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backwards and forwards. Backwards and forwards. That's it Si focus on the rocking. Not on. Yesterday.

Daring Doo' s books distracted me for about two minutes. Two pages, before the taint started seeping into my mind. It wasn't real. It wasn't real. But all those other memories were real.

"Si?" I look up. I see a rainbow coloured speck in the distance. Since when was my room so big. She's to far away to talk to. So I settle back into rocking. Backwards and forwards.

"Si. I know it's worse here than in the cities. Ok? But you need to snap out of it. You weren't even caught." Suddenly she's really close. Too close, she can't be this close she was this close. I back away. I feel a wall. It was happening again I look around frantically. Where is the exit? All I see are walls.

I feel a pressure as she wrestles me onto the bed. "Si stop!" I stop. Reality returning. I'm in my room. I relax and she lets go of me. "Is this about me?" She asks quietly. I shake my head. Words out of my reach. She scowls "you don't have to lie. I'm so sorry about your wing."

"I'm telling you. It isn't what you did." I manage. "Then who?" I can't speak, not yet. It's to terrible. RD appears to be in thought. "Was it pinkie? She scares me to."

"Partly" she nods and doesn't press. Anyway I got a letter telling you to go to town hall." I nod. I needed a distraction. I stand shakily my legs feeling like liquid. I step towards the edge of the cloudhouse. Testing my wing on the way. It seemed functional.

I flew off heading towards ponyville. I stuck to the alleyways and dark places. Nopony would remember me from yesterday it was too confusing. As I made my way to town hall. Having to take multiple detours to avoid main roads. I glimpsed the Colts. All would look over their shoulders. And most would shuffle along. Wincing every now and then. I used to laugh at these Colts. Now I felt their pain. I reach town hall and have to make a dash inside. With the help of my wings I easily get to the door before Anypony spots Me. Upon entering I see a platoon of nervous guards stood there and the mayor above on a balcony. She looks down on me saying. "Silent Night. I am here to judge your fighting ability. Should you prove skilled enough, we will call upon you in times of need." I scoff. If I wasn't fighting off timberwolves. Those would be a lot more frequent. I'll still do my job. After all, they've gotten lazy ever since I got here.

The guards start towards me. Training swords in magical auras. And guard ponies stepping forwards. I smirk. This would be fun. I survey my opponents. Non of them are pegasi. Perfect. I realise then that the swords could still move freely of their owners. Meaning if I fought the earth ponies they'd just hit me when my guard was low. I realised then how effective this formation was. Swooping backwards I buy myself some final planning time to look for weaknesses. I see that the earth ponies leave gaps so the unicorns can see. Not wasting any more time. I dive at the earth ponies. They're disciplined to block escape. I was counting on it. As they closed ranks I charged towards the largest pony. Taken aback by my direct approach he wastes time. Meaning I can get close enough to vault over him. Sommersaulting over him Just for the hell of it. What the hell has RD done to me?

I land and continue towards the now clear unicorns, who are looking terrified. I'm guessing they aren't disciplined in hoof to hoof. I grab one of their necks and spin over his back. Dragging him over, I strike his jugular for good measure. I land in front of the unconscious figure and move from unicorn to unicorn. I see the earth ponies rushing to their aid. It doesn't matter now. They've Broken ranks. I gather the unicorns in one location. As the earth ponies bear down on us I drop low to the ground. In the mayhem all they can do is whack their comrades. Because one pony hits another that pony still thinks I'm around. Avoiding a stamping hoof I exit the moshpit. I fly up to the startled mayor. I smile. "Am I worthy enough?" She nods. Dumbfounded. As I near the exit I whistle. All the ponies look round. Finally realising I'm not there. I grin and wave, some of them look livid. It's hilarious. I soar into the sky. The pegasi had scheduled cloud for the afternoon. So once above the clouds all I had to do was watch for pegasi. I feel particularly acrobatic.

Soaring lazily between the clouds. Relaxed and at ease. I perform a fish tail. Flying quickly upwards I position myself sideways and fold my wings. As I start to fall I wriggle around like a fish. It's more a comedic move then anything.

I hear chuckling behind me. I turn to see a mare with a bright orange mane I'm about to run from this particular pony. But why? I know she isn't a threat. "That's an... exotic move you got there." I cross my forlegs " if you think that's a serious move. Your delusional." She chuckles again at that. "Yeah good point. Just out of curiosity. Do you know who I am?" I guess she doesn't remember me. Then again I was the silent type. "I do know you spitfire. And you know me." She looks at me curiously. Does she really not remember? "Silent?" She looks shocked hallelujah! She does remember. I grin, she smiles. "Man, flight school was a while back. How have you been? You just disappeared one day." I remember spitfire. She was the one who stood up for me in school. I was pretty small for my age back then.

