Not exactly a traditional Jukebox update, but I think I address that just fine. Set during season 2, episode 18, "Versus Zoom." I couldn't help but think that Cal would be a little better suited for this conversation. I haven't said this directly in the story yet, but Cal and Cisco are like, hardcore BFFs at this point. Barry and Iris/Cal and Tori level, without the raised together part. They have a different, and yes, deeper bond than the one he shares with Barry, even though Barry's known him longer. I think their eclectically nerdy souls would bond quickly and permanently, so when it comes to the deep conversations, sometimes Cal takes the reins. Watching this episode, this seemed like one of those times.

So sorry to everyone who's waiting for part 2 of the newest installment of Feeling Good. I sat down to finish it after work last Saturday only to be unable to find the file. I must have deleted it by accident. This seriously demotivated me as I was at a total loss as far as recalling it, so I took a few days to watch tv and spend time with my boyfriend to get my mind off it and come back to it. It's currently about halfway written and up for editing by the lovely Ahsilaa, who will be my beta/idea-bouncer/inspiration buddy from now on! She's working on her own Barry/OC story, so keep an eye out for her! I will hopefully have the second half posted this weekend, but for now, this!

I don't own The Flash or Lady Gaga's Pokerface. Consider yourselves disclaimed.

"Wait, so he was actually able to open a breach to Earth-2?" Cal asked, wide-eyed as Barry explained what happened at the old children's hospital. She had come in with Joe and followed Barry through the building to Cisco's workshop.

"Yeah, I mean he started to. But then he stopped, he said he couldn't and told me not to ask him to do it again." Barry sighed. "I just wish I knew what spooked him so badly. I'm looking for him now to talk to him."

"Let me try," Cal suggested. "I'm not as close to the situation, and he knows I'm a neutral party between the two of you." This was an aspect of her life Cal was adamant about - her friendships didn't interfere with her relationships, and her relationships didn't interfere with her friendships. She refused to take sides and often played Devil's Advocate.

Barry considered this a moment before agreeing. "He might be in his workshop."

"Got it." She kissed him quickly before continuing as Barry turned around.

She could hear Lady Gaga's Pokerface playing through his speakers as she approached, grinning as she spun the knob to lower the volume upon entering. "It's a regular Jukebox in here, dude."

Cisco didn't answer, just kept fiddling with his glasses. Cal sighed, pulling a stool up next to him and nestling her head onto his shoulder.

"Talk to me, homeslice. Barry said you were able to tap into your powers. What's got you sideways?"

Cisco sighed, putting down his screwdriver and resting his head on top of hers. "I'm scared, Cal. It's like...it's like right now I'm Anakin Skywalker. I got the midi-chlorians, I've got the goods. The force is strong with me. That is something I can feel. But if I start opening breaches into other worlds, doing all this other crazy stuff Reverb was doing, then...what if this is how I become Vader?"

Cal lifted her head from his shoulder and raised her eyebrow at him incredulously. "Dude, you're never gonna become Vader."

"You don't know that. That is what happened to Reverb, he - he learned how to use his abilities, and when he felt that, when he felt that power, he succumbed. To the dark side."

Cal shook her head, smiling at him. "Do you seriously - do you think that I would seriously be best friends with the kind of person who could ever succumb to the dark side? You've got way too much heart, way too many people who love you to ever have a chance of going supervillain. Reverb clearly rolled with some shady cats, but you've got me and Barry, and Caitlin and Joe and Iris and Harry and Jesse. You don't have a malicious bone in your precious little body, Cisco. You control the powers, my dude, the powers don't control you. You're not Reverb, you're Vibe. And Vibe is totally more of a Luke than a Vader."

Cisco was returning her smile now. "Damn, girl. You should write motivational speeches."

She laughed and nudged his shoulder with her own. "Cisco, I just...I haven't had a friend like you since Tori, and you mean the world to me. I don't want to see you throw away something that could make you an even more incredible version of your already incredible self because of a misplaced fear. It's okay to grow and change, Cisco. We won't let you change into something you don't want to be."

Cisco wrapped his arm around her, hugging her close to his side and resting his head on hers again. "Thanks, BFF."

"You're welcome, BFF."

I just love them. They're two nerdy little peas in a pod. Let me know what you think!

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