March 1 2052
So I tried to ask a girl out yesterday and started to feel sick again. Fourth time since Valentines Day. I'm really starting to get panicked! Either my body knows that they're not the "one" or else I really was married! I feel like a stranger in my own skin and that really scares me! I feel lost! But I have to go to work and act cheerful all the time. I think I might need to paint again soon. That usually calms me down. Probably a water color. Hmmm...a foreigner with crystalline blue eyes comes to mind. That's strange. I've seen several tourists with blond hair and blue eyes but not like these. These seem...special. Dios what is going on with my head?! Well at least I have one thing to look forward to this month
My birthday. March 17!
MARCH
March 2 2052
So Uncle Gil showed up today and talked with Vater for awhile, just in the jovial way that he does before he said that he wanted to go see his favorite niece and went off to find me. He asked me for the text book and other items. When I told him why he wanted them he said that he needed something to break the ice with Mattie. He told me that he went on the 28th to the apartment complex but didn't see anyone that resembled Canada. But yesterday when he went, he did see him. He told me that it took all his control to not go running out and wrap him in a crushing hug. But he thinks that he could form a tentative friendship with Matthew at first by returning his stuff to him. Then after awhile what will he do? Drop the bomb? Hey you're a country! The country of Canada. And I'm the country of Prussia, as well as basically your husband! Oh and we have three kids that just kinda appeared during our years together!
I can now see why Uncle Gil warned me about not going overboard with papa when I see him. I need to take this nice and easy. And just kinda hope...that something sparks his memory. But I'm still getting ahead of myself since I don't know if the waiter really is papa, or just some guy with papa's first name.
I'll know when I'm finally able to get away on my own to go find out. I hope that it's not too long.
March 8 2052
Tomorrow! Tomorrow I can finally go to Venice on my own! I've been having to take care of Ari and Michael while Vater's been dealing with country issues and Lor and Laz haven't been very helpful since they've wanted to be off doing things with friends and focusing on studies as well. Since we're cities we already know pretty much every school subject there is but they still think it would be cool to have an actual human degree in something...at least Laszlo does, Lorenzo is just going along because Laszlo put up such a fuss when he refused first.
You don't know how hard it is to hide this secret from my family. Especially since it's coming closer to papa's birthday. Another day that Vater is always more quiet on. He and Uncle Toni both celebrate it by lighting a candle and singing Happy Birthday in Italian. I hope that this is the last year of that! I will make this the last year of that!
And then Roslyn's birthday is two days later so I have to talk with Seffie about something to do for her, since I'm kinda worried that her papa will forget again. The two birthday's are just too close together for him to really recover by then. I know that Uncle Toni really loves his children, but sometimes when he gets into a state of depression...
I should stop writing now with these thoughts in my head and just go to bed. I'll tell you either tomorrow night or the following morning how tomorrow went.
Ciao!
March 9 2052
Is it possible to die of happiness?!
The waiter is papa! I went in and just ordered something simple at the counter inside. But I was there long enough to see papa taking care of several tables with the same cheerful smile on his face that I grew up with and loved so much. I think I probably stared at him for far longer than was proper, just forcing the tears to not start falling, because the guy behind the counter chuckled and winked at me saying that he didn't think Feliciano was dating anyone at the moment.
If he only knew how thrilled and sick that made me feel at the same time...
I mean he didn't realize that that was my papa he thought I had eyes on but still...sick! But yay he's not in a relationship! Could that mean that even if unconsciously, he knows that he has someone special he's supposed to be with? Does he possibly remember Vater but doesn't know who he is or how to find him? I really hope so!
Maybe I should talk to Vater. Maybe seeing him will be a memory stimulant! I'll think about it for awhile. And probably talk to Uncle Gil about what he thinks.
Oh while I'm on that subject. Returning things to Uncle Mattie went well and Uncle Gil introduced himself as the guy living in the house some of the house. Hence why it seems abandoned most of the time. And he basically asked Matthew out because he used the excuse of wanting to find out more about his house stalker.
His eyes were bright and shining when he told me that his Mattie is just the same as he was before he was killed. I really hope that that's the case, and that he can get Canada to remember everything. That would be the best thing for Uncle Gil and the rest of us who lost someone. Speaking of which...
Is it really fair to keep this secret between the two of us? What about the other six that were killed? No one is looking for them. I feel sick thinking that Uncle Gil and I have been able to see our loved ones again but nobody else has. My good friend Kazumi. Peter's nephews. Patryk and Dimitre. Sofia and Forseti. Isolf especially has been without for the longest. And my cousins for that matter! Uncle Gil is keeping this a secret from his kids! I can understand Coen, since he's rather exuberant when presented with exciting news but Courtney...and my older brother's as well...Is it right to keep this from Lorenzo and Laszlo?
