Chapter 4: Battlefield
You know how all relationships have their moments? Well, for the past month now, the relationship that I am in with Randy has been having one of those moments. He's just under stress from fighting for the title…or so I thought. But now, well, I think it's a little bit more than that. I think that he's starting to get angry at me for things I don't, or didn't, do. And I can see the way he looks at me and Ted when we're having a Legacy segment. I really do think that he thinks Ted and I are seeing each other. Well, he's wrong. I would never betray his trust like that.
Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield
We're sitting in my locker room now and Randy is seething. "I can't believe you're going to go with him to his match tonight! How could you even think about that?"
I sigh, "I'm going with him to his match because he needs someone who wants to go out there. Yeh nor Cody ever go and do nice things for him. I'm his friend and since yeh both won't, I will."
"But I have a match tonight to and you won't be able to go to both his and my match." Randy snarls.
"Baby, I can go to as many matches as ya'll have tonight." I reply sweetly.
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now
He looks at me angrily and says, "I don't like you getting cocky with me."
I shake my head, "I'm not getting cocky with yeh. I'm telling the truth. It doesn't matter because I plan on going to the ring with yeh and with Cody too."
"You're not even friends with Ted!" Randy protests.
I sigh, "I am friends with Ted. Yeh just are being a baby about this Randy."
"I am NOT being a baby. You're just trying to change the subject!" Randy yells at me.
"How the hell am I trying to change the god damn subject?" I shout, my anger getting the best of me. I've had it with his tirades, I.E.D or not. "I am just trying to prove the fact that I can accompany yeh and my two best friends to their matches tonight! Yeh the one who swears up and down that I'm cheatin' on yeh with yeh best friend!"
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...
I never meant to start a war
He looks at me and shakes his head, "You don't get it! Ted told me what you said to him!"
Now I'm dumbfounded. I have never said anything even remotely close to innuendo to Ted. "I don't have the slightest idea what you are talking about!"
"Ted told me that after his match week before last that you hugged him in the hall and that he had made you so very happy!" Randy shouts. His eyes, once a gorgeous and beautiful blue gray color now hold a ruthless and demanding tone to them.
"So I got happy that he won a match! So what? I tell yeh how proud of yeh I am on a daily basis. The kid needs a little bit of a pick me up now and then. Look at how yeh and Cody treat him. He's just the odd man out. His dad didn't care like Bob or Dusty did. He didn't constantly tell his son how proud of him he was. Ted needs to hear that once in a while."
"Then why don't you tell Cody that your proud of him? I mean, the way it sounds you only tell me and Ted that. And in your mind, what's the one thing that Ted and I have in common?"
Suddenly I see what makes him so mad and why he thinks that I have a crush on his best friend. I try to boost Ted's ego and Randy's but never Cody's. I am in love with Randy so by process of due thought, he must think that I am in love with Ted as well. "Oh sweetie, it's not like yeh think it is."
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
"Then what is it Nolee?" Randy asks. For the first time since he started his feud with Triple H, I see something else in his eyes. It doesn't show up much but when it does, it's very clear. Randy is afraid.
I hug him and lay my head on his shoulder, "Like I said, Ted never had the same encouragement at home that yeh or Cody did. Of all people, I know what it's like to not get the encouragement yeh think yeh deserve. I try to let Ted know not only how proud of him that I am but how proud of him that everyone else is to."
Randy looks down at me, "Then why do I get the feeling that deep down in your heart somewhere, you really do love him?"
"Randy, I'm not going to lie to yeh. I do love Ted. But it's not the same kind of love that I have for yeh. It's like when a girl meets a boy and she knows that they were destined to be best friends forever. It's like he's my little brother."
"Really?"
I nod, "Yeah. And besides, if yeh haven't figured out by now that Ted is never going to be in love with me then yeh need to get yeh eyes checked."
"Why wouldn't he love you?"
Why does love always feel like
Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
"Randy, Ted's gay and he's dating Cody." I giggle.
Randy looks at me dumbfounded, "Really? I didn't know that."
I nod and smile, "It's kinda hard not to see that. They always find a way to touch each other and they are pretty much the epitome of the classic tag team turned lovers."
Randy shrugs, "Oh well. But…you swear that you're not going to cheat on me with him?" I can see a smile come to his face and I instantly know that he's sort of happy again.
"I think that can be arranged," I tease. Softly he sits down with me on his lap, "So, yeh wanted me to stay away from the ring during yeh match right?"
Randy laughs, "Oh you know it. If you came to the ring, I don't know what I would do."
Then, we're both gonna lose we have, oh, no
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...
Though he's joking, a part of me is still hurt. He shouldn't have assumed that Ted and I were having an affair without asking me first. I mean, I know that I don't have a track record with men but that still doesn't give him any right to say things like that. I love him and I would never do anything to hurt him, ever. Slowly I decide to ask, "Randy…why are yeh always so quick to judge?"
He sighs and I can tell that there is something that he hasn't been telling me since day one. "Nolee….I don't have much luck with girls. They tend to find me violent, crude, and vindictive. It's just that in previous relationships every time I get a feeling about a girl and I don't act on it, the feeling tends to be right and I lose the one I love and care about. I don't want to lose you. I don't know what I would do if I lost you."
Suddenly I feel a little worse, "Honey…what exactly have yeh been through in yeh life? I mean, we never talk about our other relationships."
Randy sighs, "I'd rather not talk about it but…before when I had girls I got treated like I was just this piece of eye candy to be treated as they saw fit. Sure on television I have always been the strong and courageous young man but I'm not that way off of it, as you well know. I never really did anything that the girl didn't want."
"So yeh were whipped?"
Randy nods, "And then some."
I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
"And yeh think that just because some of those other girls treated yeh like shit, I'm going to treat yeh like shit?"
"Sweetie I just…you…"
"Randy when I ask yeh this I want yeh to be brutally honest…do yeh think that I'm gonna hurt yeh like I hurt Nicky and Kurt?" When he doesn't answer I feel my heart break a little. "I see….well…I just gotta go…" I run crying out of the room.
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your
I soon find myself outside of the arena, crying with my face in my hands. I can't believe he would think that. I have never done anything to make him think that I would hurt him. I have never tried to cheat on him or hurt him so why would he think I would. I just sit there and cry to myself, knowing that no one is going to be able to trust me if Randy can't.
We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright
'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor...
I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
Why does love always feel like (oh, oh)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for...