her completely.

-Bella-

I couldn't believe that Edward just said he had feelings for me. It was the last thing I ever expected and I was stunned to say the least. Edward has always been my best friend and I always presumed him as unavailable in my dating book because of that. I have never thought about him as more then what he was, my best friend. I know I compare guys to him all the time but does that mean that I like him that way or is it just because he's a great guy. My life just got so much more complicated.

I walked into my apartment and grabbed my purse. I walked back into the entry way and locked my door. I headed towards a new bar that just opened up, a few blocks away. I've wanted to come check it out but works been so busy lately but tonight I need to have a drink and let loose a little. When I got to the bar it was almost empty. It was too early for the late crowd and too late for the early crowd. I picked a spot at the bar and the bartender walked up to me.

"What can I get you pretty lady?" He was a gorgeous, tall, blonde man with gorgeous green eyes, and reminded me of a pediatrician I had when I was a kid.

"Vodka on the rocks please" I answered. I couldn't look up at the gorgeous man because all I could think about right now is Edward.

"You seem upset, anything you want to talk about" he asked in a very comforting tone. I looked up at him and she gave me a soft smile. He stuck his hand out in between us and said, "My name is Carlisle and I run this bar with my wife Esme. If you need to talk then I'm here to listen. Just let me know."

"I'm Bella" I whispered. I couldn't hold anything back and really who else did I have to talk to at this moment. I gave him my soft smile and told him about everything that had happened in the last two hours. He listened without interrupting me and I was thankful for that. I was nice to get it all out and voice my opinion.

Carlisle looked up at me and smiled. "You love him" he said, more of a statement then a question.

"I'm not sure. I've always loved him as my best friend but I'm not sure if I'm in love with him. I'm worried if we did date then broke up, and it would ruin our friendship."

"Bella, you cant worry about the future just yet. Enjoy the present. Esme and I were best friends for ten years before we started dating. Now we've been married for twelve years and I couldn't be happier. Take a leap of faith and have fun. That's all you can do."

Hearing his words made me realize that I would enjoy spending more time with Edward and I have imagined his lips on mine. I'd have to try but I had to talk to Edward about making sure this wont ruin of friendship in the long run. I grabbed my purse and thanked Carlisle before paying my tab. I walked out of the bar and basically ran to Edwards apartment.

I knocked on the door a couple times before Alice pulled the door open. "He's not here" she said, answering my question before I asked.

"Do you know where he is" I asked hopeful.

"He's down at the bar on the corner. Stevie's Car and Grill I believe." I thanked her and walked to Stevie's. We had been there many times together and I knew exactly where it was. I arrived and pushed the first set of doors open and stood there for a second trying to compose myself. The second set of doors was a tad ajar and Edwards' voice poured out of the bar. I sat and listened for several minutes.

"I don love her. I've loved her for years and if she doesn't feel the same then I understand but I can't lose her. She's always been my best friend and I need her in my life." The agony in Edwards' voice made me cringe. I did that to him? I wanted to listen more but I couldn't stand to hear the sadness any longer. I pushed the second set of doors open and the bartender looked up at me and smiled.

"You have a visitor" he said to Edward pointing towards me. Edward turned around and looked at me and my heart dropped. He had tears running down his cheeks and his eyes were a tad red. I quickly walked up to the bar and stood in front of Edward. I put my hand on both sides of his face and wiped his tears away. I hope he never sheds another tear because of me in his entire life!

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