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My Time to Shine!

~4~

'Visitors'

The rest of the month was the happiest month of my life. In class Jasper would talk to me when we could and wrote notes when we couldn't, compared to my writing, which I thought was actually good, looked like chicken scratch next to his. I was falling for him, hard, and literally, but he always caught me. At home was more sullen then I would have liked, due to the Edward and Bella situation but I made her as happy as I could.

At school the group talked about going to La Push quite often, I was excited about going. Then I got asked to the spring dance when I thought it was girl's choice. I turned them all down, I can't dance due to my clumsy feet that are sometimes, much to my amazement, quick and precise, like at home, but coming here seemed to make me even clumsier.

On a Wednesday, I was sick so no school and slept most of the day, I guess it was because of all the cold rain, other people didn't get sick because they had immunity to the cold, build up over the generations. I was use to those nice sunny days. I got up not wanting to sleep anymore, chose a book from the bookcase and went across the room sitting on the chair. I jumped up from it, staring. Why was it so cold? It was colder than anything else in the room and the window was shut. Shock entered me, was it possible that I had a stalker. They weird and slightly romantic 'watching when they sleep' stalking, now that I looked around surveying other things in my room I saw small, but sure enough there were, changes.

I turned to my window, I need to figure out a way to see if anyone at all is coming through it, I walked to it and looked outside I saw the green forest but other than that no trees out my window, so no humans could get in. Thinking about Light from Death Note I got a strip of paper and put it between the window and the frame at the bottom, and in the corner, so I would wake up or distract the person from the paper, a rain stick, yes I have a rain stick, I like the way it sounds, though I could just listen outside, but I wanted to listen to it inside. So now whenever somebody opens the window it will fall. I made it seem like I just set it there not thinking about it and ran down the stairs.

Going through the cupboards I found my hidden junk food and plopped down on the couch. I watched Grease that was on and when it was over Bella came home. She was angry. I grinned, "Got asked to the dance by Mike, Eric, and Tyler huh." She looked at me exasperated and my grin went bigger. "Chocolate," I held out my Hershey bar to her. She snatched it out of my hand and walked up the stairs. "Hey that's mine!"

"Not anymore!" I laughed at her. She deserved free chocolate; she would tomorrow too, due to almost fainting and the Edward fiasco.

That night as I was sleeping I dreamed about my universe, and getting a new car. When I woke up I saw that the rain stick was in the same place, I was a bit disappointed but then I saw the slip of paper on the floor and grinned, Thank you Light Yagami! Still feeling sick I stayed in my room, telling Bella to go without me.

By the time fifth period was almost over, I was looked at the clock every once in a while, I went to the family room to wait for Edward's Volvo to come in the driveway, when it did I snuck over to the window and opened it quietly straining my ears.

I heard Edward. "Don't be offended, but you seem to be one of those people who just attract accidents like a magnet, like your sister." I scoffed, he's so rude. "So… try not to fall into the ocean or get run over or anything, all right."

"I'll see what I can do." Bella glared, I think it was time for me to jump in and yelled from the window.

"I'll keep an eye on her as well," They jumped. "That is if I'm not falling into the ocean." I smiled at Edward jogged out the door and went to Edward's side. "What, to occupied with each other to notice me?"

Edward looked annoyed and rolled his window down. "How is it that you can sneak up on me?"

I pat his shoulder through the window. "I just always know the right time when to hop in."

"That you do."

I smiled to him and went over to Bella, "Let's go eat some chocolate, I bet you had a hard day." I waved goodbye to Edward and we walked inside.

"So," I started, "what did you talk about with Edward during lunch."

"How do you know everything?" She asked, incredulous.

"Not everything, just a lot."

"Well he confused me with some stuff that made no sense, about being friends, about friends, that you and I are hard for him to read, and then about ditching."

When she didn't continue I said, "And about what you think he is," She looked at me surprised. "I don't think you'll ever be able to keep things away from me Bella."

"I don't think so either." With that we went off and did our own thing.

