Chapter 13
Tori's POV
My life had turned into a monotonous routine.
I woke up, texted Ryder, got ready, went to school, made out with Ryder and tried to bear the day ahead without bashing my head against the wall until I either passed out or bled, whichever came first.
The past two weeks, I spent them secluding myself from human beings, I tried to avoid as much contact as I could because 1) I wasn't in the mood for socializing and 2) questions would arise, but the latter happened either way.·
People started wondering why i'd been quite during class when I normally wanted to answer everything I knew - which was most of the stuff in class; why i'd stopped talking during lunch; why I stopped going to parties when I haven't missed any, ever since I got together with Ryder and most importantly, why i'd stopped talking to Beck.·
Though I wanted to deny it, even hide it from myself, i couldn't.· i missed him and it hurt that he was the one who'd said that he didn't want to be friends anymore. It hurt seeing him all ho-unbothered by the situation, i mean sure, he was fighting with Jade more than ever and you didn't see them making out in the hallways or parking lot as they normally did but it felt he didn't even worry about glancing my way.
"Babe, what's the matter?· " Ryder asked, petting my arm, a worried look on his face.·
"Huh?· " My head was in the clouds, it has been for days.· "oh.· i'm fine, just tired" I faked a yawn.·
He sighed.· "you're always tired nowadays"
"School has me really stressed" I lied.·
"I imagine, you have to let loose babe, forget about school for a while.·.·.· like today" he wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.· "my house, what do you say?· "
"I need to study for an exam" I lied again.· i've become quite the liar this past days.·
Ryder rolled his eyes.· "okay"
"Come on now, don't get mad" I placed my hand on his chicks and caressed his face, trying to comfort him.·
"How wouldn't I if every single day, you're either tired or too busy with schoolwork" he said the last sentence in a high-pitched voice.· I looked down feeling extremely guilty.· "I have needs"
"I-i'm sorry" I whispered, feeling defeated.·
"No, I am sorry" he walked away.·
I knew he was furious and it was understandable, I had been blowing him off for a long time and I guess he started feeling insecure or devastated, maybe even forgotten.·
Hot tears were rushing down my tan cheeks, I didn't want anyone to see me like this,, vulnerable so I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall where I let everything out, the tears I've holding for these two week came out, I cried for my situation with Beck, Ryder and my indecisiveness.·
When I got everything out, Lunch had come to an end but I didn't about getting late to class or missing it, I wanted to avoid anyone, I didn't want them to see me in that state.·
I got out of the stall and looked at my reflection, I was a wreck, my eyes were puffy, I had dried tears in my cheeks and my hair was all messed up from running my hands through it.·
I washed my face and thanked everything sacred for inventing water proof mascara.· Then ran my finger through to untangle my brown locks.·
When I felt presentable enough, I got out of the bathroom with my head low in case someone was roaming through the hallways.· I didn't care that I'd miss the last half of school, I needed to get out of there or I would explode.·
I went to my locker to pick up my things; my bag, keys and homework — couldn't fall behind in the other classes.·
I walked hastily through the hall trying to get out of Hollywood Arts as fast as I could but like always faith liked to mess with her and just when she was about to reach the doors, she walked into someone.·
I looked up to apologize to the wall I just crashed but their eyes met and was at a lost of words.·
"B-Beck" I stuttered like an idiot and after these weeks of him ignoring me, the slick bastard just smirked and said:
"Hey Tori"
A/N: sorry for the length but I felt that it needed to end here but the next chapter will come soon. Xx