"Yeah. I disappeared. I left Cloudsdale, Fed up of parents. I went my own way." She tries to look sad. "Don't even bother. They wanted me to become an office pony!" She laughs.

"Shouldn't you be somewhere? You know VIP and all?" She just grins. "The media makes it sound like we work and train all day. I get breaks. Just decided I'd take a flight down the unicorn range. Anyway. What do you have moves-wise?" I grin ready to try something. "I don't know if this will work. But you'll call the medical ponies if I end up a Bloch on the ground."

She looks curious "since when did you become a daredevil?" I grin wildly "since I got a Pegasus named Rainbow Dash as a room mate." Spitfire seems to recognise the name. Before she can speak I'm streaking off towards the sky.

My idea was to take the sonic boom. And turn it into something more skill related rather than just flying as fast as you can. I reach my altitude limit. Here you can see the moon, hidden below the horizon. I sometimes fly up here to contemplate. Tearing my thoughts away from the spectacle I dive.

The cone forms. From watching RD I extend both hooves and prepare to break the sound barrier. I see the cloud layer rising up to meet me. Now.

I break the barrier. Before I speed up though I'm rebounded upwards. I slow down enough for the cone to reform and rebound again. I eventually get the hang of my new trick and can bounce fast enough to form a layer of colour around me. I note with amusement it sounds like cannon fire "BOOM,BOOM,BOOM"I stop before I ware myself out.

As I come to a halt spitfire puts her hooves together. I forgot she was there. "So you mastered the sonic rainboom... Well I guess you could call it something different. Anyway you put your own twist on It. That was an impressive display of strength and speed. We could use a creative and skilful Pegasus I could-"

"I'm not interested." My tone warning. Obviously missing the hint she presses me. "Oh come on I know you'd love-" I cut her off slowly getting closer. "Being a showpony isn't my thing. I'm the silent type. Sorry spitfire but I'm not being recruited." I 'forget' to mention the last time I tried to perform.

I remember the feeling of my wings locking together. She looks annoyed. "It was nice seeing you again. Maybe we could catch up some time?" I smile "that would be great."

Seeing her fly away fills me with old memories. They're not the nicest of things but up until a few weeks ago I didn't know what I was missing. Now I can fully enjoy life and all the opportunities that go with it.

I fly back to rainbow dash's cloudhouse feeling somewhat happier than I was a few hours ago. Then again there was still a nagging horror that reminded me of the nightmares. Well... nagging's an understatement.

As I enter the living room she looks over to me nervously. ,"Well? How did it go?" I smiled. I felt I could be confident around her. I'm not usually this outgoing In large crowds. I never bothered arguing with the ponies of other towns. You can't convince a pony to change their core beliefs. I tried a few times. Didn't go well.

"It took me two minutes to prove my point." She grinned. It was a great grin. Why was I thinking that? "Then again I don't know if she'll let me stay."

"You feeling better now?" I sigh. I'm not better. It was to horrible.

"No... Not yet. I just need some rest and to avoid-"

"Hi Si! Wow that rhymes!" I'm already sprinting into my room at this point. Not her. All I can think about was that song... I hated it already for bucks sake!

I slid down the door. Coming to rest at the bottom. I can't talk to her. Not yet.

"Where are you going silly?" I nearly faint from terror. She's suddenly there. Bouncing up and down. I'm frozen against the door as she comes closer. "I was just here to sing my heat season apology. I do one every year!" To my horror she drew breath. Before those accursed lips could form words I was out the door and back into the living room. RD was killing herself laughing. She was so dead after this!

I dived under the table "you can't get away from her." Rainbow Dash wheeses.

"What are you hiding from?" She's right... Next to me. I get out from under the table and trot shakily over to a chair. "Pinkie... Just leave me alone..." I say solemnly. She looks saddened by this "oh Si. You don't mean that. Your not denying me your friendship." She looked really sad. But I couldn't face her today. Maybe never. She'd have to earn it back. "Pinkie. You'll have to earn my friendship again. Not today though. I'm sorry but I can't forget yesterday." She nods slowly. She bounces slowly to the door. I overhear. "This is all your fault..." before She leaps off the edge.

I run to the side of the cloudhouse. To see pinkie walking Back to Ponyville below. I sigh, I guess she's going to be in a bad mood for a while. But I just couldn't forget that paralyzing glare. So full of malice.

