hi again fellow bronies and or pegasisters!
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sweet celestia I love to sleep... it's so nice not to be disturbed- "What the fuck Si! Perish the thought of having peace for 5 bucking minutes!
I glare out at Rainbow from under my cloud cover. Please go away. I've already got to deal with spitfires shit. She shoves a wonderbolts poster in my face. "It's not cool to steal someponies dreams!" She screamed. I waited for her to be in a state where she'd listen. If it's one thing I knew, ponies in a rage are about as cooperative as a timberwolf. And just as likely to try and rip your head off.
When she got to the stage of breathing like an angry mineator I decided she would listen.
" Ok RD, I'm going to explain to you the situation in a few points. One, this is a one off. Two, I was forced into this and three, I need more sleep... So goodday." I rolled over.
she yanked the covers off. If she wanted to Piss me off that did it. My temper from thismorning wasn't helping. "What!" She seemed intimidated but made the effort to try and look angry. "Well Si, I haven't known you long and you don't seem like a pony to be forced into anything. So forgive me for being real fucking sceptical!" Wow she was almost as pissed as me. But waking somepony up is NOT ok. Still had to deal with this part though despite my anger. How much more shit can the great pony in the sky put me through? Buck you to the depths of tarterus!
"Well... this is going to be hard for you to take." I gathered my courage and said " your whole career as a wonderbolt was reliant on me accepting this performance." I winced at her scepticism. I hate my social skills. Plus, This means I'd have to explain in detail.
One explanation later RD was looking a bit more serious and a lot more horrified. "They... used me against you?" I nodded bitterly. "And they thought then... that I'm expendable?" Oh shit, I'm no sociologist but even I can see the emotional mind fuck imminent.
"No Rainbow, your not expendable. They wouldn't have carried that out." I try to draw as much certainty as I could. But couldn't fully lie. To the higher ups in canterlot.
Everypony except themselves is expendable. And the wonderbolt managers are no different. And it's complete and utter horse shit.
"Besides Rainbow, even if they did you'd work your way back in. Who can deny the fastest flyer in equestria?" She grinned at that. But it looked forced. It would have to do for now. I had a routine to practice.
Me and Rainbow Dash flew over the unicorn range, clear of view (might as well act professionally about it) I rehearsed one of my favourite routines. In my time I'd made some discoveries ( I was pretty nerdy back in school) my favourite was the neutron cloud. Not a great thing on its own but had great potential. It started by causing a cyclone, by manipulating the moisture in the air with a light pull, you formed a cloud. With powerful wingbeats you could gather enough moisture to form dense cloud. Here was my discovery, after intense amounts of effort and wing power, you could force the cloud into such a dense state that it could hold a storm in a space the size of a golf ball ( hate golf, stupid sport for stuck up canterlot ponies with so much money they go and buy large metal sticks).
With this bright orb I planned to do some Arial manoeuvres. After the formation (which looked awesome apparently) the stadium would be darkened by the veil cloud. I would then do some unique formations, the use of vapour trails (the iconic red) combined with the orb (made to look like a star) would hopefully awe Someponies... hopefully.
After this I'd send the star flying into the veil cloud, another phenomena I'd discovered was that the neutron cloud caused clouds to snow (perhaps a build up of moisture suddenly released vaporized and condensed quickly enough to lower the overall temperature of the cloud... my inner nerd taking over for a second there...
Anyway, the neutron cloud gives a last flash before the snow falls, in the darkness it looks like, you guessed it, falling stars. I really do love the night. I'd performed this routine to spitfire once. When we'd been friends that is. Nothing too close, just a light hearted thing every now and then. Doesn't matter now. Not after thismorning.
Rainbow Dash seemed to enjoy it. I grinned at the wild look she always had. I envied her for such a free spirit, true I always had the odd prank. But I always had something to worry about. Speaking of which the large mass of pegasi breaching the horizon could be... angry mob of pegasi at six o'clock!
I grabbed RD off of the cloud she'd been perched on as they gave chase, RD after a shout of surprise realised why I'd done it and followed me off to her house. God I don't Want to deal with this now. Talk about testing patience! Didn't they have other places to be?
We continued up the unicorn range (nearly getting to bucking cloudsdale!) And we still hadn't shaken them. Fuck this shit. I turn towards the group, measuring distances. There should be enough room. It's sonic boom time! I dove straight at the group, the air cone quickly forming. RD had caught on and was doing the same thing next me. By the looks of it we'd hit the boom speed at the same time. They say Two is better than one, let's find out if it applies to this.