Friday I went to school and was now at lunch, people asked if I was feeling better and if I was going to La Push, I was really excited about going and I let it be known. I forgot Edward and Emmett weren't going to be there, but I didn't know that the others were.

In Chemistry I sat next to Jasper, "Are you feeling better?"

"Yes, I am thank you."

It was silent and then class started, Jasper was looking ahead eyes narrow. When the teacher gave out the sheets I finished mine easily, though Jasper was done first. I noticed nobody else was done and turned to him.

"Are you ok?"

He ignored my question, "Are you going with your friends this weekend?"

"To La Push," I was surprised, he nodded. "Why?"

"I don't think you should." He stated.

"What?" Now where was this coming from, I know he wasn't in the book much but I knew he wasn't supposed to act this way. Oh great, another thing I changed. But I was slightly happy about it.

"It's dangerous, especially for you."

I was annoyed, "Sure bring out the clumsy card."

"I just don't like that I won't be there to catch you when you fall."

I blinked, "Really," was the only answer I would come up with, my mind was swirling faster than I could catch up with.

"What are you feeling?"

"Huh?" I reeled back surprised, and then mentally hit myself. Huh? Seriously Rave cant you think of anything better to say?

"Well usually I can tell what people are feeling but with you I only get bits and pieces. It's frustrating. "

"Maybe it's just because I'm a hard person to read."

"That's true." I don't think I was supposed to hear that, if Jasper couldn't use his power on me and neither could Edward, was it possible that even Alice couldn't.

"Are we friends?" I wanted to know if he was going to be like Edward and suddenly ignore me.

"You shouldn't be." He's so blunt.

"But I want to be."

He grimaced, "You shouldn't,"

"But I do," I confessed. "Do you?"

". . . Yes," He looked in my eyes, I was dazzled.

"Even if it makes it hard on both of us," He looked confused as I continued. "I'm glad were friends." I smiled and walked out of the room when the bell rang, him following me.

"What do you mean?" Crap, I slipped.

"Well I don't think your family approves of me," I saved myself. "I see Rosalie glaring."

"She glares at everyone." He explained, "But why is it hard on you."

"'Cause I'll fall for you even harder," I blurted and left him standing in the middle of the hallway as I went to gym.

When I got home I immediately went to my room ignoring Bella. I spent the whole day in my room. I couldn't sleep just stayed in my bed the whole night, then I heard my window opening, I had removed the rain stick from it once I confirmed someone came through. I peaked my eye open keeping my heart calm, breathing even.

I saw Jasper looking at the homework on my desk along with my drawings. He was so occupied with it he didn't even hear me sit up. I thought vampires were supposed to be able to hear anything. What were us humans doing to them. He suddenly stiffened and whipped around staring at me eyes wide.

"Hi."

"Hi? You find me in your room and say hi?" He was angry and slightly bewildered.

"I already knew someone was coming in my room." I told him getting out of bed. "And I know what you are too."

"What do you think I am?" He questioned through his teeth.

"Cold skin," I remembered touching his skin and the electric shock that pasted through one day of my Happy Month as I called it. "Fast, eyes change color," My mind flashed to the horrible experience of fear, about to be destroyed at the hands of my favorite vampire. "able to get in my room from the window," I pointed to the window. "I know you're a vampire."

"Are you scared?"

I smiled walked closer to him. "If I was, would I be as calm as I am, I mean I'm in a room alone with you."

"Exactly, you should be screaming and running the other way."

"But I'm not, and I'm not going to tell anyone," I said truthfully. "If that's what you're worried about."

"What I'm worried about is if you have any self-preservation at all."

"… Can I meet your family?"

"That's what I was talking about."

"What are you doing in my room anyway?" I asked curious.

"Finally, some skepticism," His southern drawl was more apparent and his gold eyes smothered me. He had a smirk etched on his face showing his amusement. I got light headed and my knees were weak. A guy that could do this to anyone was defiantly dangerous. I tore my eyes from his and jumped back on the bed turning back to him, Indian style.

