(Ch3)First Hunt

Bella POV

The few seconds it took for Sam and Jake to 'change', phase or whatever they called what they do; I was growing vary impatient. Not only was I making each second feel like an hour -thou that certainly helped in making me agitated- the fire at the back of my throat was getting worse and I was afraid I'd hurt someone, but I was also intimidated by the five huge wolfs who were born to kill what I now was, who were probably built to be stronger and faster then a vampire.

Not to mention that they can turn back into 'human' after ripping me apart with more then enough time to build a fire to burn the chunks of my remains... but no pressure...

I straitened out of the crouch I hadn't known I was in when I herd a growl. The sound was warning and I didn't take it as a threatening sound just what it was; a warning. I had crouch simply out of instinct because of my thoughts and as soon as I realized what I had done I straitened up.

''Sorry about that,'' I said, looking at the wolfs. ''I was... overwhelmed.'' they were watching me, probably making sure I was under control. I looked into the eyes of the larger one witch I thought may be Sam and said with an ashamed grimace. ''This is new to me. I can't stop myself from reacting certain ways... but I will stop myself when I can.''

He looked at me, tilting his head slightly then nodded. He tuned his head to one wolf at a time till the four others were spread out in a circle around me, but he stayed near me as the others turned to one direction.

Sam-Wolf stared intently into my eyes, communicating something... but I felt the need to voice my thoughts just to make sure. ''Making sure I don't stray?'' I asked as I gestured to the circle around me. He nodded. ''You're going to be staying close?'' Again, he nodded. So wordlessly I stepped so that I was a little behind him and with my hands told him to lead the way.

He turned and we were running, and fast.

I smiled at the speed, the feel of my hair whipping behind me made me feel like I was flying. Even though I was surrounded by giant wolfs who could kill me I managed to shut off my instincts and remind myself that if they wanted to kill me for the hell of it they would have by now. No they will not kill me unless I go after a human, and when... if I do that, then I'd deserve it.

For some reason I felt like I would be able to go faster then we already going, I could feel it in me; the speed just akeing to come out. I almost asked if we could go faster, but then I stopped the words from leaving my mouth, and thought some more wile I enjoyed the wind hitting my face, still not allowing myself to breathe.

What if my asking to hurry up, pushed them over the edge? In more ways then one... It could make them think I was making fun of them or more eager to kill a living being then anything or my talking could irritate them as it is.

I had noticed that some of there facial expressions -even as Wolfs- seemed mostly weary, curies and... surprised?

Whatever they were feeling I didn't want to make it worse so I kept my mouth shut.

We ran at the same speed as each other, not changing it when we came across fallen trees or anything, thou I did notice that we jumped differently. They looked like they were on a mission -witch in a way they were- they looked like they could damage anything in sight if they wanted.

Were as I was just having fun. The speed didn't scare me, I loved it more then anything in this life, so far. My senses were heightened, I could hear all the animal's, leaf's and twig's making there rightful noises, I could see every detail of every tree and every shrub, and I could feel every rock or twig under my shows and the wind hitting my face, arms, lags and making my top flap in the wind. I'd say that I could test the soft earth and the damp tree bark, but can't because I was still not letting myself breath; I couldn't risk smelling a human, I know the wolfs wouldn't let me get a hold on the human but I also didn't want to hurt them ether.

I let myself enjoy the moment because I knew the fire at the back of my throat was dieing to be clenched, and I needed the distraction.

With that thought, we stopped running.

We were in a small clearing, but still by some trees. When I closed my eyes I could here a stream near by and a few heart beats.

My eyes flew open, and I looked into the eye's that were staring at me. ''I know what to do,'' I said slowly. ''But I think it would be best if you stay together and keep you're distance... for you're own safety.'' I said this sadly. I hated being unpredictable and unable to control myself.

But I couldn't waste time on self-loathing at this moment, I needed to feed, and fast before I do something I regret.

I lifted my head, listened for those heart beats by the water and sniffed the air. The first thing I smelt was wet dog but as soon as I identified it as the wolfs I ignored it and that is when I smelt a new fragments. It was a delicate sweet; it was so appealing I just let myself fallow the smell.

I came it the edge of the clearing looking onto the elk by the stream. I was about to go after one when I noticed it had a baby under it and stopped. I was not going to take the life of a defenseless creature, human or not. No human's and No defenseless lives.

That is when I spotted a mountain-Lion in a tree about to pounce on one of the elk. I glared at it and before I knew it I was in the same tree as it but a branch behind. It hadn't notes me so I decided to take advantage of its lake of attention.

I sprung for its neck, but before sinking my teeth into it I cracked its neck once it was on the groaned and bit.

I drank slowly, loving the sensation of the worm, sweet liquid gliding down my throat making the burning ache go away. My instincts told me to Finnish fast and move on to the next victim, but my brain said it wouldn't accomplish anything but a mess. I didn't understand what it meant by that but I chose to listen to my brain, it has been helpful so far so why doubt it now?

The Lion was finished before I was just when an annoying sounding voice at the back of my mind said pointedly ''But you're brain told you to believe Edward.''

Hearing his name, even in my mind, made my composer vanish wile a shiver ran down my spin and the pain ripped threw me. The pain was worse then anything I had ever felt before. Worse then when he left me, or when Jake rejected me, or even when I was burning from my transformation.

This hurt more because I had all the same losses and then some, and also probably because I was now a vampire and more capable of having more intense emotions; good, bad ...and horrible. Before -when he left- it was like he dug a hole into my heart and didn't bother cleaning it up, now it's like... I no longer have a heart.

