Chapter 3: Chris Jericho

Me

First time I saw that angel I know that this was my last stop for my whole life. Maybe you are not the most beautiful man I have ever known or date to, but for me, you are so perfect. That smile, that voice, that face, all make my heart arrhythmic. Every time I saw you I just want to touch your skin, slowly kiss your pink lips, and when I look into your blue eyes I see tranquility.

I used to play with the feeling of those people that I date for, do I feel guilty, maybe not because on the very first place I don't believe in true love. Love with me just like a game, make someone in love with me is my target, and I never fail to take that but that was before I know you, my angel. Since I know you I knew the feeling fall in love with someone, since I knew you I've felt embarrassed whenever I saw you smile, and I know that now my heart's in love with you… Since I knew you I know the feeling of failure.

I used to think it's easy to make someone in love with me and nobody can refuse me, but you overturning all everything that I believe too. You are the one, the one make me know what love is, the one make my heart feel like a teenager girl when they see their first love, the one make me want to have so badly and you are the one who don't love me back.

I don't know why, I try to get your attention, but everything I try failed miserably. I begin to note that every time he around you, you will lose your control. You blush when he whispers in your ears, you can't finish your sentence when you must look into his eyes, you happy for not a thing, but when he smiles with you, you act like a child when he bought you something even it just a cup of coffee, you became a cutest idiot I've ever known and it makes me want to possess you for my own. Then I figure out one thing, one thing makes everything so clearly now, your heart belonged to him so long time ago and I am a latecomer.

Then I know another secret from you, you don't valiant enough to tell him that you love him. What are you afraid of? Just tell him, it's easy what are you waiting for? Oh, you scared that you will lose him, you scared that if you tell him that you love him then he will leave you. Maybe you don't need he love you back, but can stay on his side can make you happy every moment.

I begin to mad, begin to jealously. I am better than him, I love you more than him, and I can see how special you are. Idiot can you just look at me for one time and see how much that I love you.

Angel, you must know my rule, if something that Chris Jericho can't have it, then he will break it, destroy it.

At the moment you leave him and go to TNA, my plan had begun and I have excellent successfully implemented my plan. I make your friend in love with me, I make your love in love with me. But just one thing that I was not premeditated is, you accept to take my place when I leave him, you let him play with your heart, your feeling. You make yourself became a substitute.

He

I feel bad for that stupid ass, he was the luckiest man on the earth he has your beautiful love. But that dumb ass doesn't know it, he even doesn't recognize that every small act you do that you want to tell him that you love him. You two know each other for so long, how can he don't see it.

Make he in love with me was so easy, but it is one thing that I never mention that he was loving me so crazy. Wow, for the first time in my life I never see someone love me crazy like he is. But sorry for him, I don't love him. Everything I do just a tiny revenge from me to him that he take what I want, and a revenge to you that because you don't love me, you give your precious heart to that stupid man. I brought him up to the heaven, let him live in happy and when he on the top of happiness… I leave. He immediately falls to hell. But there is one thing go out of my plan, and that was you, what are you thinking to back on his side.

Every day I stand there, watch you get pain in the thing you call love. He destroys your heart one more time, he tears your heart again and again. That stupid asshole, he doesn't deserve everything that you give to him. At the time I date with him, I still don't get what you see in him, what make you love him more than yourself.

You can't do anything so let me do this part for you, I will tear him down, I will break his heart just like the way he does with you, but I make a big mistake… everything I did with him, he makes you pay more than it. He was a fucking asshole I have ever known.

- Adam, do not let something lost and then regret. Life sometimes doesn't give you second choice.

- What do you mean? I have you that all I want. Why do I need to regret?

- Some day you will see Adam, God gives you a precious give, but you don't see it. And I sure that you will regret when you lost it because you are a stupid man.

Maybe until now he still doesn't understand. Maybe he will never understand, the day he lost you is near.

You

- You make me wait for you too long Jay. Come here.

You stand there, look like a broken doll. How can I see your smile one more time? There was no life in that blue eye, it's now like the cold deep blue sea, and it makes me feel hurt.

- Do whatever you want Chris, I believe that you call me here not for a talk.

- Take it easy my toy, we have all night long.

It's not our first time, but this time, I can have you all for my own. I careful kiss every inch of you, I ignored all of the red marks on your skin. I know, what did you do last night, but I don't care. This is my moment, I will never let anything ruined it.

- Fuck Jay, you are so tight. Don't look at me like that it was a praise.

I kiss you and begin moving inside you. It's just like heaven, God you are fucking good. It's just like heaven, I slowly enjoy the wonderful feeling that you bring to me, but when I look in your eyes… it no emotion, it looks like… you don't be here and I just play with a toy doll who look like you. I was accustomed people to submissive me and make me happy. And if you want to get hurt, you want me to be a bad guy then you got it.

You scream, you cry, you try to get away out of me. I say so many things bad into your ears, I tell you are a cheap whore, I tell you that Adam will never want to have you, I tell you that no man on this earth wants to have the person who easy open his legs to another. I make you focus on me, focus on everything I do to you, focus on how I take everything about you.

- I hate you Chris, I will never forgive you…never.

That was the last thing you say before you fainting, but I am not stopping because of that. I am not getting enough of you yet so I can't stop. I am continuing chasing the feeling how warm and tight you are. And when I can't move anymore, I lay down by your side. I kiss those lips one again and watching you sleeping. I have thought in thousand ways to have you with me, but I never think that we will come together like this.

The next day when I wake up, you already leave. I look at the bed that we sleep last night, it like a mess, on the white bed sheets, it has your blood and my sperm. I laugh at yourself, maybe this it is what the gods punish me for what I did, but there is one thing that he don't know I love you too much to accept that you hate me. You hate me, you want to kill me…good…just keep it like this my angle because it makes me feel that I can be something to you. Maybe I can't be the person you love like Adam or can't be the one who can protect you and comfort you like Randy do, but became the person you hate is far good for me.

Him

It didn't take me long to know that I am not an only one in love with you, and I am not surprised who is it. Love come to everyone, even the danger viper. But I do not hate him because how he can get close to you, I don't hating him because he can hold you, make you feel safe, and do so many things that I wish for. For somehow I glad that he was there with you. Be the person that you can show all your weakness.

But I don't hate him doesn't mean that I like him, no hell not. How I can like him, how can I like a person will take you far from my hands? He may not have your heart, but he still have a better place in you than me.

Fucking god, why he let two damn stupid men stay together? I thought that Jay is an only stupid man in love, but now Randy is enjoy the team too. Randy knows that he will never make Jay love him like Jay will never have Adam love, but that stupid just like an ephemera and Jay like a light, Randy know he will be burned, he will get hurt, but he unceasing crashed into that light.

But I am so jealous of him when I saw you sleep in his hand peaceful, I jealous when you hide your face in his chest and cry your heart out. No one can see the men tear, but Randy can see your tear. I jealous when he kisses you.

But he makes a mistake, he gets you in trouble. He must know that you don't want anyone to gets hurt because of him, but look what have you don Randy. Jay heart one again has been damaged because of your foolishness.

- You know what Randy? If Adam was a fool, I am an asshole, then how do you think you are?

- What are you talking about?

- Let me just say, you just another fucking fool assholes. You think that you what you are doing will make Jay happy?

- I will make him happy, I will never let him cry again.

- How? How can you make him happy even while you can't touch his heart yet? You know why I am calling you another fucking fool assholes because you make him feel sins, he can't give you love but give him more than what he ask for. You make him get stuck.

- But…

- He doesn't feel happy Randy, everything we do, you, I and Adam just rip his heart off.