"No, just curious," I shrugged my shoulders waiting for him to answer. He shook his head and sat down on the chair. "So?"

"I don't know." He shook his head, not able to find an answer.

My eyes widened, "What do you mean you don't know?"

"I just can't seem to stay away from you."

I was mad. He just had to come here, and I thought I made it clear that I liked him; I was going to push him out of my mind, not to continue to like him anymore. It would be hard, but it would have to be done, for Alice. My body shook and I clenched my fists.

"So you like me." I kept my face blank, not letting any emotion show.

"Yes," He confessed.

"What about Alice?"

"What about Alice?" He seemed genuinely confused.

"You're with Alice, aren't you?" It came out more of a question, I was confused.

"What would make's you say that?" His auburn brows nit together, sat straighter and his head was slightly tilted.

"J-Jessica, s-she," I choked out. What is going on? Did I change this too?

My heart soared, there was an actual possibility that I could end up with this god. He laughed and I was winded, all the air in my lungs vanished and I forgot how to breathe. He will be the death of me. I laughed in my subconscious, I would make sure he would, I just wouldn't tell him that yet.

"Well then, Jessica has it wrong." He smiled in turn I swooned. "She's just my sister."

I grinned and leaned against my gigantic assortment of pillows, completely relaxed, content. I did change another thing by coming here, but this was one of them that I liked the most. I then wanted to talk about things that I knew, for show, so I wouldn't blurt things out that were supposedly unbeknownst to me.

"So you glow in the sun or something?"

He pursed his lips into a thin line. "Why do you say that?"

"Because when the suns at a certain angle, you kind of glow." I said truthfully. I have seen him glow, I had almost missed it but my eyes are sharp to all things about him.

"Your very perceptive," he clenched his jaw, he seemed to go into protective mode. "That dangerous you know, you find out things you shouldn't and bad things happen."

I was indifferent,"I find out things I don't want to all the time, if I want to, and if I don't" Remembering walking by the maids and hearing their gossip I scrunched my nose. To change topic, "Do you sleep in a coffin?"

"No," He smiled humorously, "I don't sleep at all."

"Well it physically impossible to change into a bat so I won't even ask that." He nodded. "Do I have to find all the crosses in the house and hide them?" I asked jokingly.

"No, but I think I would have to find all sharp things and hide them," He countered, "Though you get hurt any way don't you."

I scowled. "I wish I had a stake."

"Rumor, you would have to tear me to pieces," I looked at him seizing him up. "You couldn't even nudge me darlin'."

I tried to keep my smile under control that just made my night. "Darlin'? I could at least attempt it, darlin'. "

He showed his teeth with a smile getting up slowly then, in a blur, was right in front of my face. I think he was trying to frighten me, but I was only dazzled, again. His hands were on either side of my knees, trapping me, his eyes grew darker. His smile had turned into a menacing smirk, but even that lured me in.

I went closer and his eyes narrowed, a grumble erupted in his throat that I speculated to be a hiss. "You should be terrified."

"Haven't we already discussed this?" I tucked my legs under my butt. "I'm only afraid of losing you." I remember hearing those words, from Bella. I did not mean to take them, but I completely understood. The time when Jasper goes to attack Bella, I don't think I'll be able to handle him leaving. That is if I'm still here.

His jaw clenched so tightly that I heard his teeth grind. Next thing I know he was on the other side of the room pacing back and forth, hands sliding through his gold locks, sighing. "You shouldn't go to La Push tomorrow."

"I have to. I told Edward I was," Sitting on the edge of the bed was as far as I would go to get close to him; I didn't want him to be any more irritable than he was. "To watch Bella,"

"I'll tell him you can't." He scoffed. "You can't even watch your step."

I scoffed back at him, glaring. "I want to go, so I'm going."

"Why?"

"I want to be with my friends. I'll be careful." I softened, "I promise."

Exhaling he seemed torn. "I'll be anxiously waiting."

"As will I," I smiled.

