"Mark, what are you doing here?"
"I'm sorry for just showing up, but I needed to see you"
"Why didn't you call first?" Donna asks, her tone harsher than she intended it to be.
"I didn't think you'd answer, considering the last time I saw you"
"So you just show up here and ambush me?"
"I'm not trying to ambush you, Donna, I just want to talk, please."
Donna sighs, "You have five minutes" she says, stepping out of his way so he can come inside.
They had barely made it in to the living room before Mark speaks again,
"I miss you"
"Mark…"
"No, Donna, let me finish." He begs. "…I miss you, I can't stop thinking about you. I know you got scared that night and I understand why, but I need you to know that we're getting a divorce, we can be together."
"No, we can't…"
Mark closes the space between them, his lips crashing against hers as his hands found their way to her hair. Donna pushes him away forcefully.
"Mark, STOP!"
"Donna, we can be together. I want to be with you"
"I'm with Harvey" she chokes out.
"What?" Marks asks, clearly shocked by the revelation.
"Harvey and I are together"
"Since when?"
"It doesn't matter how long, Mark, all that matters is that I'm committed to him"
"You've always been committed to him; he was the reason we never stood a chance"
"That's not true"
"YES IT IS!" Mark yells, frustration getting the better of him.
"Look, Mark, you can think what you want but the fact is I am with someone now. You and I are not going to happen"
"What is it about him? Why has he always…"
"…I love him" Donna interrupts.
"Did you love him the night you came to the hotel?"
"Yes"
"Donna…"
"That's why I couldn't go through with it"
"I don't buy that"
"You don't have to buy it, but it's the truth. I called you because I was feeling lonely. It was a low point in my life and I was trying hide from my own feelings, trying to distract myself because I was feeling like I was losing the most important person in my life. I never should have done that and I am truly sorry"
"Did you ever think that maybe you called me because you finally wanted to be free of him, of this power he holds over you?"
"No, Mark, I don't, in fact, he is the reason I couldn't go through with it that night. I was looking for a distraction, when I arrived at the hotel I got a text from my friend telling me to enjoy myself that night and that I deserve the best. When I read that, all I could think of was Harvey, he is it for me."
Mark shakes his head, unable to wrap his head around the information.
"I'm so sorry, Mark, I never should have put you in that position"
"Donna, I was in a bad place, an extremely unhappy marriage and reconnecting with you was the first time in a long time that I started to feel like myself again. You can deny it all you want but I honestly believe you felt the same"
"Mark…"
"The Donna I know would never have even considered having an affair with another man. But the fact is, you came to meet me. You knew I was married and you came to the hotel anyway. Part of you wants this, part of you still wants to be with me, otherwise you never would have met me that night"
"What night? What is he talking about, Donna?" her boyfriend's voice asks from the doorway.
"Harvey"
"What is he talking about, Donna?"
"Harvey, I – I…"
"I'm talking about Donna and I being together again" Mark clarifies.
"That's not true…" Donna begins.
"Mark you need to leave" Harvey demands.
"I'm not going anywhere"
"You need to leave before I put you through that wall"
"Try it, Specter! What's wrong? Threatened because you're not the only man in her life"
Harvey steps forward, practically nose to nose with Mark, his hands clench in to fists at the anger inside him rises.
"Stop it, both of you!" Donna demands, stepping between them, pushing Harvey backwards before turning to Mark.
"You need to go, now"
"This isn't over"
"The hell it isn't" Harvey spits.
"JUST GO!" Donna says sternly
"I'll call you" Mark tells her as he leaves her apartment.
As he closes the door she hears Harvey's low voice from behind her.
"Tell me what he said wasn't true"
Donna couldn't even bring herself to look him in the eye. This was not how she thought the night would go.
"Harvey…"
"Tell me it's not true"
"It wasn't like that; it wasn't that straightforward"
"I can't believe this" Harvey shakes his head, turning to head towards the front door"
"Please, just listen to me!" Donna begs, grabbing his arm.
Harvey swung around, yanking his arm away from her.
"How could you do that? He's married!"
"We didn't do anything!"
"BUT YOU WENT THERE!" Harvey shouts, "… YOU KNEW HE WAS MARRIED AND YOU WENT THERE TO CHEAT!"
"I was upset about you and Paula, I was just looking for some comfort and he made me feel wanted; I wasn't thinking clearly"
"You know my history, Donna, how I feel about infidelity"
Donna couldn't hold the tears back any longer.
"I changed my mind that night, nothing happened with him, I swear!"
"I can't be here right now" Harvey says, heading towards the door "…You're not the person I thought you were"
"Harvey, please"
The door closes before the words finish leaving her mouth.
"She was going to…"
"Yep"
"With her ex?"
"Yep"
"Who is married?"
"Yep" Harvey nods, taking another swig of his drink.
Mike and Harvey were sitting on the couch in Mike and Rachel's apartment, Mike trying to wrap his head around the situation.
"But she didn't?"
"That's not the point"
"Actually, I think it's exactly the point"
"Who's side are you on?!" Harvey asks, annoyance taking over.
"Both of you!" Mike answers "You've finally got your shit together, don't let this change anything"
"THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING!" Harvey says loudly.
"Why?!" Rachel asks from the doorway, having just arrived home and heard the end of the conversation between the boys.
"Rachel, you don't know what's happened"
"Actually I do"
"What?"
"Harvey, Donna told me about Mark and what almost happened"
"So you do know, you know she was ready to start an affair with a married man"
"But she didn't!"
