Happy New Year everyone ! Have you made any resolution? Do you think you will hold them?
Here is our new chapter, to start the year!
November, 9th
Dear Diary,
Papy left. Again. He even forgot my birthday a week ago. He said he wouldn't be back for a month or so, that Kamui and I should take care of each other. But lastly, that dumb big bro changed. Before, he was just ignoring me, but he's starting to become aggressive. Telling me I shouldn't be here. That he's inviting friends and that he hopes not to see me. I'm not what you could call a lovely kid, but I really dislike his friends. Takasugi, Abuto, and other bullies whom I don't know the name. It looks like he needs to prove them he's the one giving order at home. That he ain't got any weakness. I'm doing my best to go home late after school.
I found the soles of my town shoes stained with a red liquid. Anego told me it was probably ink, but knowing the Sadist, it was more likely animal blood. For my revenge, I'm thinking of gluing together all the pages of his notebooks, or to tear them and tape them in a random order. Yes, I'll do this tomorrow. It will give me an excuse for coming home late.
November, 11th
This morning, China was in a really good mood. She hummed me a good morning that made me shiver. I checked my locker, my chair, my table, everything clear. Class started, I wasn't really paying attention, my textbook opened on the table... And I saw the tape. As I browsed the copybook, I understood what she did. To every single book. She was giggling and tears filled her eyes, as she was trying her best not to laugh out loud. She didn't even see the teacher throwing a chalk right in her forehead. Victorious, I smiled at her. And I got hit by another chalk.
For a while, I thought about stopping time. Not having to come home. Staying here, thinking of what prank I should do next. And then I realised how selfish I was... I feel guilty for having such thoughts.
November, 20th
Dear Diary,
I want to disappear. Just to stop existing. Life at home is becoming hell. Kamui's friend are coming over more and more often, and when I say that I'd like to invite friends to, he glares at me telling me "I don't think you really want to introduce me your friends". And he's right. I hate him. He spends his time on the kitchen/living room, watching TV, so I shorten as possible my dinners. Anego noticed I was losing weight and got worried, but I told her it was just a cold. The positive point is that since I'm staying late at school to work, my grades are getting better. At least one good point.
Before going home, I spread nuoc-nâm on the Sadist table. The smell of fermented fish will impregnate the wood.
November, 21st
When I entered the classroom, the fish smell was awful. The teacher had to improvise a PE session while the room was ventilating.
We started running, and China fainted. Shimura told me she was sick. She didn't look ill to me, though. The teacher decided that I would be the one taking her to the infirmary. In a way, he just allowed me to slack off. At the very moment I was about to leave her in the nurse's hands, I saw a purple mark on her wrist, just like if someone violently grabbed her. Probably my imagination. I didn't see her again today.
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