It was close to midnight when I decided to go up to grab some pyjama's ready to sleep on the couch downstairs. But when I got up my window was wide open and my bed was completely empty, with a piece of paper sitting on one of my pillows.

I walked over and picked it up quickly scanning over the two words that were written on it, 'I'm Sorry'. I scoffed while crumpling the piece of paper and throwing it out.

I walked over to my dresser and pulled out one of Jasper's shirts that I kept, and a pair of sweats. Once they were on, I walked over to my bed, just stopping at the edge.

He slept here, Jasper, him, he slept right in this bed, where he always slept with his arms wrapped around me protectively. Where he kissed me and told me how beautiful I was to him, how special.

LIES! My mind screamed at me. It was all lies, he lied to me, he lied about everything.

'He thinks your pathetic' Those words echoed in my mind. Swarming my every thought.

I felt my legs give out as my body crumpled to the floor, sobs raking over my whole body causing me to shake uncontroably.

I could still smell him. His scent still lingers everywhere. In my fucking room!

Why did this have to happen? I thought he was happy with me, I thought we were happy with each other.

"This can't be happening." I sobbed through my hands, that were trying to hide my tears.

I looked at my bed, memories of every touch he ever gave me. Every kiss, every loving compliment.

"LIES!" I screamed, standing up furiously tearing everything in my sight.

I was screaming at the top of my lungs, throwing my pillows and blankets across the room. Then my lap that hit the wall, glass exploding everywhere. I looked down and noticed a picture frame, which held a picture of Jasper and I, smiling at each other. I grabbed it furiously, starring at the picture for a second. I watched as a couple tears fell on the glass on top of his face. Jasper.

A wave of furry went through me and I screamed the loudest I could, throwing the picture to the ground at my feet, watching as the glass shattered on the ground, and the picture sliding out. I picked it up, cutting the tips of my fingers a little from the glass, and tore the picture up.

"Stupid, stupid, stupid." I said through my tears, as I ripped the picture right through Jasper's face.

"Bella?" I heard a voice say from my door, but I didn't pay any attention to it.

Instead I walked over towards my wardrobe and grabbed a stuffed animal that Jasper had won for me at a carnival this year, and tore it apart, my blood smearing on the white fur of the animal.

"Are you bleeding?" I heard the voice say, but just like before I ignored it. I threw more stuff every, my blood smearing more things. 'I must've cut my hand pretty bad.' I thought.

"That's enough!" the voice said again. Hands grabbed my wrists, but I screamed in protest for the person to let me go. The person who was holding me pushed me against the wall, forcing me to face them, to look at them.

"Bella stop! Please baby girl." my father said, worry evident in his voice. My blood ran cold as I looked at him. His eyes burning into mine.

I let out a sob, my body crumbling to the ground a second time, but this time my father caught me as was holding me against him, rubbing my hair.

"Its alright, baby. Daddy's right here. Right here." he soothed me, as I held onto him for dear life, crying.

"Why would he do it daddy?" I asked, sounding just like a broken five year old. I looked up at my father and noticed he looked broken to.

"Who, honey?" he asked carefully.

"Jasper. Why would he do this to me?" I sobbed.

"What did he do?" my father asked, furious. I let out another sob, memories of Alice's confrontation, Jasper admitting everything, Jasper's note. Why did that note hurt me so bad! It was just a note, with the words 'I'm Sorry.' it should mean nothing to me!

But yet means so much.

"He lied. He lied about everything." I managed to say. My fathers arms wrapped around me tighter pulling me closer to him as I sobbed on the floor.

After an hour, my father managed to get me into his room and bandaged up my hand that had a long gash right on my palm, and tried to get me to sleep.

"Bella, everything will alright." he told me. Running his hands through my hair, like a father should.

I didn't want to talk anymore. So I just waited until sleep took hold of me.

The next day of school was pretty hard. Everyone kept starring at me, waiting for me to just fall apart right in front of them. I've really had it here, and now I really couldn't wait until I graduated and leave this hell hole.

The day felt like it was going way to slow for my liking, but finally it was lunch.

"Bella!" Emmett shouted, with no Rose in sight. I was slightly confused, because those two were never separated, even in class. They both made sure they had the same classes, which is weird, but kind of cute.

I took a seat across from him, watching as he watched me with concern.

"Where's Rose?" I asked, the confusion evident in my voice.

"She's sitting with Jasper today." he said carefully, watching for my reaction. I just nodded my head, and looked away from him, so he didn't see the hurt in my eyes.

But he knew me better then that, because before I could say something to change the subject he added, "She's lecturing him right now." he said with a sheepish grin.

"Lecturing?" I found myself saying.

"Yea, she was really upset at what Alice said, then she found out he came to school drunk yesterday… Lets just say, Rose is very pissed at the moment." he said with a grin.

