Red don´t destroy the fucking bromance I am hoping for.
Sorry for the mistakes I wrote that from 10 pm to 5 am.
Notes: A bit fluffy I think. Listen to When I am gone by 3 Doors Down.
Chapter TextWe just got word Liz shot an undercover cop earlier does look like the guy's gonna make it.
Oh, Liz
As strange as it sounded, he was proud of her. Not that he would tell that somebody anyways. But still, a little bit of the weight that was lasting
on his shoulders seemed to be lifted. A tiny bit.
That just showed him that he was right about Liz. He knew her for god´s was not Red or any Blacklister. Liz could not kill
like that. She wasn´t not capable of hurting someone and not letting affect that to her.
Probably she was sitting in another fancy container on a ship to god know´s where and was blaming herself. He wasn´t there but
he got this odd feeling in his gut - yes he was listening to his gut and he had feelings. He was no robot even if Liz wrote
that in his profile when she tried to profile him for the first time. The good old days... Okay stop here it wasn´t like they in a freaking sit com -
that she shot that cop to protect Reddington and herself. Of course she did a more bitter voice said.
He went to the rest room and put some icy water in his face Calm the fuck down. He looked in the mirror and saw his own,
a bit bruised and a bit exhausted face.
Today his butt was saved by Samar but it was not the same. Samar was good, no doubt, but she wasn´t a replacement for Liz.
His mind went back to that nice little mud wrestling match not even two hours ago, while they where catching that son of the bitch Eli Matchett.
If there is one thing that he could say about Raymond Reddington, it was that this man was reliably.
Don thought back to that faithful day when it all started.
Red said he would give them a Blacklister and that he did. Even if he was currently unemployed?! More like they
were unemployed if it wasn´t for Reddington..
He turned off the wasn´t dumb. He knew that his whole attention should be on catching Red and Liz.
But to be honest who the hell expected them to actually catch a man who hid himself for 24 years and was some kind of
underground king and a daughter of a Russian spy?
He knew that the cases would not help the task force to catch them. It would give them a criminal bastard.
But the FBI just found them because of Red. It would keep them occupied but Ressler understood it in another way.
He thought it would be a kind of lead. Something to keep him close because he had given his word to Red.
Ressler knew that without Reddington´s help they would not succed in clearing the name of Elizabeth Keen.
And Red for sure knew that too. But you could not just walk into the FBI and tell some by the book agents
- yes he saw the irony in that - that they would listen to one of the most dangerous man
on this planet because actually the whole FBI was blind.
So he did follow the it would be another weekly case. Because a part of him believed
it would bring him closer to Liz.
It just got harder everyday to play the rightful, by the law Director. He knew he had to be careful. Damn. Samar
found somehow out he let her go. And even if Aram said he believed Liz was innocent and at some point he was
sure ,Navabi agreed, he knew that other people would not understand that.
At this point he wasn´t that scared of being fired, hell this job could be a pain in the ass and his current situation
of how would Liz pronounce it ... being emotionally conflicted... wasn´t making anything easier.
What he feared was that someone else could take his place.
Some jerk who tried to get on top of the chain and would not stop for a second to catch another blacklister.
Who would hunt them down and this could kill them.
If you had asked him years ago he would be doing the same. Not stop for anyone
or anything to get promoted.
Now, well he was director but instead of being proud or cocky all he thought in the back of his mind was
A few more options for me.A few more ways for Liz to come back
And Ressler knew that he actually had to trust his gut and his feelings this time.
The rules and orders told him she was guilty but honestly how could anyone in this whole task for even
rudimentarily believe that she did it.
Maybe he was it was not right he did this.
Well then, they could shot this whole task force down because Liz´ touched
all of their lifes. Aram even said it out loud. But on the other hand he knew that they could not do anything against it,
because this task force were the only people who had contact with the Number 4 on the Most Wanted List in more than 24 years.
And something told him that Reddington wasn´t just only talking with Elizabeth Keen anymore but also with Donald Ressler.
So when Cooper told him that he had to trust his insticts he could say I do because he meant it. It didn´t mean he would go all Reddington
and kill whoever stands in his way to get his partner back. He would follow rules and do the right thing but not with purpose of catching them.
He did it to get his partner back.
He did it because he would keep his word.
He did it because he cared about Liz.