March 13 2052
I've thought about it a lot, especially since I went back to see papa again today and I've decided that I have to tell certain people at least. I'm going to let Uncle Gil know in the morning and then call a girls day with Kazumi, Roslyn, and Courtney. Uncle Gil is probably going to be really upset at me but I'll at least promise him to not reveal the reason he knew about this in first place. I'll just say that we both were curious about the names and went to investigate and it turned out to be them. I don't think my friends will believe that that's all there is to it but...I can't reveal all of the secret. I owe Uncle Gilbert that for telling me in the first place.
March 14 2052
Well as predicted Courtney was absolutely furious. I owe Uncle Gil a really long apology e-mail.
So anyways. Here was how the conversation with my cousins and friend went.
Roslyn: So why did you call us out at such short notice and what are we doing in the abandoned house instead of doing something actually fun?
Kazumi: I'm sure she has a reason for wanting someplace private. Right Juliet chan?
Me: Yes I needed a place where we can't be overheard. Courtney I really hope that your dad doesn't read the e-mail soon and come racing here on the chance that this is where we're meeting.
Courtney: Why would he do that? What e-mail? What's going on?
Me: Well the short of it is that our parents are alive again. Courtney you know that hat we found in the woods? Well MW is your père. I found several more items last month, including a text book that said property of Matthew Williams. I told Uncle Gil this after I found some of Canada's clothes in a bush behind your house. And now he's given back the stuff and confirmed that it is in fact Canada. He's a student at TUD and living in an apartment near there. And my own papa is a waiter at a little bistro in Venice! I've seen him twice now!
Courtney: My Vater is dead when I get home. How could he keep this from me?! And why? If they're alive then why haven't they come home?!
Me: Memory loss is what we believe. Papa smiled at me and but didn't make any sign of recognition.
Roslyn: Mama is alive? How...Where? How can I find him?
Kazumi: I was wondering the same thing.
Me: I'm sorry I don't really know. You might just start by checking in their home countries. So Ros, check all around South Italy. And Kazumi, Japan. Probably try to places or things that they particularly liked or had some connection to. I think that Matthew came here because he felt a connection to Saxony and that made him want to do a semester abroad there.
Well the meeting ended pretty quickly after that. Courtney transferred home still fuming at her Vater. But before they left I did get them to promise not to tell anyone else in their families. This secret needs to remain between just a few people until we can figure out if we can get their memories to return.
March 19 2052
Another person knows too now.
So Seffie decided that for his sister's birthday we should go to his city of Naples. We elected to just have the three of us go so that we would attract less attention. Not that that really matters since only I look not fully Mediterranean. Anyways...it happened quite by accident as we were walking through the main part of the city. We suddenly heard shouting from a pizzeria and this disgruntled young man came out of a pizzeria in an apron and then threw it on the ground before shouting "Ho smesso bastardi!" back into the restaurant and stomping towards us. He stopped a few feet away from us and just stared, at Roslyn and Serefino especially, before he gritted his teeth and made a che sound, and walked by us muttering in Italian under his breath.
I think Seffie just stood there in shock for several minutes before he finally breathed, with tears starting to fall down his cheeks, "He looked and sounded just like mama."
Roslyn looked at me with the same tears in her eyes and I nodded my permission to tell him.
So we saw Uncle Lovino and Serefino learned the secret. And we had to forcefully hold him back from going after him and his sister clamped a hand over his mouth to keep him from shouting out as well. We only let him go when we were certain he understood everything and was thinking properly.
So that makes 3 reincarnated countries found and 6 people who know about them. Although we don't officially know where in Naples Uncle Lovi lives. We just know that he doesn't work at that particular pizzeria anymore.
~*IPS*~
March 26 text conversation
Kazumi: I found Otousa! He's a manga author in Hokaido! I was in a book store in Tokyo this evening and I came across his name on a pretty new manga series. When I got home I looked up information on the author and his picture came up. It's Otousa! There's no mistake! What do I do now Juliet?! I'm both excited and worried...
Received 10:04 AM
Me: That's wonderful Kazumi! I'm sorry but I'm still trying to figure out what to do myself. Uncle Gil said not to jump right in and possibly startle them, but that might be just what they need to remember. I really don't know at the moment...
Sent 10:10 AM
Kazumi: Will you let me know what you decide?
Received 10:14 AM
Me: This should be your decision. I'm sorry I can't help more but since I'm trying to keep this a secret from the rest of my family, it's been very difficult to even get to Venice alone.
Sent 10:23 AM
Kazumi: Right I understand. Speaking of your uncle earlier how are things going?
Received 10:28 AM
Me: Gilbert and Matthew have met a couple of times since he returned the book and other items to him. Uncle Gil said that he's going to try and see what happens if he invites Matthew to actually go into the house. That's kinda why I'm waiting. I want to see how things work out with them before I try and even make more than just casual contact with papa.
Sent 10:36 AM
Kazumi: That sounds like a good plan. I might just go over to Hokaido for a day and see if I casually run into Otousa. But apart from that I think I should take my time and wait for reports from you.
