Chapter 6- Forgiven

Forgive me now cause I have been unfaithful

Don't ask me why cause I don't know

So many times I've tried but was unabe

This heart belongs to you alone

I have never had any hope with relationships. First I was with Nicky from the Spirit Squad. That ended with me not wanting to be his play thing anymore. Then I married Kurt Angle. That ended when I told him that if he went to TNA I'd leave him. He threw my ring at me and left. Then I was with Randy. Randy was the best relationship that I had ever been in. He was sweet to me, loving to me. Then we had troubles with his I.E.D. I thought he was a monster after that but he had never done anything to purposefully hurt me. That relationship ended when I fell in love with Cody. We were engaged and then my dumb ass had to mess around with Ted, who just ended up messing around behind my back. In the long, I was used. That's why I've turned into what I am now. Instead of my beautiful ring gear, I'm reduced to wearing sweat pants and rock band t-shirts. In other words, I'm no longer the woman I was. But hopefully tonight, the night after a Wrestlemania where I was passed up for a match in favor of Snookie, that will change. I have someone I have to talk to.

Now I'm in our secret place

Alone in your embrace

Where all my wrongs have been erased

You have forgiven

I'm walking through the hallways, looking at the superstars who are looking at me like I have the black plague. Finally I find the room I'm looking for, the name plaque on the door reading Randy Orton. I sigh. He probably doesn't want to see me. I've heard that he's actually been in a happy relationship with someone. But for some reason, I think everything might be okay if I talk to him. I knock on the door and stand there, clasping my hands behind my back. When he finally opens the door my breath hitches. He doesn't look any different than he ever did. His brown hair has the appearance of recently being shaved, his cold eyes peering right inside my soul as he looks at me. His broad chest is covered by one of his brown Apex predator shirts, clinging to his abs, and he's wearing black jeans. "Nolee..." he breaths, looking down at me.

"Randy..." I smile, "can...can I talk to you?"

His face lights up and he moves so I can walk into his room. "Please, be my guest."

I walk in and sit on one of the metalic folding chairs in his room. "Thanks..."

He smiles softly and polietly, "What...what do you need?"

All the promises and lies

All the times I compromise

All the times you were denied

You have forgiven

"Randy...I came to apologize..."

He sits down across from me after bringing me a Diet Mt. Dew, my favorite soda, and himself a regular Mt. Dew. "Apologize? For what Nols?"

"When...when I broke up with you." I reply. There's a very uncomfortable silence and I look up, "I shouldn't have done it like I did and I should have stayed around to talk it out. Instead I just went away and got together with Cody. I lied to you about him and Ted being together, they were both in on that lie..."

For a moment he looks like he's going to attack me then he sinks down in his chair, "I...I remember. I remember walking in on you two...making love."

I close my eyes and then sigh, "Yeah...I remember that to. Well...I cheated on him, with Ted. I know it was a low move of me but I got my divine comeuppance when Ted cheated on me with Maryse." There are tears in my eyes and I look at my feet. "I made a mistake...lots of them..."

"Damn right you did," Randy replies, "But...I forgive you. You thought you were in love, I was a different man than you had fallen in love with."

I look at him, "You mean it?"

He nods, taking a drink of his Mt. Dew, "I went through a bad phase there for a bit. Is that all that you wanted to say to me?"

I nod, "That's all I have to say."

"Then can I give you some advice?" his voice is dark and quiet and I hear tones of both a bit of anger and a bit of softness.

Forgive me I'm ashamed I've loved another

I can't explain cause I don't know

No one can take your place and there is no other

Forever yours and yours alone

"Sure," I reply, sitting back in the chair.

"Stop moping around and don't let Ted's infidelity get to you." he replies, leaning forwards putting his hands on his knees. "I mean, just look at you. Your a shell of who you were! I hate hearing what the others say about you! I almost got in a fight earlier..." he notices what he's about to say and stops, getting up and going to his locker.

I follow him, "Why did you almost get in a fight earlier?"

He looks back at me over his shoulder before turning back to his locker, "Why do you care? We broke up remember?"

"Your ashamed of still having feelings for me?" I ask, putting my hand on his shoulder.

"You hurt me so much!" he shouts, turning back to look at me. "You hurt me so much and I still have the feeling that it's my fault! I spent time contemplating suicide because of you Nolee. I should detest you...but I don't. God help me I don't hate you. If you were gonna ask me to be with you again, I'd go right back to you like a moth to the flame! I almost fought with C.M Punk because he insulted you."

I smile at him, seeing the tears falling down his face. "It's...it's not a crazy notion that we could be together again."

"Why so you can break my heart and toss me aside yet another time?" he sneers.

Now I'm in our secret pace

Alone in your embrace

Where all my wrongs have been erased

You have forgiven

"No...Randy...I was never as happy with anyone as I am with you." I smile, taking his hands in mine. "Please...give me another chance with you..."

Randy looks down at me, "You promise you won't hurt me? You won't lie to me, won't tell me that you're going to be with someone else."

I shake my head, "No, never. You always were the only man for me...I just don't see why I was so blind to it..."

Randy smiles, "And my problem with the New Nexus?"

"I'll fight at your side no matter what," I smile kissing him gently.

"And your current getup?"

"I'll change it for you, be your little viperess," I laugh.

"How about a boa constrictor? Beautiful to look at but you can crush anyone in your way," Randy smiles, laughing as he dabs at the tears that were in his eyes.

All the promises and lies

All the times I compromise

All the times you were denied

You have forgiven

I laugh, "A boa constrictor it is then babe. Now...um...do you want to take this slow?"

He nods, "I have to make sure that we don't rush it. That was part of the problem last time I think-"

"More of a problem than the fact that I was married to Kurt Angle when we started this thing?" I ask, laughing internally.

"No. That was the other thing. I was young, so were you. We shouldn't have started it when we did..." Randy replies.

I nod, "So...um...your single now?"

"If I wasn't I wouldn't have thought about this," Randy reiterates, sitting back down. I sit on his lap and rest my head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. "Hear that?"

"Hear what?"

"The sound of my heart finally healing."

I get down on my knees

Feel your love wash over me

There will never be another

You're the only one forever

I look at him, "I hear it alright."

He smiles and kisses my hair, "It beats only for you little one. Only for you." He holds me and I close my eyes. I missed this. I missed him holding me as if I was the only one in the world who mattered, as if I could do no wrong. You know what? I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. But Randy? He might be the only good thing I've ever had.

nd you know I'm yours alone

I'm in our secret place

Alone in your embrace

Where all my wrongs have been erased

You have forgiven

All the promises and lies

All the times I compromise

All the times you were denied

You have forgiven

You have forgiven

Forgiven

Forgiven

Forgiven

A/N: It has been forever since I updated on this story! I recently reconnected with how much I love Randy and thought I needed to finish up this story for Nolee and Randy.