General Point of View-

After Adam fell back asleep, he wanted nothing more than to remember something else. It was like getting a present. He was unwrapping something for the first time. Adam tried his hardest to fall back asleep, but it was a lot harder than he had thought. He was so anticipated, he couldn't fall back asleep. He tried to trick himself a few times, but it was no use. He looked over at Fiona who was still sound asleep. He sat up, and moved to the end of his bed. He was looking around his room, when something caught his eye.

A journal.

He stood up, and walked over to the journal. It was under a stack of papers on his desk, almost hidden. He blew off some of the dust, and opened it.

He didn't read it at first, but just skimmed the pages. For some reason, he thought it would be kinda like invasion of privacy... Reading other peoples things. But then he slowly realized that the journal was his.

He walked over to the floor, and took a seat by his dresser. He looked back up at Fiona to make sure she wasn't awake, and flipped back to the first page.

Day 1-

Hi. It's Adam. Well, I mean, I know It's Adam. It's my journal. I don't know why I wrote that. This is kinda weird. Writing things down. I have it all up in my head, so I don't know why I would need to write it down. But my mom says it would be good to do. It was either this, or counseling. I chose this. Well, this is my first day writing in a journal. I guess I will be writing what goes on day to day, and what I think about it all. I have nothing to say right now though. So I guess it was almost pointless to write this. So. I guess I'm just going to stop writing now. Yeah. Bye Journal. Okay seriously? I just said bye to you. You aren't even a you. Your a journal. And yet I;m still talking to you. Wow. Alright. I'm out.

Adam laughed at this entry. He went to the next page, and saw more writing.

Day 2-

Well. Today is my first day at Degrassi High. This should be interesting. I'm not going to take this journal to school. I don't want to risk anyone thinking I'm a weirdo. What am I saying. Everyone is most likely going to think I'm a weirdo. I mean honestly, if I didn't know me, I'd think I was weird. I'm not going to tell anyone about my "situation". Not ever. If I tell someone, It might get out. Then I'll be know as the "Girl-who-thinks-she-a-guy." But they don't understand. So many people. They don't understand what it feels like in my body. They think I'm weird from what they see. But they don't know how it feels. No one does. And people always think I'm a freak for doing what I fell is right. For doing what I know is right. But I can't explain how it feels. If I could explain it, I would. If everyone would just accept what I feel, it would make everything better. Why can't it be better?

Adam didn't like this entry. But it made sense. He hasn't seen anyone other than his family and
Fiona since he got out, so he wasn't sure if he even had friends. He didn't know if anyone knew about his condition, or if he was a freak. He was glad the doctor said not to go to school until he started remembering things, or else he would die the first day. Literally.

Adam flipped several blank pages, until he found one without a day number.

Today was different. I wasn't bothered by Bianca or Fitz. But something else happened. I met a girl. I told myself I wouldn't get involved with anybody I didn't need to, but this was different. After everything that happened with Bianca, i'm not sure I could handle another breaking. But this girl... It wasn't the first time I met her. I met her a few days ago, but today something hit me. She told me she wanted nothing sexual. That would be perfect for me, right? Someone wanting nothing to do with what I can't even do? It would be perfect. Of course, it's a leap. This girl isn't exactly normal. She's special. And she's a senior. But if I'm right, she likes me. Well, maybe not likes, but she doesn't not hate me. So that's good, right? Well. I'm not sure what to do. Then there's always Drew getting in the way. He likes her too. And he's doing everything he can to get her to like him back. Dick. Sometimes, I swear, we aren't even related. Well, I gotta go journal. There I go again, talking to paper.

Adam flipped a few more pages. He saw one labeled Fiona.