He was out the window with a chuckle as a goodbye. I would have asked him to stay but I don't really think he could have handled it. He was the newest vegetarian in his family.

I felt better about today and tomorrow, though I would be, like he said, anxiously waiting for school on Wednesday, if I remember it correctly Monday and Tuesday were going to be sunny. I slid under the covers of my bed and went into a deep sleep, dreams of Jasper and La Push in my head.

I was in the backseat of Mike's van and we were on our way to La Push. Bouncing up and down bugging Lauren who was beside me, perturbed that I was sitting next to Tyler, I wouldn't have minded of trading seat with him but I just wanted to annoy her. He didn't seem to mind my excitement, he just grinned as we talked to each other, Lauren giving comments at times.

It was beautiful; it was my first time taking in the scenery, even if I had been there before I hadn't had the time to look, I was so caught up that I was here. The water was dark gray and the thin line of sand was soaked in water making it a dark stone gray-brown. The rest of the beach consisted of many large stones that were every shade a stone could be. Islands, that I hadn't seen when I surfaced, rose out of the water with cliff sides, reaching to uneven heights, with fir trees and bushes crowding them. The tide line was strewn with huge driftwood trees bleached white, some piled together against the forests boundary.

I skipped to the driftwood logs that we were setup at and watched the blue fire Mike had lit up. We all talked for a half hour then it was time to hike. Like I promised Edward, I kept an eye on Bella, going with her on the hike. Mike was pretty happy about us coming.

We lagged behind watching our step, enjoying our alone time together. When we broke through the confines of the forest we found a rocky shore, identical to the one we had just been at, other than the low tide. I watched as the others hopped from rock to rock like mountain goats, fearless. Bella and I cautiously looked around in the water.

The boys were hungry so naturally it was time to go back. Bella wanted to keep up this time so she tripped every once in a while. I stopped a few but other times she brought be down with her, earning laughs.

When we got back to First Beach, I saw that the group had grown, adding with a few of the locals. Bella sat next to Angela and Mike brought them sandwiches and a few sodas to pick from. I got my own sandwich and lemonade in a can, sitting by a couple of locals and across from Sam, who I greeted with a grin. I socialized with the group and when I was done with my food I went to Sam, chattering about my whereabouts. He said that Emily had been wondering if I was ok and wanted to see me again. I sipped from my lemonade; I got his number and warned him that I would be calling so much that they would want to change their number.

I saw Bella off with Jacob, who Bella was using to get information, much to my dislike. Grinning I waved 'adieu' to Sam and caught up with the duo. I did what I do a lot lately, I snuck up behind them.

"So do you think we're a bunch of superstitious natives or what?" Jacobs tone was playful mixed with slight worry.

Bella turned to him smiling awkwardly. "No. I think you're very good at telling scary stories, I still have goose bumps, see?" She held up her arm.

"Cool."He smiled.

"There you are, Bella." Mike called about fifty yards walking towards us, arms waving over his head.

"Is that your boyfriend?" Jacob asked alert with a tone of jealousy.

"No, definitely not," Bella whispered.

"Why," I butt in, making them jump. My grin was sly. "You jealous or somethin'?"

He beamed at me. "Shorty!" He picked me up and spun me around making me dizzy. When my feet were finally back on the ground I stumbled slightly, not in tune with the planet yet.

I ginned back after I was settled with a playful angry face. "I'm not short, all of you are just too tall, and besides, it means gravity loves me."

They laughed and I walked ahead of them to the van not wanting to be pelted by rain that was soon to come. When I got in a few drops of rain started to fall, the others close behind. Tyler, Bella, Angela and I, in that order were squishing in the back while Mike, Jessica, and Lauren hailed the front.

When Bella and I got home; look I already thought of it as home, I bounded up the stairs and used my cell to call Emily. We talked about how we've been and other thing. When I was tired I told Emily, adios, changed, and slipped under the covers of my comfy mattress. I saw the clock, reading twelve and dozed off dreaming of nothing.

~Shreba