In the growing distance the pegasi mob is on a fast scatter. Serves them right. Pushing forwards the pressure builds around the both of us. Somehow RD manages to nod at me with a manic grin that, almost made me lose concentration.
Then the colours started forming, but instead of Behind the both of us, the colours melded in the middle, the red outline instead of cyan looked striking. I'd liked to have more time but the huge explosion of sound left my ears ringing, it really was more of a sonic explosion than a boom! I managed a glance and saw RD was laughing here she was happy it warmed the depths of my soul... I really wanted to see her like this more.
Of course it couldn't last forever. And after two minutes (a trip that took us thirty originally) we were at RD's cloudhouse, she was jumping around like a school filly.
"Ha! Did you see that? I bet the Windows in Cloudsdale broke!" I grinned in return the adrenaline slowly ebbing. Yeah, now I realize why we don't do this more often. I'm completely worn out.
RD and I slump onto her doorstep, panting. "But you look ridiculous when your mane shoots back, you looked bald!" oh we're doing this are we?
"Yeah but you still look like you shit rainbows!" I realise I'd never spoken to her at all then again I'm not the best at talking... she's probably the only one I feel comfortable around. Even with Twilight there's still the danger of being experimented on... and until the others come round it's just me and dash.
We continued to cross insults for a while but ended up dozing off. Clouds are definitely the best beds.
Well, this is the third time I've woken up with Rainbow Dash. Is this becoming a habit? I'm not complaining. That's an unsettling thought. What do I actually think of Rainbow Dash?
Before I can explore the subject she shifts cutely and balefully opens her eyes. With that cute little grin appearing on her face. "Wow Si, why do I keep waking up in your company are you trying to seduce me?" Wow the expression on her face is making this REALLY awkward I stutter like an idiot for about a minute before she loses her composure.
"Yeah, I know Si, I trust you..." we sat there as the sun slowly set. It was a nice sight, not as pretty as the stars in my opinion, they filled the entire sky with their beauty. It wasn't a competition though and I was content to sit through any spectacle like this. It wasn't lost on me.
RD settles back on my lap, making me feel more excited than embarrassed. I guess friendship has this effect. I'm no expert.
I was about to leave for Scootaloo before remembering she didn't want to see me again for a while. I worried about her. I worried too much. "Hey Si? Do you mind if I tag along a bit?" Great, more worry. I realized however that I only partly thought this. The rest of me really wanted to accept. My God I'm a show off.
"Sure, but if something happens let me deal with it." She huffed in protest. "I can fend for myself." I smiled reassuringly "of course you can, but can you get close enough to breath on somepony before they know your there?"
"That's an overstatement, your not that good." Why is she questioning when she knows I can do it? I guess I can humour her. "Alright then, what's your challenge?
She grinned widely, I guess she had this planned. "If you can get that close, it should be easy for you to kiss me before I know your there." That grin was kinda... distracting.
Wait, what? Did I hear correctly? D-did I seriously hear her ask me to... *sproing* wow this was embarrassing. But, I had no doubt in my answer. "Your on!" Well, it would have sounded more confident if I wasn't struggling with my wings at the time.
As she flew off towards town I waited. It seemed so surreal... I couldn't stop the excitement filling me. I knew there was something more! The game Is on!
I easily found her, standing in the park, waiting. How clever. Staying in a clearing where I can't approach from cover. But I've never Been this determined in my life. It might mean nothing but for once I'm going with my emotions. I grin. This was going to be sweet! Sneaking slowly towards her I look for floors in her technique. I instantly recognise her impatience. The fidgeting was obvious, might make her more susceptible to distraction. It sounds simple but a rock should do. I know my abilities, it'll take me approximately two seconds to cover the distance and the rest should... fit into place.
The butterflies in my stomach mix with the adrenaline in a cocktail of emotions. I find a sizable stone and throw it directly behind RD, she was facing to the side of me anyway so didn't see the stone arc past her. As I predicted in her bored state she was waiting for a reason to look. I'm already halfway across the gap. Noting with satisfaction the whisper of my wings as my prize is there for the taking.
I stand next to her and breath lightly. With a slight jolt she turns and grins. "Well, I guess you win, but you've got to complete your task Si. I grin stupidly, I can't help it this is to good to be true... wait a second...
