June 1 2052

I now have two chains around my neck, the one with the iron cross, and one with a ring that has an ornament in the shape of a tomato. Ludwig asked if I wanted it back and I told him that I did but that I still can't bring myself to wear it in the same way yet. There's a lot of things I refuse to do until I get my memories back. He understands of course. He's just happy that I'm alive and he gets to spend time with me honestly. I know now with complete certainty that what they've told me is true. It just feels so right to be with him, to have him hold me and smile at me, he has a wonderful smile that just makes me feel lighter than air! And when we kiss, I completely want to be like those girls in the movies that raise their foot off the ground. I really hope that my memories return soon so that I can feel whole again and not guilty about going forward without knowing our full connection. Juliet told us together yesterday that Andrew, the eldest son of Arthur Kirkland, country of England, and his mum have an idea of something that might work for them at least and then that could possibly help the rest of us who were lost. I really hope that they are successful because I don't know how much longer I can go without seeing Ludwig's, and I guess my, younger children. But it just doesn't feel right for them to get their mama back but not have him remember them. I wouldn't want to deal with that and I'm an adult. I don't know how Juliet and her brothers handle it?! Anyways...the date set for Andrew and Arthur is the 12th. Maybe writing down in here several times will send good vibes their way.

Please let it work! Please let it work! PLEASE LET IT WORK!

And if it doesn't then I'm going along with my plan for July. I'm going to go to Naples where my brother is apparently. Maybe seeing each other again will make us both remember! I haven't told Ludwig or Juliet about this, because if Andrew and Arthur are successful I won't have to. But if things aren't successful then I'm going to have to tell Juliet at least so that she can get her cousins and they can direct me to where Lovino is. That's my plan for July...but I really hope that I won't have to go through with it. Again...Please let it work!

~*IPS*~

JUNE

June 6 2052

Since a lot of good stuff has happened lately we decided to have a meeting of all of us children who are in on the secret. We had it in the world meeting room where our parents usual discuss important issues. Since this an important issue I thought it was the best spot.

I believe Andrew had the most attention on him since he and his mum could be the key to all of our parents getting their memories back. But there was a good amount on me and my brother's since papa has been taking things so well and absolutely wants to see us quite often. They think it's a little unfair that Vater has been let in on the secret when they still have to keep it from their parent, but they agreed that I couldn't very well refuse since it was papa's request to meet Vater.

A lot of things were discussed at the meeting. Including what the next step would be if Andrew was not successful. None of us had any good ideas except for Isolf who had a theory that since his faðir was the first to die, maybe if he could find a way to get him to remember, it would spark a chain reaction and everyone else would remember as well. It's an interesting and sound thought in my opinion, but it still left us with the problem of how to get him to remember. Especially since Isolf is banned from the store where he works and doesn't know where he lives. So then there was talk of telling his Fùqīn the secret and hopefully then Hong Kong would be able to do something instead, but I explained that since it was originally Uncle Gil's secret, I would still need to ask him. But Isolf said that he would ask Prussia himself since it was his idea. Good luck to him. Uncle Gil hasn't been in a good mood at all lately. I think he's quite jealous of Vater for being able to spend time with papa since papa actually believes.

And we were told good news as well. Kazumi finally ran into her otousa and was able to talk to him under the pretense of being a fan of his manga. She was all smiles and actually quite outgoing today thanks to it. And Dimitre went back to the hotel and tried to calmly explain things better to his tėvas without his brother's interference. He said that Lithuania didn't react quite the same way but he still says that he can't fully accept what they believe. He's told Dimitre to not give up hope, but there is still a strong possibility that he is not who they believe him to be. Dimitre was content with that start.

So in conclusion, things are looking up! We have two possible theories and plans on how to test them. All of us that know have seen our missing parent at least.

June 10 2052

So it turns out that Peter has known the secret for awhile now. He's been keeping it to himself much the same as we all have but yesterday he suggested we go to Venice on a date and he saw papa. He was surprised to see him and when I dragged him off and told him everything he told me that he knew that England was alive for about three months now. Apparently he decided to stop in at that pub one day because he was in the neighborhood and the food there is good and cheap. And he was shocked to find his brother working behind the counter. He also knows that he has no memories since he didn't recognize him and tell him that a little kid shouldn't be in places like that. And he's gone back a couple of times since just to make sure that it really was his brother and not just someone with the same name who looked identical. This has led me to wonder if some of the others parents actually know as well and have just been keeping it secret. But if that's the case, how would their kids be able to find out without coming right out and asking.

"Hey have you known that your love is alive and works at so and so?" I can see that going over well

Well in two days we may not have to worry about that. I really hope this works. Please! PLEASE!

June 12 2052

Good and bad news

Good news: There is a spell that will make a person remember!

Bad news: It's too powerful for Andrew to perform and it will only work on person at a time because it requires a lot of magical energy to be used. It will take the caster about a month to recover the power they used.

Good news: There is a way for England to regain his magic!

Bad news: It will take a long time. Several months in fact. So add that to the required month to recover his magical energy between each memory spell and one of us families is not going to get their missing member back until next year! And if that's the case we'll have to draw numbers or something to determine who's first. Unless of course Reykjavik is right and using the spell on Iceland will spark a chain reaction. That would certainly save months of waiting!