I turn to see rainbow dash glaring at me " why couldn't you forgive her! She's our friend and you hurt her!" I sigh. "Rainbow Dash, she wasn't the pinkie I know that day. And you weren't the one on the receiving end of that." She still looks defiantly "I understand it must've been traumatic but you weren't even caught and all those ponies forgave her. Your just being selfish." I turned away. I knew it was the truth. But I couldn't just forgive somepony. Not for a thing like that.

I slowly walk up the stairs with her shouting "if you don't fix this soon you'll be finding a different place to live!" I sigh again. Living alone was so much simpler. And not everypony knows I live here yet! I just settle down to sleep.

The dreams I have are relaxing and pleasant. I feel that another pony is seeking forgiveness. I hope if I ever meet the princess of the night, I can remember all she's done for me. Over what happened that fateful day.

Rising slowly I stepped out of my room. Entering the kitchen I saw RD Sat there. Waiting. She looked determined on something. "Ok Si. I want you to try and forgive pinkie pie." I nod slowly. Not in affirmation, just in acceptance that I'd be on my own again. The thought really saddened me. I thought I had a chance if I had friends to back me up when I revealed myself.

I turned away from her. I wasn't going to argue. It was done. I would forgive pinkie in my own time. No pony is going to change that. I hope she forgives me. Unless I never forgive pinkie. "Si, wait!" Rainbow Dash called. I kept my head away so she wouldn't see the tears on my face. Why couldn't anything go right for me? Why couldn't I just live a happy life? I rose quickly above the darkening clouds, shadowed by the descending Sun. I hid in the clouds and saw rainbow dash stand at the edge of the house, looking around. She didn't want to loose a friend. I turned away from her and pondered my next step. I needed somepony who'd understand my need for silence and respect my privacy. Fluttershy.

Landing in front of her cottage I saw her tending to the night animals before they moved on to hunt. I could feel the emotional discussion between her and them. She really is amazing at her level of patience. I waited for the owl she was helping to fly off. Sensing my presence she stiffened. I waited, un-moving. She relaxed a little when she saw it was me. At least she got over her initial fears. "Do... Do you need something silent?" She whispered. I barely heard her. I followed her lead and whispered back "I had a fall out with Rainbow Dash. Can I crash at your place for a bit. I'd go on my own but I need the company." She spoke more confidently then "oh, I can understand that. She can be brash. I have a room and I think that would be fine. You sleep in the day anyway don't you?" I never believed I'd hear her speak this much. Perhaps she was more talkative than I thought. "Yes that's right." I must've spoken a bit too loudly because she made a noise and retreated into her mane. I smiled. She was sweet. Judging the time I guessed I should go and see Scootaloo. "Well, I'll see you later then fluttershy. Thank you for having me." I flew towards ponyville. The deep sense of loss weighing me down.

"I reach the schoolhouse to find Scootaloo, cornered against the side of the building. I was having bad day already. Now I was livid, one thing I can't tolerate is bullying. It's low and cowardly. And I did promise scoot I'd help her out. Drawing closer the things the bullies said made it difficult for me to not just charge at them. But any good hunter knows to wait for the right moment. If I went now they'd scatter and I'd have to hunt them separately.

"What are you doing here now? You shouldn't be here blank flank. Go back to your lousy parents. Where are they anyway? We never get to see them."

The two ponies are standing over scoot who's shaking with anger. Helpless. If they lay a single hoof on her I will make them regret being born. I was finally close enough to break cover. I slid into the open. It's always best to come from the shadows. You know how close you can get and any closers a bonus. They're so emmersed that I stand behind them and tap them both on the shoulder. They spin round and I glare at them as hard as I can. Conveying my hate into a beam of anger. Now they're the ones to cower. "Dont ever. Bully anypony again." Silver spoon is nodding fearfully. But I don't like the calculated nod diamond Tiara gives me. It shows thoughts of revenge and deceit. She is a nasty piece of work. I slowly motion for them to move. I was so close to pinning them against the wall of the schoolhouse and screaming at them until they cried. Restraint, Si. Restraint.

I turned to Scootaloo who's wings were buzzing happily. "Thanks Si!" I smile. "It's ok, are you hurt?" She shakes her head, a shadow of sorrow passing her face. Words last longer than any physical hurt. Sticks and stones my flank. She may have been affected.

"So you wanna learn more of the techniques? Show me how your low profile is doing." She crouches low. I immediately see a few floors and correct them. "The important thing is to not develop bad habits. Every time you practice try to assess yourself and whether your doing it right. Old habits die hard, it's best if they're good nods.

