Riley's P.O.V

I was in shock but automatically put on disc 2;

Hi sunshine, i'm so sorry. Now, i know you would do anything to make me happy so i want you to do one thing for me after you give these to the next person, get over me, forget about me, be happy, be smiley Riley. I know you, you are blaming yourself for me ending my life. No, it wasn't your fault it was mine, i had the choice and i took the best one for everyone involved that will become clear to you soon. I had a lot of reasons for doing this but i'll just tell you about the ones that concern you.

Reason 1: I know you still liked Lucas and i was getting in the way of your happiness, i didn't want to get in the way of your happiness, which brings me to my next reason

Reason 2: Riley i was sick physically and mentally. 2 months before i ended it all i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but what made me decide to kill myself was 2 weeks before i ended it i was diagnosed with a incurable, rare sarcoma residing in my abdomen, that's a type of cancer baby girl. I could have gone through chemotherapy to prolong my life but i didn't want you and the rest of them to see me like that, i didn't want you to see me shrivel, fade and disintegrate to dust. I didn't want your last memories of me to be me sitting in a hospital room connected to 100 machines, i wanted you to remember me as the strong, wild, rebellious Maya you know, not the weakling who couldn't even go to the toilet.

I want you to know something, you mean the world to me, ever since i met you that hot summer's day in late August, i remember it like it was yesterday. I was sitting there on the stairs of our elementary school, sheltered from the hot sun by the tree. You're mum had been in talking to your teacher getting acquainted. It was starting to get a little late in the afternoon and everyone else's parents had come to pick them up. You skipped down the stairs but stopped when you got to me.

"Hi i'm Riley, where's your mummy?" You asked so innocently.

"Probably at work, she should be here in a couple hours" I said, kind of disappointed that i had to tell you.

"Hey honey, who's this", Your mum asked you. You shrugged, you didn't know who i was. Your mum knelt down "Hi sweetie, i'm Riley's mum what's your name?"

"Maya" I said quietly.

"Where's your mummy Maya"

"She's at work, she'll be here in a couple hours to pick her up." You said.

"Do you know your mummy's number Maya?" Your mum asked. I nodded and told her the number. You're mum called my mum and asked if I could come over to your house and that she could pick me up from your house when she finished work.

That was my favourite day of all time, i gained the rest of my family; you, your mum and dad and Auggie.

You have always been there for me able to fix all my problems, someone i confided in. I love you honey.

"I love you too peaches" I said not realising she couldn't hear me.

Now do what i say, give these to your dad and get over me, forget about me, be happy, be smiley Riley.

I got up went down the hall to my parents room and gave my dad the discs.