I sat there on the edge of my bed and stared at my hands. I had heard from Maya, the thing I had been asking for for weeks, and it didn't make me feel relif like I had hoped it would. But I knew I must take her advice and talk to my friends. But first they must listen to their cds. So, I got up and went to Lucas's house.
I knocked on the front door, waited a moment, and then he answered the door.
"Oh….Farkle…. Hi." Lucas said, avoiding eye contact.
"Yeah… um… I need to give this to you", I said handing over the box, "But can we all meet up on Friday after school? I think we need to talk, we need eachother."
"Yeah, sure" Lucas said observing the worn-out box.
"I've got to go." I said and turned around and headed down the stone steps from Lucas's house.
Lucas P.O.V
I turned around and went inside, inspecting the mysterious box Farkle had just handed me. I sat on the louge and saw that it had cds in it. Intrigued I picked my laptop up off the coffee table and put in the first cd.
My dear loved one, it's me, Maya, i'm here to explain the question you've been asking yourself the past weeks, 'why?' and if you are listening to this you are one of the reasons and are truly loved by me.
So here is how this is going to work you are going to listen to the beginning of each CD until you find the one addressed to you and follow the instructions very carefully on your CD, DO NOT, listen to anything i tell you not to,don't worry i've made it very clear. And you can't talk about these CDs with anyone, EVER.
I paused the cd. My brain was thinking so fast and my stomach was churning like a washing machiene. I didn't know what to think, I didn't know what to feel, I didn't know what to do. So I went through the cds until I found mine.
Lucas,
I'm sorry. I know that what I did would of effected you just as much as the others as we had grown so close in the limited time we knew eachother. And I know you, you have isolated yourself because you feel guilty because you felt it was your job to protect us. But you can't protect me anymore but you can protect Riley. She trusts you and will lean on you, talk to her. She needs someone to initate it. Please. For me.
It was best for all of us that I left this world when I did, you, nor anyone else could protect me. I was sick, both physically and mentally, and there was nothing anyone would be able to do besides whatch me rot away. But just because my life ended doesn't mean your has, the others respect and listen to you, I ask you to help put the light back in their eyes and your own. Live your life.
I am giving you the hardest job of all, to give these to my mother.
How could I bring myself to do such a thing, give a greiving mother her daughters sucide note or in this case cd. It would tear her apart, but I had to do as Maya said or else I would live witht the guilt for the rest of my life. So I got up, grabbed my coat and headed out the door.