Matt's P.O.V
As soon as I walked in the room there were a thousand nurses surrounding her doing CPR and shocking her. Then my worst fear came true… she flat lined. They didn't call it because they were going to put her on life support. Which was better than calling it but I knew that there was a slim chance of her ever waking up. So I guess it was time to do the thing I have done so many times in my life. Grieve. God, even thinking of the word made me cringe. I can't believe I lost her. Then I felt a hand on my shoulder; it was Severide. He sat there with me while I cried.
"I-I did-didn't get to say I was sor-sorry" I stammered out between sobs.
"She knows you are, she also knows you love her" Severide said making his best effort to comfort me.
"I just want her to wake up" I said still sobbing
"Hey, don't give up hope yet she could still wake up."
"You're right," I said firmly "she could still wake up; she has to wake up she can't leave me, she wouldn't." I said more confidently and I moved on from that day.
Everyday I visited her and talked to her like she was still alive. I wondered if she could hear me.
3weeks later*
Gabby's P.O.V
Yes, yes baby I can hear you. I just can't figure out how to live with you mad at me. I'm a burden to you; maybe this is best if I stay like this. He starts murmuring something but I can't hear because he's sobbing… I feel terrible he's saying how sorry he is. I know your sorry, but it isn't your fault it's all mine it has always been mine. I just think your life will be better off without me.
Matt's P.O.V
"I'm so sorry baby, please wake up I need you, I can't live without you sweetheart; you are my everything. We need to get married and have kids; grow old together please baby!" I shout sobbing.
That's when I feel it the tiny squeeze from her hand. "Baby, that's it come on, open those beautiful eyes for me" they start to flutter open and our eyes lock.
"Matt, I'm so sorry, please forgive me, I love you." she says weakly with tears streaming down her face.
I wipe them away and pull her into my embrace and kiss her. The kiss was something different; it was fiery and passionate and like relieving all the tension and feeling that were piled up for so long.
"I'm sorry too, l love you and that fight was worst thing I've ever said to you"
" We still are going to talk about this more, right? She asks anxiously
"Yes, yes we will, there are a lot of things we need to talk about."
"Yea, what's the first thing?"
"That you were pregnant and now the baby dies because of the damage done" I say fighting back tears
"What?! Matt I swear I didn't know plea-please don't leave me I didn't know"
"I know, I would never leave you it's okay, It wasn't your fault" I say lovingly "What's wrong?" as she's not even looking at me anymore. "Hey, look at me, what's wrong?"
"I hate myself, I didn't protect our child and I've been terrible to you and your still here thinking that it was all your fault and it's not, it all mine it always has been. I want to die, I don't deserve you or to live I've messed up everything in my life."
I'm completely shocked at what just came out of her mouth, I wanted to believe she was just grieving, but before I knew it she had the scalpel in her hand very closely to her neck. I definitely knew she wasn't grieving.
*What happens next? Does she harm herself or does Casey grab it just in time?*