My heightened senses detect... laughter. It's faint but not far. And RD doesn't have her usual smell... Oh no, not this again... I am going to fucking kill that whorse. Princess or not, Mess with me all you like (please don't) but don't. Fuck with my imagination. Especially the romantic part. I try and locate Luna without revealing I know she's there. It's lucky this is a dream and my desire to murder is gone. Because I seriously could kill. That would've been a strange first kiss... but it was still a fucking kiss! And I can almost guarantee she had something to do with this. Ok at least I understand my feelings and all but-
I locate her, about two meter behind me to the left. I tense my muscles. And dive, twirling mid air with a flex of my wings and powering towards Luna with my hind legs. I note with satisfaction that fear crosses her face. I can feel her trying to escape but this is my dream, and until either I wake up or let her go, she is answering some questions. Mainly why the fuck are you messing with me.
I don't collide with her (being royalty she merits some respect) instead choosing to come to a halt directly in front of her, holding her with a piercing gaze.
She regains composure quickly for somepony who's been peeking on other ponies business. "G-good evening Silent Night... arte though enjoying one's dream? Quickly recovering from her choice of words I sustain my glare before growling. "No! No I'm not enjoying your stupid fucking dream! Especially when I believed it to be real!" She smiled in a knowing way " aye, you have desired the one called Rainbow Dash for quite a while, I believed I should help you realise your feelings." I snort indignantly "how long have you been watching me?" Ok, this has become way to civilised for me. I wanted to shout at somepony!
"I'm very interested in you Si" I couldn't hide my shock at that, what kind of interest? The last time we 'met' fresh in my mind. I shudder involuntarily at the memory. She read my perception on the matter and laughed. "No, not in that manner, although I appreciate your effects on one's retinas." Ok the flirting in canterlot speak is really disturbing "no, I'm interested in your love of the night! Your cutie Mark for example! You have a great affinity with the twilight hours. And your silence really is a unique talent, no other pony has it. You are a special pony. I sense a power within you..." I shudder, If only she knew what that power was.
After some internal pondering my anger has all but dissipated. One question proceeds all others though. "Luna, you wished for me to realise my feelings... but are they mutual?"
I really want to tell her now, for it is true. It is so true but I couldn't bear a rejection. But before she answered her form began to fade. So fucking typical.
I wake to find RD curled on my chest still, our combined heat keeping us warm during the summer night. Dawn. Another day of practice. But first to deal with the mobs. I can't stand another second of that. Rainbow Dash seems pretty happy, making odd pouting motions with her muzzle. Wonder what she's dreaming.
I slowly rouse her with hoof prods and coaxing. Eventually she opens an eye balefully and sais "Wow Si, why do I keep waking up in your company are you trying to seduce me?" Got some freaky deja vù right there... lucky I have a response now, "yes Rainbow, how could I not resist?" With a dig to the ribs to add insult, she grins "glad to see your getting better at the whole mature thing, and yes no stallion ever could." And I thought her ego could grow no larger.
"So, who were you kissing in your dream?" I laugh as she blushes violently. "He he, yeah I don't think I can tell you yet. In the dream world their a good kisser though." My heart sinks. So RD has a crush on somepony else. That... hit harder than I thought it would. Like a lead bearing in your stomach. Instead of trying to smile I turn away. My hopes dashed. That fucking pun... I hate life sometimes.
Leaving my friend with a hopefully normal goodbye I head into town. I have a pressing meeting with mayor mare to deal with. Although I don't know what she can do. It's still better than taking it into my own hands. I can already imagine the carnage, shuddering at the image I land in the centre of town.
Everypony seems to be either in mid run, or turning to face me. I really don't need this now. I continue walking towards the town hall when a towering Pegasus looms out of the crowd. That's some impressive muscle right there. But muscle alone doesn't mean everything in a fight.
"You! Bad pony, leave now or I crush you! YEAH!" Talk about all muscle. I really don't have time for this, I can practically feel the time slipping away, and with it precious practice time. And the more time that passes, the more frustrated I get... which won't be good for anypony in the local area. Not good at all.
The fastest way through this pony will be stealth and speed. I already know the area and given my experience, have a rough idea of where the best shadows and obstacles are. I dive behind a cart next to me, mindful of the ponies watching, and doing my best to stay out of their line of sight. The next path is to the side of the buildings surrounding the square. In order to stay in the shadows I run up the building (using powerful wing beats to basically force myself back onto the side of the house. By the time I reach a balcony the large pony is blundering around, tearing at loose objects. The onlookers also look surprised at my disappearance. With the exception of an orange filly who is looking at the roof I'm on, trying to discern my shadow. I smirk. Sorry scoot, I didn't show you every trick.
