Yet another procrastination from both of my chapter stories.
I turned a poem I wrote into a poem by Kurt directed to Blaine.
Hope you like it! K+ for talks of suicide... please tell me if the rating is off.
Do not own glee!
Is Courage a Bad Thing?
It's right there in front of me
If I had enough animosity
The razor's sitting by the sink
But I can't bear to think
The consequences of what I could do
I'd lose the pain, but the happiness too
What happiness?
Instead of slitting my wrist
I could write a list
Make this easier on us all
And I'll just try not to fall
I'll try to live through the pain
I'll live for the sun and the rain
I'll live for you.
I wish I could glimpse into the future
And see if this gets easier
Can I ignore all the names?
Why does it have to stay the same?
Remind me, did I choose to stay?
Or did you convince me to try one more day?
I think it was you.
Maybe I'm over exaggerating
Frustrating myself by contemplating
If this world needs me so bad
Why do the inhabitants make me so mad?
Feelings are delicate
And human ways are intricate
I break easily.
But maybe for you
And myself a little too
I will make the choice
To use my voice
Rather than a knife
Or some pills to take my life
My voice is my life.
I could focus on my dreams
Instead of all the in between
Set up some goals
So I feel like I have a role
In this world we have
Like I belong and have something to give
What, though?
If I scare you with all this talk
About forever going someplace dark
I will tell you that I'm not brave
I'd be too scared to crawl into that cave
I don't have the guts to pull that trigger
I guess I'll hold on and wait for something bigger
Maybe it's good that I don't have the courage.