Today is my funeral. Charlie didn't take it well. My mother probably didn't either. I have one job today and it is possibly the hardest job there is. I have to lay perfectly still and silent while people cry over me.
Its not fair.
I hate it.
I don't know how I'm supposed to do it.
I'm laying in my coffin in the funeral home. Edward is in the room with me. Its just me and him in the room. If I could still cry I would be.
"I'm sorry Bella." he whispers "This is how it has to be."
"I know..." I sigh.
"Remember not to breathe even when they've closed the coffin. If you smell them you'll want to feed."
"I know. We've been over this."
"I know."
I'm still not happy with him. I know hes right but I'm still upset. I don't want to leave Charlie. I'll never see him or my mother again and I absolutely hate it.
I hear a knock at the door and I close my eyes. I stop breathing.
I can feel the coffin being lifted and soon I'm in the cemetery. I listen in silence to the priests words. My mother says a few things. I can hear the tears in her voice and suddenly all I want is to comfort her. But I cant. I cant do anything to help her. I hear a shaky sob and if I could go pale I would because I know the sob came from Charlie.
The speeches over with, people come up to say goodbye. This is the hardest part. My mother hugs me and weeps upon my breast. Charlie says a quiet "goodbye kiddo."
Jake is there too. He is crying. I had no idea I would be so missed.
Then I hear the lid being put on and I am lowered into the ground. I can hear the dirt being piled on and it freaks me out. I know that I could easily break out by myself shoudl I need to but it still freaks me out being underground.
Soon enough I am unburied by the Cullens.