I don't keep heading towards the roof, instead continuing along the wall. With a backflip for extra style points I land at the rear of the town hall. Fully out of sight of everypony, therefore safe to cross the town square. Once there it's a simple matter of angling around the building and entering the large hall. Inside are more angry ponies. However silence reigns as I step towards the podium. Muttering invades the atmosphere as ponies move out of my way.
Guards challenge me, but a nod from mayor mare gives me a non violent path to the podium. "How convenient your here Silent" she whispers urgently. I really don't know what to do. Your a citizen and you've had your punishment. But Mr. Rich is baying for more, even as far as exile. I just-"
"Don't worry mayor mare. I'll try to convince them." I am usually the shiest pony... well, baring fluttershy when it comes to public speaking. But I need to do this now. So let's just do it.
"Ok everypony. I'm going to be frank here I've done wrong in my time." Ok, every eye on me now... do not go now courage "but so has each and every one of you. And before you go saying you've never done something so severe. The fact of the matter is that you were all forgiven were you not? You could move on with your life, to learn from your mistake. Well, it took me a larger mistake than most... But what in this land gives you ponies the right to peruse and persecute when I swear on my own life that I have learnt from my mistake. You all have the right to complain, to give your argument. But you don't have the right to impede on my own freedom. I have the right to defend myself from persecution. Tell everypony, don't judge a pony that's learnt their lesson. Pity those who can't. Now if you excuse me I have a performance to prepare for."
and back to normal Si, who can't stand to be the attention of any crowd for more than a few seconds. I hope that little speach deterred most from their angry mobs. Just as I leave the building a shadow looms overhead. Buck, forgot about muscle-pony out here. I push forward with my wings and hind legs, just avoiding being squished by the muscle meteorite that had just tried to incapacitate me.
Leaving the still screaming mass of muscles I head back towards the cloudhouse, the silence of the flight reminding me of RD's lack of interest. I hope this was temporary as silence almost always filled the air around me. It hurt to be reminded so often, the pain was bearable which made it all the worse... I should move on. But how? With the only pony have ever felt this way for?
The journey was short, but long enough to process the new weight in my heart and to stew over dark thoughts... whoever this other colt was is going to get the shit beat out of them.
No. Those thoughts will never govern my actions again. Especially when it harms those I hold dear. To say friend still hurts.
RD is spinning around her house, blissfully unaware of the hurt she weighed me down with. The dark part wants to blame her, to hurt her. But blaming her is just wrong... No matter how much I hate the fact. And resent myself for wanting to blame her.
She approaches eagerly, awaiting news on how I dealt with the mobs... it seems like such a trivial thing when I'm hurt this much. Even my smile feels like a grimace of pain. Despite my thoughts that she might not be as unobservant as she seems, she doesn't seem to notice however.
"So, did you kick someponies flank?"
"No."
Too much talking, despite the pain it brought all I wanted was silence. Things had been good when there was silence.
I turned away and headed back to the meadows to continue to practice. Leaving a confused and muttering RD behind. I heard 'what did I do?'... If only she knew.
The practice didn't go well. I had a block and knew exactly why which made it all the more frustrating. Yet despite all of the self talks and speeches, it still persisted and therefor the neutron cloud didn't form, the shooting star looked more like a snowball, and the snow looked like just .
"Hey, I know you can do it Si." Rainbow Dash said laying a consoling hoof on my shoulder. I felt an urge to beat it away. Like a wasp that was bugging me. 'I can do it if you get out of my thoughts and you took me instead of this other colt'.
I desperately wanted to say that. But I knew it wouldn't happen. Either I got over this... or tomorrow I was going to look like like one foalish pony. The thing that I grasped to, and made my next practice better was the fact that if I bucked this up. I would shatter RD's dreams. I knew how higher ups worked. You buck up they do it in return. Even if they don't benefit.
I hope to celestia, and to the great creator in the sky... that I can do this. If not for myself. Then for my... friend, the word burnt like acid. That's all she is to me now, a friend and it hurt like a fire in my chest.
For you Rainbow Dash.
Holy shit guys I'm sorry. I am going to explain my lack of posting in a few facts:
1: I love to read.
2: I love to read mlp fim fanfic.
3: there is a lot of really good fanfic, I recommend dream machine if you haven't read it.
So yeah guys, I've read a whole load of fanfic. I might be better for it, but that's no excuse for leaving you guys without a chapter for this long.
Anyway Thanks for reading everypony and sorry again.
BROHOOF!