(Ch2)My new eyes

BellaPOV

The burning never stopped, I would get used to it every once and a wile, but there's only so much you can take. The fire running threw my vanes grew hotter and more intense by the minute. But still I fought for control. Thou unsuccessful permanently I was still able to stop myself from showing my distress. I could feel every inch of my body quiver every so often but I managed to stay in-mobile for the most part.

Wile on the outside I must look like I was in a coma, but on the inside I was in excruciating pain. I was dispirit for something to happen so that the fire would stop. The fire that was the Vampire venom was so intense that my senses were turned off. For the most part I could not here a thing and at the few occasions I did here voices talking around me I'd want to beg them to kill me.

But I didn't.

Not only because I couldn't but also because I knew what I was turning into and I knew that it -the pain, the fire running throe my vanes- would stop within a few days, and then I wouldn't have to worry about silly little things such as falling down wile I walk, being horrible at everything I do and... Being left behind.

That being thought, I'd have all of eternity to look for the family that I once had dreamed being a part of, if... if I wanted to find them that is. If I wanted to I could find them without them knowing then just go somewhere they weren't.

One thing is for sure, and that was that I couldn't ever come back to Forks. I couldn't ever see Charlie again, or Renee... or Jacob. I just could never endanger there lives like that.

Just then the pine disappeared from my fingers and toes, but it spread were the rest of the pain was, most particularly my heart. I knew it would be soon now.

Now that the pain was leaving my limbs but it was intensifying in my heart and I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle the next few minuets.

The dulling of pain paused at about my knees and elbows. Thou the pain in my chest was stronger then before I was able to here, and smell what was around me better.

I could here birds fluttering there wings and chirping, I could here leaves rustling as some small animals were chasing each other and I could also here... two?... no three, big plumping sounds. Maybe hearts of a big animal. But know that I concentrate on the individual sounds only two of them were big, one of them sounded smaller but closer and strong.

The two big ones seemed to be pacing about twenty feet away, wile the smaller one sounded about a foot or two away from my left hand, that one sounded to be almost at my level on the ground.

When I sniffed the air to find out what was it that was near me, I almost gagged. Almost. I didn't because I knew I was still at jeopardy of losing control and screaming. But when I took a whiff of the thing near me it smelt like vary sweaty wet dog. Instead of gagging I allowed myself to wrinkle my nose, but that is when I herd a voice.

Not the voice that I have been hallucinating. This voice was to clear to be a hallucination; And hearing it made me hate myself.

''Bella?'' Jacob called in a weak voice, from not to far from me on my left side. He was to close, and when the pain lets me go... oh, no! Jake cant be here, I could kill him! I must have briefly lost control because there was something in my hand -I assumed it was his hand- because I tightened my grip not much but more like a twitch because he said with more volume. ''Bella? Can you here me? Can you talk?'' The worry was clear in his voice.

He's not the one that should be worried about me... he needs to worry about himself. ''Jake... y-you need to l-leave'' I said as strongly as I could witch wasn't saying much. ''-t's not safe... for y-you''

I hard something that sounded like a… scuff?

But before I could respond, the fire in my vines were moving slowly but that only made it worse, my body flinched from the pain but I managed to stop myself from gripping the hand that still hadn't left mine to hard. thou I was grateful for the warmth that his hand provided and I enjoyed knowing that I wasn't alone, I just couldn't have Jake in the line of fire when I know I will not be able to control myself around his human blood.

I had already accepted that I wouldn't be able to see him ever again. Why is he here? Why is he so set on going to horrible when he can just settle for bad? He can not be here! With me, I'm too dangerous for him now. I knew that even if he left right now, by the time he get to his car or motorcycle I'd already be on the hunt with him being the first thing with appeal. I needed to worn him better. But how?!

Threw the moving pain that was working its way past my hips and shoulders and threw gritted teeth I spoke with as much volume as possible. ''Jake... a-at-least g-go to the edge o-of the trees.'' I tried to open my eyes but discovered I couldn't and slowly continued. ''And w-whatever you d-do not come closer t-to me.'' I muffled a screech as the fire crept closer to my heart then mumbled. ''t's not safe...'' I couldn't say any more. The pain was too much.

Before Jacob could protest there was a different voice from far away. ''Listen to her Jacob, at least she doesn't want to hurt you... and she sounds like she knows what she's talking about''

Jake sighed, there was a little more warmth on the top of my hand witch felt like lips. Then he was gone. All three heart-beats were twenty feet away but this time two were small and one was big.

My mined was about to wonder, but stopped when the fire in my heart grew hotter and the pain fiercer. Each beat my heart did grew slower and more painful.

I did not allow the pain to show it's self to anyone watching. I didn't want to worry them. Instead I stayed completely in-mobile. I felt my heart pump once... then one last time wile it froze, never to beat again.

