Joshua's P.O.V

My brother walked through the door of my new york apartment and handed me a box, he just said three simple sentences;

"Open it. Listen to it. Do as she says."

Then walked out closing the door behind him.

"Who's 'she'?" I wondered. But i did as he said.

I opened it and saw the CD's put disc one into my laptop.

My dear loved one, it's me, Maya, i'm here to explain the question you've been asking yourself the past weeks, 'why?' and if you are listening to this you are one of the reasons and are truly loved by me.

So here is how this is going to work you are going to listen to the beginning of each CD until you find the one addressed to you and follow the instructions very carefully on your CD, DO NOT, listen to anything i tell you not to,don't worry i've made it very clear. And you can't talk about these CDs with anyone, EVER.

Hi Josh, how are you? You know next year you can't say you're three years older than me because you'll be four years older than me! Because I don't age anymore! Sorry, that was unfair Josh. You hurt me Josh, more than you realized, that is why i'm letting you know now.

Josh I don't trust people easily, or believe in love. I don't hope very often, unless it is something out of the ordinary. I hoped for you Josh, I hoped that you would love me, or at least acknowledge me as more than just your niece's best friend who would fawn over you. Josh, i let my walls down for you, something i don't do for many.

You remember when my dad left? I was four years old, you were eight. You were the only person i told about how i was really feeling. When you stayed on the phone with me late that night, well in reality 8pm but for a four year old that was late. That was when i knew i loved you.

Joshua, i'm pretty sure you loved me back. You see, I'm a keen observer of human nature. The way you looked at me and the way you looked at Samantha, you remember Samatha don't you? Riley's and my other best friend before she moved across the country. Anyway, the way you looked at me and the way you looked at Samantha was totally different. You would look at her when you were talking to her. But me. Me, you would stare at across the dinner table, i would catch you taking glimpses of me whilst we were colouring. When i would fall you would be the first one there.

All that changed when you turned eleven, i think it was then that you realised you weren't just being nice, you liked me. And you couldn't handle it. So you became a douche and left me in the dust. You know the biggest fault in your plan? You never once denied liking me, you always just said you were too old for me, three years. "Three years Maya."

You may of fooled everyone else but you didn't fool me, not for one second.

And you missed me. You missed all i could have given you. You know you like me. Why did you deny it? I'm sorry for the regret you will have to carry for the rest of your life, knowing you let the diamond go because you were to busy playing with useless stones.

I've loved you for the last eleven years Josh.

Now give these to Dr Turtleneck.

Goodbye Josh, and for one last time, I love you.