Fiona-

We've been friends fore a while, but who knew it would get to this? Out of everybody in the school, we ended up together? I am so happy. I don't need anything as long as I have you. I honestly couldn't ask for anything more. You give me confidence, which is pretty hard to do. You saved me, when I gave up on myself, when I gave up on everyone else, when I hated school, when I hated relationships, you saved me. And I thank you for that. I know, you probably get sick about hearing about all my problems, but it means so much to me that you listen. No one at school sees through my fake smile, but you saved the boy underneath that smile. You probably don't believe that, but it's true. I know I can tell you anything and I can trust you. And I don't trust people easily. I am a very "to myself" person if you didn't already know. I don't share things with just anyone. And I certainly don't let people into my life quickly. You broke all of those walls down, in a good way. You came into my life so quickly. And I'm so happy you did. I needed that. You make me so happy. Every time you laugh, it makes me smile. Every time you hold my hand, I melt inside. Every time you hug me, I never want to let go. Sure, it's corny, but it's true. Whenever I see you, my day gets a little bit better. As long as I'm with you, I'm happy. I could sit in an empty room with you and be the happiest man on earth. I can play ping pong with you, or play video games with you, and I will always be happy! I've told you things I never thought I would tell anyone. You say you're the luckiest girl in the world for having me, but in reality, I'm so much luckier. You are honestly the only reason I get up to go to school everyday. It would be horrible without you. I wouldn't be able to get through anything without you. You make my world, Fiona. Thank you for all you have done for me. I'm so lucky to have you.

Adam read this twice through. He really must have loved Fiona. And it killed him inside to not be able to feel how he used to. He would give anything to feel what he used to feel, just one.

He thought to himself. How can he get those feelings back? How can I remember how to love her again?

Adam was about to flip to he next page, when he heard movement. He looked up to see Fiona sit up.

"Hey," She said, rubbing her eyes. "What time is it?"

"It's about," Adam looked around his room, "6 in the morning. Give or take a few."

"What are you doing up?" She asked, sitting criss cross.

"Oh, well, I've been up for a while." Adam said, standing up, and making his way back over to his bed. He climbed up the bed to his side, and rested against the backboard.

"You fell asleep on me." Fiona said, playfully punching his shoulder.

He looked up and gave her an apologetic grin.

"I'm sorry," He said, scratching the back of his head. "But I remembered something!"

Fiona immediately perked up and widened her eyes. "What! What did you remember?"

"Well, according to Drew, the first time we met." Adam looked up at her eyes as she softly smiled.

"Really?" She asked. Adam gave her a nod, before leaning towards her.

He closed his eyes, and kissed her. He didn't know why. He was hoping he was doing it right, and he was hoping she wanted it. He was quickly answered when he felt her hand wrap round his neck. She practically pulled him all the way to her side of the bed. He let his arm slide up to behind her ear, and she held his face with her hands. She started to get more into it, by opening her mouth, and inserting her tongue into his mouth. He was shocked. He didn't remember what kissing felt like. But he was enjoying it very much.

"Maybe," He said, pulling away just a bit. "Maybe, we should slow down a little bit. Just till I'm sure I know what I'm doing."

Fiona nodded in agreement, before laying back down.

It got awkwardly quiet quick.

"I mean, it;s not that I don't want to. It's just, honestly, I have no idea what I'm doing." Adam said, breaking the silence.

She looked over at him and smiled.

"I'm willing to wait. However long it's going to take. I'm here, with you, through all of it. Nothing will change how I feel about you. Ever. I love you, Adam. And however long it takes you to remember that, I'm here." Fiona said, facing him.

"Thank you." Adam said, smiling into his pillow.

"So". Adam said, resting on his hand. "How long have you snored?"

"What!" Fiona said, perking her head up. "I do not snore!"

"Yes. Yes you do. Like rapid fire." Adam said, beginning to laugh.

"I do not snore!" Fiona said, starting to laugh as well.

"I'm pretty sure you do." Adam said.

Fiona turned around to where her back was facing him. "Do not." She said, holding back her smile.

"Do too." Adam said, putting his head back down, smiling, while closing his eyes.