In Helga's next class she sat there, thinking about how her life has turned and started going the opposite direction. She wasn't going to stop though. (Why should I? What am I living for anyways except drugs and alcohol.) The class flew by. 'Only a few classes left. Then I can leave.' she thought.
She wanted to skip her next classes so badly. It was hard dealing with being around people who weren't like her. She wished her gang were here. They all had troubles at home. They all kind of banded together, forming a little misfit group of outsiders. Class after class, lunch finally came (My favorite class).
At lunch she scarfed down as much as she could. Not often was groceries brought home, plus she was still a bit high so she was starving. She was all alone at her table. No one could even figure out who she was, so why would they sit by her.
Meanwhile at the other side of the cafeteria. "Pheobe, why are you crying." Arnold said. Phoebe was a waterfall. Sobbing so hard she could barely breathe. About a minute after Arnold asked his question she had calmed herself down enough to speak. "Hel- Helga... i... is...*sob* doing... dr... dru... drugs. *More sobs* a..and... d- d.. drinking... sh... I thhhhink... she's *sob* stealing... too." Arnold was in shock. Gerald had just arrived at the lunch table when Arnold stood up and began to walk towards Helga. "Hey my man... hey where are you going?" Gerald said. Arnold ignored him and kept walking.
Shortly after he approached Helga. She looked up at him with her now grey eyes. 'Her eyes used to be so lively, so beautiful... now they're just... pale blue. Like a cloudy sky.' Arnold thought. He sat himself in front of her at the table. His eyes were closed, head down. He sighed. "Is it true?" he asked. His voice was deep and full a sadness and anger. A chill went down Helga's spine. He's like some bad boy now. He's never talked like this before, never acted like this either. This was a sharp left turn of him.
"Is... what true?" she said. Obviously she knew but with Arnold like this she didn't want to push limits. "You know what." he said fist clenched now clearly angry. Helga was afraid to answer. She knew he'd never hit her but for some reason that was what she was thinking was going to happen. Either that or he'd start a screaming match with her in the middle of lunch. Helga took a big gulp. "Look Arnold-" she began but was interupted by Arnold slamming his fist down on the table. "No Helga you look! Do you know what you've become?! You're doing drugs! Drinking! Stealing! WHAT ELSE!? Why are you doing this?! You have so many people that love you and every day you're just getting closer to the end of their love! Pheobe, Gerald and I care SO MUCH about you! What makes you think this is ok?!" Arnold yelled. On his feet now, hands in the air staring into her eyes. To her it felt like he was burning a hole in her soul with that stare. 'I've disapointed him... there's no way he'd ever love me now. He probably doesn't even want to see me anymore. I'm... sick...' Helga thought.
Helga almost burst into tears. She stood up and ran out of the room. She ran through the doors of the school and began heading towards her house. Tears began to fly out of her eyes and ran down her cheeks. Arnold began after her. She finally caught on and sped up. Curving and twisting, trying to shake him off.
She reached her house and unlocked her door. She flung it open and ran upstairs. She slammed and locked her bedroom door.
"Here we go, welcome to my funeral, without you I don't even have a pulse. All alone it's dark and cold. With every move I die. Here I go, this is my confessional, a lost cause, nobody can save my soul, I am so delusional. With every move I die. I have destroyed our love, it's gone, payback is sick, it's all my fault. I'm dancing with tears in my eyes. Just fighting to get through the night, I'm losing it. With every move I die. I'm fading, I'm broken inside, I've wasted the love of my life, I'm losing it. With every move I die. When did I become such a hypocrite? Double life, lies that you caught me in trust me I'm paying for it. With every move I die. On the floor I'm just a zombie. Who I am is not who I wanna be, I'm such a tragedy. With every move I die. I have destroyed our love, it's gone. Payback is sick, it's all my fault. I'm dancing with tears in my eyes. Just fighting to get through the night, I'm losing it. With every move I die. I'm fading, I'm broken inside, I've wasted the love of my life, I'm losing it. With every move I die. This is it and now you're really gone this time never once thought I'd be in pieces left behind. I'm dancing with tears in my eyes, just fighting to get through the night, I'm losing it. With every move I die, I'm fading, I'm broken inside, I've wasted the love of my life, I'm losing it. With every move I die."
Helga picked up an unopened bottle of pills and some alcohol from her wardrobe. She popped open the bottled and drink when Arnold burst into her room.
"I wish you would step back, from that ledge my friend. You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in and if you do not want to see me again I would understand, I would understand. The angry boy a bit too insane, icing over a secret pain. You know you don't belong. You're the first to fight, you're way too loud, you're the flash of light on a burial shroud, I know something's wrong. Well everyone I know has got a reason to say put the past away. I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend. You could cut ties with all the lies
that you've been living in and if you do not want to see me again I would understand, I would understand. Well he's on the table and he's gone to code and I do not think anyone knows what they're doing here and your friends have left you, you've been dismissed, I never thought it would come to this and I, I want you to know everyone's got to face down the demons.
Maybe today you could put the past away. I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend. You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in and if you do not want to see me again. I would understand, I would understand. I would understand, I would understand. I would understand, I would understand. Can you put the past away?"
Helga stood there. She sat her pills and drink down.
"One thing I don't know why, it doesn't even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme, to explain in due time. Time is a valuable thing. Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings, watch it count down to the end of the day. The clock ticks life away. Didn't look out below. Watch the time go right out the window, trying to hold on but didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go. I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart. What it meant to be will eventually be a memory of a time when... I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end it doesn't even matter. One thing, I don't know why, it doesn't even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard, in spite of the way you were mocking me, acting like I was part of your property. Remembering all the times you fought with me? I'm surprised it got so far. Things aren't the way they were before. You wouldn't even recognize me anymore, not that you knew me back then but it all comes back to me in the end. You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...I tried so hard, and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end it doesn't even matter. I've put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go, for all this. There's only one thing you should know. I've put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go, for all this, there's only one thing you should know, I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end it doesn't even matter."
Helga grabbed the pills and drink. "I'm sorry Arnold." She tipped the pill bottle up into her mouth then the alcohol and gulped. Shortly after she fell to the ground, the glass bottle shattered.
*Hey! That. Took. FOREVER! I hoped you liked it, I had to do A LOT of editing. I thought I'd make this and epic chapter so I tried REALLY HARD to make you sit on the edge of your seat. Well review! I'd like to know whatchya think! Well back for the next chapter soon! And as always SAVE THE JUNGLE MOVIE!