"Anyway,I wanted to teach you self awareness. It's important in ensuring the whole of your body is hidden." I stood in the shadow of the tree. Adjusting perfectly to ensure the whole of my body was in the darkest parts of it. I knew it wasn't a dark enough shadow to completely hide in. But enough so she couldn't make out my facial features. "Remember that not all shadow is going to fit you. This is where a low profile helps and self awareness. You have to know what's hidden and what isn't."

She practices that for about an hour. I play hide and seek with me being the seeker. It's good practice, spitfire would try and find me sometimes. Rarely succeeding. I must admit once she's learnt the techniques. The only thing stopping her is practice. It might not be her talent,but if she worked hard enough she wouldn't be half bad.

"Great! If you combine the two techniques together then you could really master this. Of course this is simplified but the higher techniques are more from imagination and adaption." She smiles at my praise. I love the feeling of worth I get from these rare encounters. Like when decent ponies actually thank me. Of course it's mostly just speaking to the air as they don't see me. But I appreciate how my work helps other ponies.

"Well, I'll see you tomorrow scoot" she nods before grabbing her scooter and powering off into town. I head back towards fluttershy's cottage. The shadows darkening my mood. I was pondering my predicament, was I overreacting when a rainbow vapour trail passed over head, no. She should understand why I can't forgive pinkie.

I continue on grimly to fluttershy's cottage my stubbornness taking hold.

I enter the cottage, the door was ajar I note that fluttershy's up already. It's crack of dawn! I guess it's part of her animal caring routine.

Entering the kitchen she smiles in a small and timid way. "Morning si. I didn't know if you eat dinner now or breakfast." I smirk I'd never thought of how other ponies eating routines are reliant on their sleeping one's and how this could confuse other ponies. "It's ok fluttershy, I eat wild mostly but I eat what every other pony eats." She just smiles in that small way and hands me a plate of haybacon and eggs. I hadn't had eggs in a long time. And these were simply divine! "Thank you fluttershy, and sorry to burden."

"Oh, your no burden Si, but I want to know why your here anyway. You mentioned rainbow dash?" I told her awkwardly about vague events of heat season. Detail would've been weird. And scarring. I missed the nightmare for obvious reasons. "So then the the next day she tries to make me make up with pinkie. I said I wasn't so she says either you forgive or you leave. So I left."

She looks at me with from what I can see is a mixture of exasperation and neutrality. "Si, are you sure you can't forgive pinkie? I mean sure it was horrible but it's natural and you probably really hurt her feelings." I shake my head defiantly. "It shouldn't be natural and its no excuse anyway! You mares get it easy."

She glares then. I feel if I wasn't glaring back I'd be cowering in a corner. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that. But I'm not making up like it wasn't a big deal. Even if you can't control yourself."

She stops glaring and sighs. "Ok. But don't give up on her ok? She's a good friend, and I can tell you and RD would make-" she stops suddenly colour filling her cheeks. What is going on? I narrow my eyes .

"Me and RD what?" She turns away, her mane hiding her face. "Just... Just that you'd make really good best friends." She giggles nervously. It's unnatural. I might be inept when it comes to socializing but I'm not an idiot. I can tell that's not what she was going to say. I decide to drop it. Probably nothing. "Well, I guess I'm going to bed. Thank you again for having me fluttershy."

I head upstairs, into a small room with a bed in the middle.

I toss and turn. Beds are painful compared to clouds. I'll get used to it I'm sure. But something is troubling me. I realize that Its to quiet. No loud, brash Pegasus around. I guess we have a good friendship. I realise I miss her. She's changed me, I had no problem with silence. Now I long for noise. Her noise. What is wrong with me?

I wake. Tired. I'm soooo tired. Where the hell is Si? I looked everywhere. I even endured a twilight lecture to ask if she'd seen him!

I note sadly that what would I say if I saw him anyway? He should just move on! He's so stubborn. He will forgive pinkie. I'll make him forgive her, he's just being sensitive.

Why do I care so much?

Because you miss him... a small voice says. It's true. His presence was nice and he was so... I don't know. But even sitting here on my own now just feels wrong. He should be coming down those stairs, his eyes; daring and wild I shiver. I really want my roommate back! But he's going to forgive pinkie and that's final!

ok guys! Sorry if this chapter

Was just tying up loose ends. But I felt if I'm going to write a HS chapter

It shouldn't be a one off. Especially how mine ended. Anypony who went through that and ISN'T bucked up is just. Bucked up!

And sorry for character swap at end. Yeah that was a terrible RD but I think you guys should have an insight of what she's thinking.

Anyway, thanks for the support everypony!

BROHOOF!