Received 10:38 AM
Me: All right. I'll let you know if something major happens.
Sent 10:40 AM
Kazumi: Arigato Juliet. Have a good day.
Received 10:43 AM
March 28 text conversation
Courtney: Guess what? I get to see père today! Vater convinced him to come to the house today and he said that I can finally be there because it might be a memory stimulant for père! Oh Juliet it's been 7 years! I don't know how I'm supposed to react calmly!
Received 2:25 PM
Me: Just remind yourself that you don't want to startle him away. That's what I've been doing. But I know that it's hard to try and keep your emotions in check when presented with the parent that you thought you would never see again because they were killed. And that's wonderful that your Vater is finally trusting you enough! I hope that everything goes well and that your père remembers! Happy thoughts go with you!
Sent 2:34 PM
Courtney: Thanks so much for everything Juliet! I would not even have this opportunity if it wasn't for you feeling that I had a right to know. How are things going with the others by the way?
Received 2:39 PM
Me: Oh yeah I forgot to tell you guys! Since I last informed you that we found Romano and that Serefino knows the secret now too, Kazumi found Japan. Apparently he's a manga author in Hokaido! Oh and Ros is keeping a close eye on Seffie and not letting him go anywhere without her. She's afraid that he might still let his emotions get the better of him despite his assurances that they won't. That he understands. And he also uses the point that we still don't have an actual address for his mama. We only saw him once. And they haven't been back to search since.
Sent 2:44 PM
Courtney: That's great about Kazumi! Is she planning on going to Hokaido soon to try and actually find him?
Received 2:49 PM
Me: She's thinking about it. You know how Kazumi is. She'll weigh out all possibilities before she makes a decision.
Sent 2:52 PM
Courtney: That's our Kazumi all right. But I just thought of something given what you said about your cousins not knowing their mama's actual location...You don't actually know where in Venice your papa lives do you? You just know where he works.
Received 2:58 PM
Me: That's true but I'm holding to the hope that I'll find a way to jog his memory before he can possibly quit or get fired. Something I am worried about is him finding a girlfriend before then. According to stories my papa was very flirtatious before he and Vater officially got together. I'm worried he might have resorted back to that without his memories.
Sent 3:06 PM
Courtney: One can only hope he doesn't.
Received 3:11 PM
Courtney: Well Vater says that he wants to get over to the house before père gets done with school so that we can try and make ourselves calm and collected, as much as we can, before he arrives. So Lebewohl Juliet! I'll tell you if père regains his memory or anything like that!
Roslyn: Serefino is gone! Papa gave him permission to go off on his own while I was taking a siesta! Juliet you know where he's going! We have to find him before he does something completely idiotic! That idiota of a brother of mine! Wait until I get my hands on him! Meet me in front of that pizzeria in 10 minutes! If you're not there then I'm leaving without you and will be absolutely furious with you! I mean it!
Received 3:12 PM
Courtney: Père doesn't remember me. *sigh and sniff* But that's ok because I still got to see him again and talk to him. Despite not remembering us he still seemed to be at ease around us and he does seem to already be falling in love with Vater again so maybe something can still spark his memory in the future. I hope. But boy am I exhausted! And it's only after 5 here in Canada so neither Coen nor Keme are ready to sleep yet! This is so not awesome! .
Received 10:13 PM
Me: I'm exhausted too! You would not believe what happened today!
First off we found where Uncle Lovi officially lives. And the way we found that out was by having to go after Seffie because he got permission from Uncle Toni to go off on his own today while Roslyn was taking a nap. So I got a text from her immediately after your last one this afternoon and met her in Naples to try and track down her brother before he did something stupid. Fortunately we were able to find him before he could actually go and try to talk to Romano. Though I'm pretty sure that he saw us and recognized us as the same kids from the other day. I hope that he doesn't think we're staking him. It's the truth but it wouldn't be good if he thinks that. We're not supposed to freak them out since they can't remember us.
Sent 10:30 PM
Courtney: If it wasn't for Roslyn having to keep an eye on Serefino I would suggest that we have a girls day tomorrow since it sounds like we all could use a break. I guess we still could without her.
Received 10:36 PM
Me: If it wasn't for the fact that I know how my cousin is when she's left out of things I would say yes. We'll just have to wait for a day when she's sure that her papa will keep him occupied. Maybe out in the garden or something. Serefino likes to be outdoors in the garden.
Sent 10:39 PM
Courtney: Ok just let me know.
Received 10:45 PM
Me: I will
Sent 10:47 PM
March 31 2052
To Juliet,
In answer to your question on March 9: Yes it is wrong to have kept that from us. When you read this come talk to us immediately!
Unless we're taking a siesta of course!
Signed,
Lorenzo and Laszlo Vargas (your annoyed and incredibly happy brothers)
P.S. If you don't come talk to us, we will tell Vater! You have three days sorella! Three days!