I stayed there, not moving but listening.

As soon as my heart stopped I could have sworn that I heard three heads turn towards me and it seemed like there were different types of breathing. One sounded fast and angry. The second sounded like it was trying to stay calm. And the third sounded ... worried?

I sat up so I could see who... or what was worried. I quickly looked and saw Jacob who looked anxious with a guy that looked familiar... Sam Uley; the guy who found me in the forest the night he told me they were leaving. Not too far to the side of him was a wolf... that's when realization hit. The Wolf was the big heart beat I herd, the one that sounded angry. The wolf seemed like it was twitching; like it was going to pounce any second. And it was facing me.

The other guy -Sam Uley- was just watching me... no examining me. Jake on the other hand seemed nervous.

Once I could tell that the Wolf was not going to attack Jake, I realized that it was sunny and knew why he was looking at me like that. I looked down at my arm and sure enough my arm looked like it was diamond hitting the light. I was sparkling and Jake was scared of me.

Before I knew it I was in the tree cover opposite from the three.

All this happened in half a second. I had not taken a breath sense my last hart beat because I knew what I was and from the little I knew about new-born vampires was that they don't think when they smell human blood. I knew I didn't want to hurt Jake, or even Sam.

I didn't want to be a monster that goes around killing people. It doesn't matter that Sam took Jake away. I will not kill anyone.

I was so into my thoughts that I almost didn't hear the voice from across the clearing. ''Bella?''

Too fast for them to catch the movement I looked up to realize that it was Sam that spoke then I looked back dawn. I couldn't let them see my eyes, the eyes that were once chocolate brown I knew would be blood-red, those eyes would tell them what I now am; the monster I now am.

The scratchy feeling in my throat told me I needed to get away from them and any humans. I needed to clench the thirst that was now burning my throat. But I also needed them to let me leave or they could get hurt or... worse.

''Don't worry about me, I'm fine.'' I said. ''You guys need to leave''

''Bella-'' Jacob started but I cut him off still looking down. He couldn't see the eyes.

''No, Jake. You listen to me for once. I am perfectly fine. You are the one who needs to go. It is not a good idea for you to come close to me anymore. Do not ask me why, I can not tell you. Please understand this Jake, it is no longer safe for you to be with me. I'm too dangerous-'' that was it for my air supply. I just hoped that he'd get what I was saying. I mean only an arrogant prick wouldn't take what I said to heart, because I said this as truthfully as I possibly could.

Despite what I said, I herd him take a step towards me. I quickly rolled my eye's -still looking at the ground- and take a step back at the same time as him. I glanced at him throe my eyelashes quickly and he looked hurt.

''You don't need to worry about me Bells'' he said knowingly. The tone in his voice made me look him full in the face. It almost looked like he knew what happened to me. But how would he know that? I asked myself. Did he believe thous legends he told me about last year? That would explain why he has been avoiding me, about the sudden hatred for the family that I spent so much time with last year. The family I had once dreamed of becoming a part of.

I was so wrapped up in my thoughts but I was still looking directly into Jacob's face so I didn't miss the slightly repressed flinch. That slight action told me that he saw my eyes -my blood-red eyes- and that he was scared, but the fact that he was repressing it also told me that he had expected it and he was trying to except it.

He needs to know. Something inside me said. It's Jake, tell him.

But how do I tell him?

After maybe three seconds of debating I had it all planed out.

I kept a soft expression on my face, to re-usher Jake then I nodded my head to Sam to also re-usher him. I took one slow step forward to let them know I'd talk but I didn't walk any closer so as to not lose control, and to show them I would try not to hurt them I sat cross lagged in the hard ground. This seemed to relax them a little bit as I hoped, so it calmed me as well.

Jake seemed to be debating weather or not to come to me so before he could do anything that may make us all more tense I spoke ''Please stay ware you are Jake. Don't come any closer.'' I only just realized that my voice wasn't quite right, not houris but different then what I was use to; their was a bell tone to it.

I winced, I must sound so different to him.

He looked like he was debating weather to listen to me or not. But when he spoke he sounded strong. ''Sure thing, Bells.'' he gave me his most Jakob like smile. I smiled to but I didn't open my mouth because I didn't want to get to smell his human sent.

Just at that second there was a breeze that came from behind me. I let myself take a breath and almost regretted it. The intake of air made the fire in my through more noticeable. But I made it stop with one simple thought, Not Yet.

I smiled to myself, glad that I was able to do this.

I turned my attention back to the two in front of me. They still seemed a little tense but I pretended not to notice as I started my talk. ''Jake.'' I said slowly, his eyebrows lifted to tell me to continue. ''How good are you two, at keeping secrets and staying out of trouble?''

He looked a little surprised at my choice of words but he answered sincerely. ''I'm pretty good at both. You know that Bella.'' he said, then added with a frown and... a smirk? ''Why do you ask?''