I nodded my head again, looking away. I noticed he had a tray of fries and hamburger. I had lost my appetite for the last week and hardly ate anything… But the thing was, I didn't want to eat anything, and I wasn't going to eat anything.

"How's my baby sis." he asked, taking a huge bite out of his hamburger.

"Fine." I said looking away, trying to hold my breath so I couldn't smell the food, as he spoke. My stomach let out a growl, and Emmett has that look of concern on his face again.

"Have you been eating?" he said seriously, putting his hamburger down.

"Yes." I said quickly, trying to concentrate.

"You look pale, and you seem skinnier." he said, looking at me.

"I'm fine. Don't worry about it."

"Bella-" he said.

"I'm fine, seriously Emmett." I said, he then pushed his tray towards me.

"Then eat a few fries, I can't eat all this." he said, but I knew it was a lie. He could eat a truck full of fries, and still say he was hungry. I knew what he was trying to do.

"I had a big break-fast." I said pushing it back, but he pushed it towards me again.

"Just a few." he pushed.

I stood up quickly, my anger evident. My body was rigged as I stared at Emmett with so much anger.

"Dammit Emmett! I said I'm not hungry!" I shouted. The whole lunch room hushed. This is what they wanted. They wanted me to crack, and I finally did. I looked at Emmett and noticed he looked hurt. I couldn't stand to look at him so I ran.

Jasper's POV

I was an idiot once again. I mean what's new? Nothing!

I just left her, with a note in my place with only a couple words written on a piece of paper which probably meant shit to her.

Today, Rose came up to me and asked me to have lunch with her.

"Rose, I'm not really in the mood to eat at the café." I said, my words dieing as I looked at Rose giving me her look. The look that says 'don't-fucking-mess-with-me-right-now' look.

"Fine." I said in defeat. She gave me one last look before walking away to her second period class, as I did the same.

After class, I made my way to the café. Dreading the talk I'm about to have with Rose. Once I walked through the doors, immediately I saw the tall blonde sitting at a table by herself, with a salad placed right in front of her. I took a deep breath and made my way towards her and sat down once I reached the table.

"Rose." I said sounding bored.

"You're an idiot you know that." she said, getting right to the point. It was just Rose, she never beat around the bush, she just got down right to the point, feelings put aside.

"So I've been told." I said sarcastically. Which only made her angrier.

"Bella's a mess you know. After the little stunt you pulled with her yesterday." she said, glaring at me.

"Look, I know I probably shouldn't have gotten drunk and come to school. I'm an idiot." I said. Is it just me, or do I hear the word idiot a little to much? I thought to myself.

"Yes, and you also crashed at Bella's house, and then left without an explanation to her!" she whispered harshly, which meant she really wanted to yell at me right now, but couldn't because people were around.

"I left a note behin-" I tried to say but of course Rose has to cut me off.

"Did you know Charlie called me last night?" she said.

"Did you know he called me to tell me he didn't know what to do with Bella, because when he came home from work he found her tearing her room apart, furniture everywhere, glass, blood!" she said through clenched teeth.

"Wait, Blood?" I asked worried.

"She cut her hand through her little break down." Rose said.

"I didn't mean to-" again I was cut off.

"You never think do you! You never think of other people, only yourself!" she said. This is when I snapped.

"I care about that girl more then anyone ever could." I said through clenched teeth. She just scoffed at me, crossing her arm across her chest and leaning back in her chair with a viscous look on her face that said she was ready to rip me apart.

"Yea, that's why you told her deepest secrets to that little slut of yours, then laughed at Bella behind her back. You're a pathetic excuse of a man Jasper, and Bella is better off without you." she said. My body went tense, as I processed her words.

'She's better off without you.' echoed in my mind.

"Rose, you have to understand, I would never laugh at Bella like that. I lo-" I stopped myself this time, Rose no bothering to cut me off.

"Yes, I told Alice something's about Bella, but I was so wasted at the time I didn't know half the things I was saying. Alice kept pestering me with questions. I didn't mean to. But I would never, never laugh at Bella about her insecurities, about her flaws, because to me she is perfect in my eyes." I said. Rose looked at me, eyeing me to see if I was lying. Then her face went from angry to shocked.

"You love her!" she whispered, her hand flying to her mouth. The words setting in.

"I-" I said, but a loud yell irrupted through the café.

"Dammit Emmett! I'm not hungry!" Bella screamed, running through the room and through the doors, while Emmett stood up and looked at us sadly.

"Jesus Emmett." I heard Rose whisper, while starring at her boyfriend. She then looked at me.

"Jasper." she said slowly, facing me again.

"Emmett and I have to tell you some stuff that Bella is going through right now."

