-Manami-

Clang ! Clang ! Klak ! Pii !

"Osh !"

"Un! 30 minutes. Not Bad !"

I took my time to enjoy morning breeze. The view is nice today too. The Sun is about to rise. Very beautiful and breathtaking, and also sad. I can feel my lips forming a smile and I began to walk backwards to the door. Just as my hand reach the handle, I stop.

"Well, Its not like the library already open anyway. I guess 10 minutes wont hurt."

I walk back and sit on the top of an empty barrel. Reaching back and undone my hair tie, I let my hair loose and felt the ticklish sensation on my cheek. I close my eyes and for a second I imagining those red hair again. So magnificent, beautiful..and soft, tickling my neck as he lean into my shoulder.

I smiled as I touch my hair. Its short now, just above my shoulder. A lob they called it. And its no longer black, I change it to dark brown. I remember him saying that he loves my hair. Well, I cant really get it tough. Since all he ever done is yanking them. And.. and then I froze. I shouldn't remember those times. I work hard just to keep my eyes dry when I see red colour.

"Pipipipipipipipipipiii!"

I check my phone and see its already 7:00 am. Thankful of being snaped back to reality. I jumped down from the barrel and go downstairs to the nearest toilet and change my chlotes. I wash my face and put on some light make up. I look at my face in the mirror. I looked different without my glassess. I undergo some treatment last year to fix my eyesight. Guess I'm not the same girl like I used to before.

Walking in the campus at this time in the morning is pleasant. A week from the beginning of term I realized this. Just a handful of students come in the morning. Either they are club members, the staff and lecturer, or just some nerd like me.

I reach the library building and go to my usual spot in the inner most section. Its peaceful and its quiet. And its my favourite spot for almost 3 months now. I just start working on my assignment and listening to my iPod.

"Where is that book. It should be somewhere around these shelf. Hmm..."

I wonder if I should bother the librarian this early morning. Ah, how about those shelf. I rarely go there, but who knows. As I made my way to the shelf on the back, something catch my eyes. Behind those less popular bookshelf, in this dim and quiet area of the library, theres a desk full of shiny objects.

I looked at those vitro and tubes in disarray on the desk, walking slowly towards it. Did someone making experiment and mixing potion here? Crazy, this is a library for God sake, not some kind of Lab. Whoever did this, he has no sense of responsibility. I get up and inspect the remaining liquid. I recognise the potion. Its not dangerous, but it'll sure made you itch for all day. I made sure cover my hand so I dont exposed to the potion and put it on the bin.

Potion making huh? Well, talking about not wanting to remember those happy yet painful times.

"Have you read the email I sent you yesterday? You think we can made it today? I cat wait to use those potion on my 'fishing' today. Ku ku ku.."

"I have ! Its not complicated and rather simple. Even you can do it alone. But its gonna be faster if we do it together. I have 2 poisons ready to give to him today too."

"I see. Well then, how about I add some extra ingredients?"

"Extra?"

"Nothing better than a finely powdered mantis eggs."

How mischievous.

"Are you allright? You should have use this gloves"

"Ah thank you. I'm clumsy so, this often happend."

"Thats not an excuse. Take care of your body more."

"Th-Thank you. Sorry for making you worry."

"Yeah..dont do it again. Your body is precious to me"

"P-p-precious?"

"I cant find a partner like you anywhere. If you hurt, I cant make any potion for my pranks. So you are precious. Okay?"

"I..I see. Eek ! Dont pull my braids again.. Stop it ! Kyaa..!.. Stop!.."

"Hahahahaha..."

Just remembering those times makes my heart beat faster. Oh God I'm no good. Its almost 5 years. I should have forget him by now.

I dont know how long I've been staring at the trash bin on my hand when a voice startle me. No, Its choking me and give me a shiver. A very familiar voice. The one I kept hearing in my dream. How I missed the so much. So much that it's hurt. A-ah.. I imagining things. Must be because lack of coffee. Yes thats must be it !

"I said Hey ! What are you doing with my stuff."

Its sound so real I can't help but turn around. And I froze. I knew those red flocks and mesmerizing eyes anywhere. So beautiful my hearts gonna explode.

"Hey..are you deaf or something? I'm talking to you."

So mesmerizing its blown my mind away. I open my mouth and tried to talk, but I cant make a sound. And I found myself gaping like a goldfish.

"Heh..how troublesome. I'm gonna take that from you."