"That's what I said" Mike adds.
"That doesn't matter!"
"It's all that matters, Harvey. Can't you see how low Donna must have felt to even contemplate doing that?"
Harvey remains silent and Rachel continues.
"She was crushed when she found out about you and Paula, she was crushed but she hid it, for you. Everything she's ever done since she met you has been for you. She was at her lowest point and she thought of the only other guy she had ever thought of having a future with, besides you, the guy who broke up with her because she refused to leave your side.
"What?"
"See, you don't know everything, Harvey. You don't know half the sacrifices she has made for you, without a word of complaint. When she thought she had lost you she was simply trying to find a shred of happiness herself. I text her that night, I thought she was on a date and I told her to have fun and that she deserved the best. She changed her mind after receiving that text because all she could think of was you. You are the best thing for her and she knew it, no matter how bad she was looking for a distraction, looking for someone to love her, she couldn't go through with it, so yes, that IS all that matters. She loves you Harvey and you are a damn fool if you let this come between you!"
Harvey swallows as Rachel's admission begins to sink in, it had rendered him speechless.
Harvey waited on the steps of Donna's apartment building, she'd either not answered her door or she wasn't home. He'd been waiting for 2 hours before it had started to rain. Defeated, Harvey stood slowly, he had only taken a few steps in the direction of his apartment before he spotted her walking towards the building.
Even through the rain he could tell she'd been crying, the thought of that made him feel sick. As Donna locks eyes with him she spins around, quickly walking away in the other direction.
"Donna, wait!"
"I'm not doing this, Harvey"
"Just stop, please" He begs, chasing after her, the rain only getting heavier.
"What?!" Donna asks, turning to face him "You couldn't even look at me before, what's changed in a few hours?"
"Donna…"
"You made me feel like a whore, Harvey, you wouldn't even let me explain"
"You know I don't think that"
"Do I?"
"Donna, I have never and will never think that about you"
"You said I'm not who you thought I was"
"I was upset"
"So that makes it ok?" she says, incredulously.
"No I just…"
"Just leave me alone, Harvey" Donna says sternly pushing her way past him.
"I'm sorry" Harvey says, attempting to grab her arm as she pulls herself free from his grasp, storming off towards her apartment.
"Donna you are the most important person in my life" Harvey calls after her, the words causing her to stop.
"I never meant to make you feel that way"
Donna turned around slowly.
"I'm not your Mother, Harvey"
"I know, I just…"
"Did you even think about why I contacted Mark? Why I went to that hotel room?!" Donna shouts.
Harvey could only stare back at her, feeling guilty that he hadn't given her the benefit of the doubt.
"I felt lower than I ever had, watching you with Paula, slipping away from me; when I called Mark I was looking for someone to want me back. For the longest time I just thought you just weren't a relationship kind of guy but then I told you that I wanted more and what did you do? you chased her!"
"Donna, I didn't know you meant more with me" Harvey says gently.
"It doesn't matter now anyway"
"Yes it does"
"I never thought you of all people would ever make me feel the way you did earlier"
"I didn't mean to; I was just shocked"
"You think I expected Mark to show up at my door?"
"No, I just, I-I"
"You just what?!"
Harvey takes a deep breath, "I understand the reason you turned to him, I just didn't think you would ever consider being with a married guy"
"It felt nice to be wanted, Harvey, like I said …I felt lonely"
"I'm sorry I made you feel that way"
"Maybe we made a mistake with this Harvey"
"With what?"
"Us" Donna says softly.
"Don't say that"
"You obviously don't trust me"
"That's not true"
"Really? You didn't even trust me enough to let me explain, you don't understand how much that hurt me"
"I was just…"
"I can't do this"
"Donna…"
Donna quickly turned and walked away again, the rain continuing to bucket down.
"You once asked me how I love you" Harvey shouts.
"And you couldn't answer!" Donna shouts back.
"…You're the kindest person I've ever met"
Donna stops as she reaches the steps of her apartment, she stops but still refuses to turn around.
"You're passionate, so incredibly beautiful and you're always putting others first, especially me. You've been loyal to me and by my side for fourteen years, no matter what. You're smart, sassy and more sensitive than anyone realises" He continues.
She slowly turns around to face him.
"I love your perfect smile, the way you kink your eyebrow when you have something to tell me, the way you blush when I give you a compliment, the way you steal the olives from my pizza and the way you're not afraid to call me out on my bullshit.
Donna can't help but laugh at the pizza comment, wiping the tears from her cheeks that she didn't realise had started to fall
"…I love you. I trust you more than anyone and you are the most important person in the world to me" Harvey adds, stepping closer to her.
"I am completely in love with you, Donna Roberta Paulsen, and I'll stay out here all night and risk catching pneumonia if that's what you need to hear. Please, just don't give up on us."
"Damn it, Harvey" She whispers, closing the remaining distance between them.
Harvey lets out the breath he didn't realise he was holding as his lips find hers, lifting her as she wraps her legs around him, kissing him back with everything she has.
In that moment there is no doubt in her mind that she is completely, unequivocally in love with Harvey Specter.
"I'm so sorry" he breathes, resting his forehead against hers.
"Me too …I didn't know Mark was going to show up and I swear nothing happened between us that night"
Harvey shakes his head.
"You don't need to explain, Donna, I trust you" he says softly, brushing her wet hair off the side of her face.
"I love you, Harvey"
"I love you too baby"
"Take me upstairs" She begs, kissing him deeply again.
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