And he need no Tom Keen who told him that he cared about her. He knew it deep down by himself.
He trusted his instincts on Liz´Birthday and it got them one of the nicest evenings they had in a long time.
He would trust them again.
Don realized that he might be needed outside so he looked in the mirror one last time, straightened his tie and left the bath room.
They had added a new picture of Liz to the crime board.
This is bullshit. I know how my partner looks
She had this look on her face.
He could picture it, it was probabaly the same she had when she phoned him was a surprise itself.
Ressler almost wished that he told her: "You can rewrite your profile of me , Keen"
It doesn´t matter that she told him to back would this time. She should knew him probably
was too stubborn for that. He cared too much about her for that. He knew she was scared because he was scared too.
So much could go wrong but what would happen if he stopped.
Someone once told him that if someone seems worth the risk you should take it. There was no reason not to take it.
POV Liz
He is a person. He is a good person.
He is my per - partner
It was then when she woke head against the window of the car.The car she stole. Calm the fuck down. People steal cars all the time
.Yeah, criminal surprise you are one
Good Morning, Lizzie. You look troubled
Yes a bit. Just a bit. It is not like that I almost killed another person and I still can smell the is not like I would
miss my partner who´s job is to put me behind bars ,but let me go , heaven knows why.
"Oh really ? Yeah you know having the whole task force on my ass and being a fugitive, being on the run
is not my average sunday morning. " it came off harder than she intended but she could not help it.
Ever since that talk in the restaurant the atmosphere between them was tense.
Partly she blamed it on being on the run and she knew that she was stressed which she now let out on Red.
And Ressler.
When she told him to back off.
She didn´t mean it like that. She was well aware that he risks his job for her.
And she knew his job was hunting her,
She was she knew him. He would not give up. He wanted answers and he was willing to get them.
And he was good, really good.
Sooner or later he would get her simply because she could not take it anymore.
She was not someone for the run.
And she missed missed working with him. Sure, Red´s trick with sand was impressive. It reminded
her of one of the old movies she had seen with Sam.
But he could not replace Ressler´s pure presence. They had become pretty good partners.
While her personal life was going worse her work relationship was becoming better with every case.
They knew they could trust each other and it was not the first time she dreamt of him. She stopped denying it.
There was something and lying about it just made it worse.
Oh and her kiss made it more complicated, god he must felt like she used him.
But she didn´t. She didn´t know what would be worse.
" What´s going on in that pretty head of yours? Don´t tell me you think about him. I
told you you need to let him go. Think of him like he is just another FBI Agent"
Okay if he wanna start a fight in the car.
"But he isn´t, okay.? You said it yourself he was trying to save me. He is a good person and he is ... was my partner.
If you are really that good in reading persons like you always say, you should see that he is not the same
person who hunted you."
"Liz, what´s up are you on your"
It was then when she lost it and Stop the car !
Liz we can´t just -
Stop the friggin car , Red. she said and he did like he was told.
She stepped out the car and out in the crisp morning airs.
"You don´t get it don´t you ? I am not like you"
"Lizzie, nobody is like me "
" I am not here because this is some kind of game of goddamn road trip to me. This is my life
and I want to get it back. I want to get back to the Post Office. I want to get back to Coopers annoucement´s.
I want to get back to Amar´s shitty jokes and his and Samar´s moon eyes. I want to get back to the damn
elavator and I want to get back to my can´t you understand this."
Red realized that he had missed something between was something and he had completly missunderstood
and misinterpretated it.
"Lizzie, I understand that this is how do you think I survived 24 years like that.
Ressler is just a distraction. He is the FBI and it will get to him sooner or later.
Of course he is trying to save you. I know that. I know he cares. He cares a lot.
I just wanted to protect you because being on the run is difficult."
"You think you know him but you don´t. I told him to back off because he is trying to get me and YOU can get him fired
and I am scared because he is good and he risks his goddamn career for someone like us like me. I-I..."
"Liz, Liz , calm down. I understand. Please go back in the car. We have to go. I promise it will get better."
She didn´t know about that little phone talk Don and he had a few days ago.
He knew all of that above.
But she needed to be strong if she wanted to go back if she wanted to survive.
But maybe he didn´t need to break that between her and Ressler.
Maybe he just got a whole bunch of new possibilities.