Good news: Since England was there with London they were able to use the other spell they had found to get England's magic back. All it required was Andrew using his own magic to spark Arthur's.

Bad news: Unless Arthur does have a tiny flicker of magic inside then the spell won't do anything!

Basically it all hinges on the hope that he does have some magic inside him still and now it's been sparked and will start to grow. And even if he does have it they're pretty certain he won't regain his memories until it grows close to the amount of power he had before. Essentially we're still in a waiting game though with a possible solution in affect instead of just a hope of one. Andrew sent out a mass E-mail to tell us about this so everyone that knows the secret is now aware of this. I don't plan on telling papa until we know for sure that it's working and England is regaining his magic.

June 17 2052

Papa made a request of me today. He asked if I would contact my cousins and arrange a day to go to Naples. He said that since we've heard nothing from Andrew and Arthur that he wants to try something himself. I was curious, and since I still refuse to tell him because I don't know if the spell was successful yet, I told him that I would but I wanted to know his plan first. He thinks that possibly seeing Uncle Lovi will be such a familiar shock that they'll both remember. I don't see the harm in trying so I asked Roslyn what she and Serafino thought and they agreed with me. Besides, Seffie really does want to see his mama again even though he's still terrified of possibly scaring him away. The date is currently set for the 25th. And Isolf got permission from Uncle Gil to tell Hong Kong (can you call it permission when the person basically says they don't care anymore and just want all of this insanity of waiting and hoping to be over with?). So Kou is going to go into the store blaring the favorite song that they share, out of headphones around his neck. I have a feeling he's going to get kicked out of the store as well. Still it's a plan. Now there are so many things I'm hoping will work!

June 21 2052

Things are in motion! I got an excited text from Andrew today saying that Arthur is pretty certain he has magic and it is starting to grow. He describes it as a warm tingling in his toes and fingertips that is slowly making its way up farther. With this success, Andrew decided it was time to tell Aaron what had been going on and that asked their mum if they could tell da. Andrew said the answer was yes but not until the 27th or rather the 28th because he will be the only one closing that night around 1. It's kinda late at night for them to meet but I suppose since America is 5 hours ahead it won't seem that late for him. I'm very happy that things are going so well for them and also ecstatic that in time England will fully regain his magic and then he can try our theory. Kou did get kicked out of the store as well but him and Isolf still hold to the belief that Thomas is the key to everyone regaining their memories. So once Arthur has regained all his magic he's going to use the memory spell on Iceland first. I E-mailed papa about the text after I got it and he was soooo happy but would still like to go through with our plan and go to Naples. I don't have a problem with it but I've been starting to worry about Uncle Lovi reacting badly and making papa upset. I guess I should push those worries aside and just continue to hope!

Please! PLEASE!

June 25 2052

And so papa has joined the collection of blurting idiots. Uncle Lovino was already freaked by seeing him and papa just pushed him over the edge by trying to explain everything to him. Needless to say we are now banned by him from coming to Naples. How he will be able to enforce that I have no idea but it made papa really upset and Serafino as well. Roslyn wasn't surprised. But we left shortly after that and I contacted Vater to tell him to meet us back at papa's apartment in Venice for some much needed comfort. I left shortly after that and went back to Barcelona with my cousins to visit Uncle Toni. I haven't seen him in awhile and I thought that with two of us there Seffie would be less likely to just tell his papa everything in his upset state. It was nice to see Uncle Toni and Sienna again, she's about 11 in appearance now, the age that Michael should be.

In other news, Yuki is the youngest member now to be in on the secret. He asked Kazumi to tell him why she keeps going to his city. She's never been a very good liar, especially not to her very intelligent little brother, so she told him the secret and he immediately believed and would like to go with her next time. But he's handling it much better than several of the other kids as I've mentioned. He seems very calm and collected. That's Yuki for you. Very much like his otousa.

June 28 2052

Very good news from the USUK family! After reuniting and talking for a long time, Alfred and Arthur have decided to try and rebuild their destroyed house in Kent. The thought is that Arthur might recover his magic faster if he's living in a familiar place that probably had a lot of his former magic put into it, and being surrounded by all those magic books should be even better. America of course wanted him to move in to their standing house in the states, in Nebraska, but Arthur immediately shot that idea down until he gets his memory back. So unfortunately there will be some time until the house is able to be lived in again but working on it will mean that they all get to spend time together. Alfred brought Annie with him as well so Arthur got to see his youngest child and she got to see her mama again. According to Andrew nobody wanted to part so they all ended up crashing at his mum's flat. I have a feeling that that will happen a lot while they work on repairing the house.

So now we wait! But at least three of us families have our member believing us and wanting to see us often. Yeah I forgot to tell you that about half way through the month Matthew came back to the abandoned house and Courtney happened to be there. They talked and he admitted that he did feel drawn to the house so after some thinking he decided that their story didn't seem so unbelievable. So he's met with all of them a couple of times since and is already very close to Keme again like he was before he died. Well Keme is his calmer boy unlike Coen, not to mention he's their youngest.

I hope that in time Lithuania will start to believe it more as well and want to see his other son again, and Poland.