I pushed the dead animal aside and let myself dry-sob.

JacobPOV

We followed Bella to a herd of elk by a stream. Her eyes focus on one that was closest to her, and she took a step to it but stopped. Her eyes flicked down then they filled with sadness. I was going to look to see why she stopped herself; I had thought that they -Vampire's- couldn't stop themselves when they were hunting. Before I could get my eye's to leave her face, her head turned slightly and she glared. Just like that she disappeared.

I couldn't find her anywhere, and none of the elk had moved. For a moment I thought we had lost her but that's when I herd a thud then a crack. My head swung in the direction of the sound and there she is with a mountain-Lion, who was not fighting.

That is when I realized it was dead. Bella must have broken its neck... I couldn't watch anymore, she just bit into its neck; I was only able to notice that she was drinking slowly.

I turned to the guys; they were as surprised as I was, maybe even more.

Aren't they supposed to be, like... uncontrolled? Jared wondered, in his head.

I wonder why she didn't go for the elk. Hell, how did she stop herself from hunting one animal to a more big and dangerous one? Paul asked of none.

Did you see how fast she ran? Or rather did you not see? She was so fast I didn't even notice her move, did any of you? Asked Embry, pointing out what the others slow minds didn't get.

Hum... you guys are right, she does seem... controlled- Sam said slowly before I cut him off.

Controlled? You know that's an understatement, Sam. The legends said that several different things she did... she shouldn't be able to do. I said as fast as I could, trying to defend her by pointing out what she was doing right, instead of wrong.

Relax Jacob; I couldn't pick the right word. she was controlled, not only here -wile on the hunt- but in the clearing too, and she warned you to stay away and that it wasn't safe to be near her... she seems to know what she's doing. But-I cut Sam off again.

Here we go! Can't you see that she's trying?, I shouted

But remember she was crouched into a fighting stand in the clearing? Sam said

The others were silent, waiting for me to reply, to see what I'd say.

Yeah, and she straightened up when she realized what she was doing! I am so getting sick of you Sam, she obviously is trying not to lose control... She at least deserves the chance to defend herself, it was ONE. TINY. SLIP! She could have attacked us, she could have just let that animal she's feeding off of suffer from the venom we all know she now has, and when we were running she could have out run us but she didn't. Because she is still BELLA! I was getting sick of these guys, why couldn't they see it was still her, she may not look or smell or sound like Bella any more but she was not the monster like the leaches who destroyed her life.

Before Sam could come out with a come-back, we all saw something out of the corned of our eyes; We turned to see that Bella had tossed the animal aside and now had her head on her knees, and she seemed to be sobbing, thou it sounded like she was choking on something I was sure she was sobbing.

Plus with Bella it was obvious she was sad by the way she held onto her stomach. It was exactly what she did whenever the Cullen's were brought up... she must have been thinking about them.

I'm going to see what's wrong with her. Without waiting for a response I phased and slowly walked up to her.

''You okay, Bells?''

''Do you hate me Jake? Did you start to hate me when I said we couldn't be more then just friends? Or did it start when I became this... monster? Tell me this one thing Jake, what can I do for you not to hate me anymore?'' she spoke so fast and it was a whispered yell, like she was trying to control her voice as much as she could.

''I don't hate you Bella.'' I walked over to her and went on my knees close to her. Sam growled at me; I ignored him, but her head popped up and swung to where he was. She looked like she had been crying; only she had no tears. ''Bella?'' I asked softly to call her attention to me. Her head whipped to me, her eye's not as bright of a red as it was before, looked at me questioning and searching me. ''What's wrong, Bella?''

She looked choked up by something on my face and she hid her face in her knees again. She stayed like that for a wile and when I was about to ask her again she spoke. ''It hurts Jake,'' her low voice still broke. I was about to ask when she looked up and said in a mumble. ''It hurts to remember them. It hurts to know that my disappearing will hurt Charlie and Renee. It hurts to know you hate me and that I have to kill to live now,'' she gestured to the body of the animal and continued. ''And to know I'll ether live forever alone or be killed.''

With that she gestured to the pack and me -I didn't have to look to know she was talking about them- she sighed then continued. '' And ... you know what makes it worse? It's all heightened just like all my other senses.'' her voice sounded shaky, her lower lip quivered and her face looked straight out heart-broken.

I hared the guys take a step back at the sight of her broken look that would be impossible to fake for even the most talented actor. I knew Bella; she was the worse when it came to acting.

Ignoring the stench I was getting used to -Bella's Vampire smell- I went over to hug her. She did a weak attempt of fighting it, and then she stopped and just let me hold her. ''I don't hate you Bells.'' when I said that she just started sobbing again.

I held her for a wile, to let her sob. After a wile she calmed down, but then she stiffened and was standing about ten feet away.

I could feel my face turn to one of hurt, confusion and questions. I was about to ask but she cut me off. ''You didn't do anything... it's just... ugh... I was listening to you heart and um... I guess I haven't had enough... um...'' she seemed to be struggling with herself on what to say, but I got what she meant, so I decided to save her.

''Its okay Bella. Go hunt. Ill wait here for you, and then we can talk.''

She nodded then was gone.

so here's chapter 3 and i think i need to remind you guys that ill come back to the spelling and grammar latter, what I'm putting up now is the basic idea of the story so please try to forgive me for the mistakes.