Bella's POV

People telling me what I should, and shouldn't do. People telling me what I should and shouldn't eat. When, where, why. They all just needed to shut the fuck up and leave me the hell alone if they plan on trying to run my life. I don't need those kind of people.

I made it all the way to the girls washroom. I leaned against the counter, trying to catch my breath. Once I did so, I dared to get a glimpse of myself in the mirror, and when I did, I couldn't even recognize myself.

The girl standing in front of me looked ill. Her hair was a mess, and looked like she hadn't brushed it in week. She had bags under her eyes, and her lips were chapped. She seemed paler then usual, and much skinnier then she was before.

This girl, she was me.

"Bella?" I heard a voice. I looked towards the door. My heart beating fast in my chest.

"Go away." I managed to say.

"Bella, please let me talk to you." Jasper said through the door. When I didn't answer, I watched as I slowly started to open.

Then there stood Jasper, in front of me. In the girls washroom.

"You know that this is the girls washroom." I said. Not looking at him, but I could picture him shrugging and looking around it.

"Yea I know. Its much nicer then the guys room. Much cleaner." he said.

We didn't say anything for a couple minutes.

"Bella-" he said, taking a step towards me, but I found myself taking a step back. He stopped mid-step a look of hurt and understanding crossed his face before he took a step back.

"Emmett told Rose and I what happened." he said.

"So what! You come here to force food down my throat! To pretend that you care about me!" I snapped, glaring at him the best I could.

"I care about you Bella! I care about you so much!" he shouted back. I let out a humourlessly laugh.

"I'm done with your lies Jasper. You words mean nothing to me anymore." I said, crossing my arms across my chest. I noticed then how boney my arms had gotten.

"Then listen to Rose and Emmett. Bella you haven't eaten in weeks! That's not healthy." he said angrily. I just rolled my eyes.

"I have been eating. So don't worry about it." I said looking away from him stubbornly.

"Please, we all have noticed the weight loss. How boney you've gotten. How whenever someone says you should eat something you snap at them. How you eye down food, and hold your breath so you don't have to smell it. Bella. We're all so worried about you." he said taking a step towards me.

"You all should just leave me the fuck alone!" I shouted, staring at him angrily.

"What! Are you all trying to say I'm anorexic, that I'm bulimic! I know my body better then anyone, and I know when I should and shouldn't eat! All of you need to just back the fuck up!"

"I'm not going to stand around and watch you kill yourself!" he shouted.

"Last time I checked you didn't give a fuck!"

"I care about you way more then you know Bella! What Alice told you was complete bull-shit. Yes, I told her some things about you, but I was completely wasted, I'm a hundred percent sure I told her about things about myself to. But I never laughed at you, and I never said I never cared!" he snapped. I didn't want to listen anymore. I tried walking past him, but he moved and was now blocking the door.

"Get out of my way!" I shouted, trying to push him away, but with all the weight I loss, I was probably just a feather trying to push a bowling ball.

"No Bella, you have to listen to me please! I'm sorry okay! You have to understand that I don't hate you I lov-"

"No!" I shouted.

"Don't please, just-" I said, but stopped when I felt my breath taken away from me.

I looked at Jasper, his face had gone deathly pale.

I tried taking in a huge gust of air, but I couldn't, my chest was to tight and it felt like someone was squeezing my lungs, preventing me from breathing.

"I can't-" I tried saying, but it hurt to much to say anything.

"Bella!" Jasper said, as I felt my body fall to the ground. I was clutching my chest, I was in pain. It hurt, my throat, my chest, my lungs, my body, everything hurt.

I saw Jasper hovering over me, saying my name over and over again.

Tears were falling down his face, as he opened his cell phone talking to someone on the other line.

He was crying hysterically now, trying to talk though his sobs.

"Please, she can't breath, my girlfriend can't breath!" he yelled into his phone. I could see teachers now hovering around me, talking to me, trying to get me to breath again, trying to help me breath.

Students were standing outside the door, teachers were holding them back, trying to get them to move back.

I could see Alice, her face was a pale as a ghost, as tears fell down her face. I could also see Rose sobbing into Emmett's chest looking away, as Emmett held her and was too sobbing.

I looked back up and noticed Jasper talking to me. His tears falling on my face.

I was crying too, but it came out in choking sounds, and a wave of more pain struck through my body.

Blackness was now swallowing me whole. I could hear the sobs of my other class mates, as they watched. Jasper was still hysterical.

"Bella! Bella stay with me!" he shouted.

I wanted to tell him I wanted to sleep. I was to tired and I thought sleep was what I needed for right now. But then I remembered I couldn't breath.

I could hardly see now, the blackness almost taking me whole. The only thing I could see was Jasper.

"Bella, please you have to live!" he sobbed.

"Jasper." I managed to say.

"You can't die Bella, I love you!" he shouted, just before the blackness took hold of all of me.