I felt him snatch away the bin and continue to look at me with those mesmerizing eyes. His silky red hair, oh how I tried my best not to remembering.

"A..kabane..san."

Even whispering his name alone sent shiver down my spine. How I miss them. I caught his eyes. For a second, I tought I see hesitation in his eyes. Followed by a sigh. And then he smirked.

"Ehh~ Good to know I have a fan here too. Well.. I guess you'll be following me too huh? Little lady, be a good girl and keep it to yourself. Okay?"

Just like that he walks away. I can hear my heart scatered all over the places again. And I can feel my tears forming its way down my face. What was that? Why didnt he said anything? Did he forget? How can he not know? Why? I stand there gawking.

And then It hit me. Even Isogai-kun can't recognize me the last time we bumped each other. But then again, we are not that close. And thats makes me really sad.

I slowly walk to my chair and lie my head down. Thinking why is it happen right now? Now it all came back to me. My silly one-sided love. All those 5 years of moving on, and I almost there. Just 1 minutes, and I can kiss those 5 years bye bye.

Karna-kun, you forget about me huh? And you once said I'm precious to you, too.

Sometimes you made a wish and your wishes come true. But any other time, Its just like fate making fun of you and mocking your wishes. Your heart get broken into pieces and you left with disappointment. Slowly, you built those pieces again and try to mend it. Just when you think its over, your heard got pierced again and you found yourself unable to pick up the pieces anymore.

-Karma-

I saw her again. That girl from the library. Walking alone towards the sience building. I found out she always use this path behind the social sience buildings. Not many people using this path since its hidden between two buildings and a row of sakura trees. She let her hair down today. Funny I thought, how she tie it. Her hair is already short, why bother tie it? Afternoon breeze playing with her hair and shake it accross her pink cheeks. I cant help but remembering.

Manami, she have a long hair, and she kept it in a twin braid. Thick, shiny, soft and smell like chocolate. I used to play with them, yanking and twisting it, just to annoy her and breaks her concentration. But she is one tough nail, never make a mistake in potion making,

It's been 5 years since I last saw her. No matter how I try, I cannot find her. I want to apologize, i want to make it right. I want to admit, that I, too, have the same feelings as her. But I cant find her. Even Kayano did not know where she is. Until Takebayashi inform me she's studying abroad. Her family wanting to escape media attention. Guess it too much for them, and they cant wait any longer.

Since then I kept searching for those twin braid in the crowd. I started comparing every girl I know with her. I cant forget those misty eyes that night. Beautiful princess in yukata and braids at the fireworks festival. I never knew that is the last time I see them. If I knew, I'll definitely made those eyes sparkling with wonder and tell her how much she means to me. But I took our time together for granted. Confident that she will always be there by my side. And she would never leave me. I learn too late.

That library girl. Those eyes, they reminds me of her. For a second I tought I found her, and then I saw it. The birthmark on the nape of her neck, the library girl did not have it. I know about that birthmark. Well, I spend my last year of middle school around her. I practically know her features. Silky black hair, eyes full of wonders, thick glasses, those mole on her right shoulder, the birthmark on her nape, even the way she held her chopstick. I know almost everyting.

And the library girl is not her. I confused by the pang of dissapointment in my chest, and sighed. But I cant stop thinking about the library girl.

When I met with Nagisa last week, I told him about that library girl and how I kept thinking about her. He just smile and told me that its about time I moved on from Manami.

Ah, she stopped. Why did she kneel on the ground like that? Hmm.. a kitten? How interesting. I remember Manami loves cats very much. In fact, she's the reason I adopted Kuro on the first place.

"Oh its Ami-chan. She's cute today too !"

"I know right !"

"She's playing with the kitten again?"

"Nee Akira, dont you say you went to the same high school with her? Tell me, is she already have a boyfriend?"

"What? Are you for real Akira? I'm so jealous"

"Thats right. We're on the same club at high school. She's smart and kind. But she always quiet."

"You bastard, how lucky !"

"I don't think she have a boyfriend yet. She always alone."

"Say, how if we invite her to karaoke tomorrow? I'll bring Kikyo-chan and others."

"Count me in !"

"Hey, we sounds like a bunch of high schooler guy. Fussing over a girl"

"HA HA HA HA HA HA HA "

Oh, she's a popular girl huh? Mi-chan?

Well, Ami-Chan, I guess I'll see if Nagisa is right. Let us be friends.