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Up to now, Clarke had been gone from Camp Jaha for around two months after the events of Mount Weather, and she had traveled to a few different villages in the area, but spent the majority of the time alone. After leaving Camp Jaha she began her journey at the 100's dropship where she mourned those who only experienced a short and rather dark period of time on Earth. She cried for Charlotte, who was too young to have ever been on Earth, and she cried for Wells who allowed himself to be the villain in her story so she could live with her mother, and she cried for Atom who suffered from the acid fog and she cried for every one of the 100 who never made it to Mount Weather.
When she could no longer stand the sight of the place that had been considered home before the grounders had attacked now only held painful memories. Mount Weather was the second stop on her journey and once there, Clarke entered despite the horrid smell wafting out and began to retrieve the bodies of the children who would never leave the mountain. After what she had to do to everyone living within the mountain, the least they deserved was to finally be put to rest in the small glade that bordered one opening within the mountain, that they had all dreamed of setting foot in at some point. Along with the children, Clarke removed the bodies of Maya Vie and Dante Wallace from where they lay within the mountain.
The next month was spent plotting and digging out a graveyard within the glade to lay the inhabitants that Clarke had removed the mountain. The first plot completed would go to Maya and had been strategically placed in a bed of luminescent wildflowers on the edge of the glade, that reminded her of the little she knew of the girl who seemed to have been a light even during the darkest times. Dante Wallace was the next plot since Clarke knew that he wouldn't have wanted things to transpire the way Cage had planned, even though he would have chose what would have been best for his own people's safety. The rest of the plots were for the children that Clarke had found and were plotted by size from largest to smallest. Once all of the graves were dug and bodies placed and covered, Clarke ventured into the mountain once more, in order to gather supplies into categories as to what would benefit Camp Jaha the most while trying to decide on a plan that would allow her to deposit the supplies within camp without being found out. When she came across Lincoln while foraging for food one day, she knew how to complete her plan. She had been gathering small game as well as nuts and berries since she vowed to never eat anything that came from within the mountain.
"Clarke." Lincoln greeted while ensuring the tone of voice carried no emotion other than that of surprise from crossing paths with her.
"Lincoln." Clarke returned, while preparing to flee should anyone else appear.
"Do not fear, I am alone and shall not speak of our paths crossing." He said in hopes of calming her and keep her from running, as her body language indicated she was preparing to do. She seemed to calm slightly before speaking.
"Will you do me a favor?" She asked and he simply nodded in response. "I am about done categorizing the supplies that remain within the mountain and would like you to bring them to the camp so that they do not go to waste after what I did, so that they will not be put to waste." Clarke said, in a tone no louder than a whisper.
"Of course." Lincoln said, sticking to the monotone replies that he knew wouldn't spook the blonde. She began to speak once again, but faded off unable to allow herself to ask the one question on her mind, which was whether anyone actually missed her presence. "Does..."
"Yes. Bellamy, Monty, Kane and your mother constantly wonder of your location, safety and return." He said before pausing. "Kane and your mother still hold positions as co-chancellors, though Kane is the one who makes the true decisions while your mother spends the majority of her days in the medical portion of the camp. Monty has begun to slowly heal though he and Jasper have yet to speak to one another, and the tension is still visible during their passings in camp." Lincoln said before beginning to update her on everyone else without request. "Raven has began to heal from the drilling that occurred within the mountain and has seemed to grow closer to the other mechanic, in the same ways that you and Bellamy had. Octavia has yet to let go of her ill will towards you, though she has been persistent in failing to convince Bellamy that you are as dangerous as she wants him to believe. Jasper has closed himself from everyone else and does not converse with too many in camp, and has yet to speak to Bellamy." He said, having purposely left out Bellamy.
"And.." Clarke asked, having noticed Lincoln had failed to mention Bellamy, though she didn't have the strength to say his name allowed.
"Bellamy has become a part of council as the leader of the 100, though he has little interest in the position. He has changed within the last two months and has become more withdrawn. He and Octavia rarely speak beyond argument any longer and he tends to avoid conversation with anyone other than a member of the remaining 100 or the hunting parties. It seems as though there was little fight left after the events within the mountain and whatever occurred has caused nightly disruptions to his sleeping habits and he has also been suffering from short periods that leave him without breath. I believe your mother refers to them as either anxiety or panic attacks, though he attempts to hide the fact that they occur. I only know because I found him while on guard one night and fetched your mother." Lincoln said solemnly while watching her reactions to his news, which seemed to be an attempt at hiding her concern. "I must go before Octavia comes looking for me, but I shall return within a week to update you. I will leave signal within the glade you have worked in for this past month the day before and we shall meet here at mid-day the next."
"Thank you Lincoln."
"I feel it is only appropriate to notify you that Bellamy carries the same burden that you are attempting on his own shoulders. He also carries the burden of knowing that he was unable to help you in battling your demons."
"I carry the burden so they don't have to." Clarke whispered, while keeping her eyes downcast.
"Though the 100 may no longer carry the burden that you do, Bellamy is your equal and carries the same burden, while you both try to carry it on your own backs." He said before placing a hand on her shoulder in his form of support. "Earth is a vicious place and it is easy to leave yourself in the way on the path to war and if you do lose that balance it us very easy to lose your mind trying to return."
"I think that I may have already lost that balance as well as my mind." Clarke replied before heading towards the mountain once again.
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