{j'ai reconnu le bonheur au bruit qu'il a fait en partant}
i
pirmas. little girl in a snowfield snatched up on your horse
leaves a sigil of footprints behind you (i will be protected
i will be loved) becomes a woman at your hearthside
you learn each other's secret hearts
so well too well maybe that's why it'll hurt so much one day
antras. glittery and glaring but you worshipped him once
sun you can't bear to look at (he tells you about icarus
foolish intoxicated boy wings a fragile construct)
you never knew him at all did you
trečias. cold heavy weights in your stomach they keep you on your feet
even though you don't need them (you've always been a good dancer)
he hands you his heart and expects you to take care of it
ii
pierwszy. dark hair falling softly to the floor
he should be grateful damn it this is his soul at stake here
(your skin marble-white glimmering
sunlight on a tombface) oh and i could sharpen my teeth on your pride
drugi. they take you like a woman break you like a horse but
knife in your bodice you don't need saving
he runs his fingers over the scars (mouth blue-green with pity
words acid on your skin) you shudder with cast-iron eyes
trzeci. no time for not breathing let numbers fall through fingers
let cockpit switches slide smooth under skin
let anger surge up inside you burn out the frozen fear (let him touch you
halting stiff it's not what either of you really want)
iii
первый. guide her nails across his chest watch his proud mouth falter
when he fell you were there cold ocean
ready to catch him cradle him in white-cap currents
protect him from sunlight and hot air
второй. (there is no second. he is the only one you will ever love.)
третий. slender fingers curl tight around your heart
lemon-juice bitterness drips sticky into the snow
(third time loving him and nothing
ever
changes.)