I nodded, yes I knew that he could keep a secret and stay out of trouble but I was more asking if he would rather then could. I didn't want to answer his question yet, I turned to the next. ''Sam... same question.'' I said slightly more for him then when I asked Jake.

He seemed to understand that I didn't particularly like him but was not planning on acting on that unfriendly feeling I have towards him... Yet. ''I can keep a secret'' he said slowly, eying me. ''And I can stay out of trouble.''

I looked at both at them to make sure that they were being honest with me then continued. ''Do you believe in vampires?'' my voice sort of broke on the last word but I tried not to let my sadness show in my face, but I think I slipped because a saw them exchange a look.

Sam turned back to me with an expressionless face when he answered. ''Yes.''

Jake turned to me with a grim smile. ''Yes is an understatement. And you know it.''

I looked at him intently and he ... winked. He knows. How does he know? I thought over every thing he has ever said to me, every conversation, every comment referring to vampires -mostly the Cullen's- and then I remembered all the legends he had told me.

There tribe was descendant from Wolfs. And there enemies are Vampires! I am a Vampire know... So why hadn't they killed me yet? maybe it was because I haven't provoked them?

Then all my attention went to the Wolf that was standing behind Jake and Sam. the Wolf -I was assuming that it was a he; not that I wanted confirmation of that- was grey and it still seemed angry but a little less on edge.

I was debating weather to sniff the air to see if my suspicions were right, but if I was wrong and I tried to attack them... I'd never be able to forgive myself.

After a little more debating wile looking at the gowned I decided to look into Jacob's eye to see if I could risk it without worrying that I might go after him.

When I did, he seemed to be doing the same as well as trying to see what I would do next. After he realized what I was doing he eased up a little and gave me a huge grin and looked deep into my eyes the way he did when my eyes were much more... normal. The way he looked at me now was like how we used to be, and at that moment I knew I could be around Jacob without hurting anyone even if he is just a human.

If it's too much I can hold my breath and run away. I promised myself nodding and slowly let myself inhale.

What I didn't expect was to be welcomed by a nasty wet-dog smell. My nose wrinkled, but I smiled. I get to keep Jake! I'm too disgusted by his smell to want to 'eat' him, I giggle at that thought; of eating Jake. That would be unforgivable. His smell also confirmed that he was a Wolf witch probably meant that Sam's 'gang' was actually a pack of Wolfs.

I smiled to lighten the moment and picked a lighthearted joke they don't completely hate me for what I am. ''Eww, when's the last time you had a shower Jake? You smell like a wet dog!'' I said in a whinny voice but winked so he'd get what I was doing.

Sam looked a little surprised then Jake, and the Wolf seemed to be examining me but they all seemed slightly amused.

Jake laughed a little then said ''last night. and just so you know you smell like someone pored bleach all over you.'' This was said in a cocky voice, but it also looked like he was trying to inform me that we didn't smell to great to each other because we were technically 'mortal enemies'. It also sounded like a warning -probably because some of them are touchy on being told they stink- so I took it to heart and dropped it so I didn't offend them.

I was about to say something but then I herd something in the distant coming this way. When I hared the heart beat of it I quickly held my breath so wouldn't go after the thing with blood flowing threw it. I ignored it as much as I could but the burn in my through was making itself known more intensely.

I could tell Jake say my distress and started to come to me but I stopped him by putting my hand up then I motioned with my hand for him to listen and I pointed in the direction the thing was coming from. He looked that way then at the Wolf behind them, the wolf nodded and Jake turned back to me.

''Bell, it's just the other guy's'' Jake said but I didn't let myself breathe, he noticed. ''Bella?''

I couldn't waste my breath on speaking, so how can I tell them what's wrong, I thought to myself.

Wile I thought I barley noticed the entrance of two more huge Wolfs, they seemed to be examining the situation. Me sitting on the ground looking like I'm in pain, Jake looking worried and Sam... well wearing his 'Sam mask'.

I looked into Jake's eyes and moved my hand motioning a heart beat then moved both of my hands to cradle my neck; to show that its there blood that is the problem.

They all seemed to get it. So I turned to Sam because it looked like he was the leader out of them. I looked at him with pleading eyes begging him to understand what I was about to ask. ''Do you know anywhere, were humans do not go?'' he nodded. ''Were animals only go?'' again, he nodded seeming like he knew were I was going with this. ''Please show me?''

''Okay, Bella but we need to know you wont try to kill any humans... or-and I must stress this- if you go after a human we will destroy you.'' he didn't say this harsh, only matter of fact, but still Jake glared at him. Both me and Sam ignored Jacob's reaction.

I slowly stood up -so I didn't look threatening- and said ''I wouldn't have expected any less.''

pleas Review. this is an unfinished story of mine that i will be adding every few days until all of what i have is up.