Before I die

by Pixiekissx

Bella Swan is dying from breast cancer. She falls in love with Doctor Cullen, but as Bella slowly slips away and the rules that dont allow doctors to be with patients separate them. Will it be too late for them both.

2. Chapter 2

That "probably nothing" turned out to be breast cancer.

I still feel like I'm drifting through a dream, like its not happening to me – because kinda stuff would never happen to me , this happens to older women who are sick.

I'm only 18 this is impossible, when i told my parents they seemed more concerned than me.

My mum burst into tears and my dad just hugged me, but for some reason i felt terribly guilty i never thought this was a big deal – i would get the treatment maybe lose a little hair , but that didnt bother me – then it would all be better.

I didnt fully understand what was happening so i liked to pretend nothing was happening at all.

I carried on as normal, i decided not to tell any of my friends because i didnt want them talking about me, "poor bella" was the statement i was dreading the most.

No-one should feel sorry for me.

I went to the hospital to start my chemo treatments - i never thought my hair falling out would bother me but it did – i hated the looks of sympathy people gave me – how they looked at my thin hair and un-healthy looks before they even noticed me!

I kept having to visit hospital more and more and ended up hating everyone there so much, i was so horrible to them – i was probs much worse than they deserved.

After all they were all just trying to help me.

I began to wonder if I even wanted help.

But it was on the 6th month of my cancer treatment that i found something i decided was worth living for.