Going to continue on with Chapter 2 of this story. Let me know what you think!

Han

This feels like old times doesn't it? Seems like just yesterday I was writing a similar letter, apologizing for a jackass move I had made. I've made a lot of those in my life, all of which I regret but none more than how I left things between us. So, before I let you go I need to get some things off my chest and writing them down makes me feel less like a coward than not putting it out there. It also makes me feel less like an asshole than I would he saying it...because lets face it, I always have the best timing.

Truth is, I love you. I always have, I know I always will and if I could go back and do it all again, I would without question. The only thing I would change is the night it all fell apart. I would stay, I would wait for you. I would be less angry and more understanding and maybe things could've been different. Maybe it would be our wedding I was getting ready to go to today or maybe it would've turned out the same who knows. Either way, I would do it all over just to have you back again, even if it was only for a little while.

We both made mistakes. We both said and did things to make that night what it was...but leaving...that will always be the biggest mistake I have ever made. I took the one that mattered most in my life for granted. I've thought about you everyday since, wondering where you are and if I would ever see you again. When I came back to Rosewood I wanted to apologize for all of it, just so you would know how sorry I was for leaving it like that. When you opened that door at The Radley I was so close to telling you, but I didn't. I wanted to tell you that you were every thought I've had since New York. I wanted you to know that I still love you..so I:m telling you now.

I stumbled through life before I met you, never really knowing what love was and how it could change your life. How one person could change everything, but you did...you changed my life. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and I've always wondered what I did to deserve you. Sometimes you just get lucky I guess. You will always be the one that got away, and was such an honor to get to call you mine for all those years.

So here is to you, beautiful girl on your wedding day. It's gonna hurt like hell to finally let you go, but if means you get to be happy than it's a sacrifice I am willing to make...because you deserve happiness more than anyone I've ever known.

I will always love you.

-C

He sighs and sits the pen back down on the desk. Holding the paper in his hand, he looks at it one more time before he folds it in half. He stands and grabs his black dress jacket off the back of the chair and slides it on. Picking up the paper, he flips it through his fingers before stashing it into the inside pocket. He walks over to the mirror and straightens his tie, and rubs the wrinkles out of the front of the jacket.

His phone buzzes on the table and when he reaches tor it he sees Toby's name..he knows that can only mean one thing. Hiting the screen he brings the phone to his ear "Hey man, you here?" he asks already knowing the answer.

"Yeah, we are in the lobby." he replies

Toby nor Ezra would let him come to church by himself. They both insisted on meeting him at the hotel and all going together. He thought maybe they were worried about where his head was at today or maybe had been put on alert by the girls not to let him ruin Hanna's day. Not that he would, no matter how much he wanted to. Either way, he appreciated the company but really wanted to be by himself today more than ever.

"Okay, I'm headed out now." he says as he ends the call and grabs his keys and wallet off the dresser before heading out the door.

The elevator feels like it takes forever to get to his floor and when the doors open he sees a couple standing in the corner of elevator. They are both dressed up, the man wearing an expensive tailored suit and the woman wearing a powder blue dress. They look out the door at him and offer up a smile, which he returns as he steps in, making sure the button for the lobby is lit up before taking a spot at the other side of the elevator.

"Beautiful day for a wedding isn't it?" the lady says to him as the elevator shifts and they start down to the lobby. Caleb opens his mouth to speak but hesitates making the womans hand fly over her mouth. "Pardon my outburst. My son is getting married and he said that several out of town guests are staying at this hotel..I just thought..with your suit that you were-"

"Oh yes ma'am, I am..." he says with a forced smile as he turns his attention back to the elevator doors.

"You a friend of the bride...Hanna...are you a friend of Hanna's?" he man asks politely.

"Something like that." he says with a sigh never looking over at them. He knows he must sound rude and he doesn't mean to be, but this is just not a good day for small talk.. or any talk.

When the elevator stops and the doors open he practically runs out of it. Stopping at the front desk as the nice couple he was very rude to walk past him heading for the front doors. He looks up at the woman standing there "I'm gonna be out for a while. Ms. Marin is aware, but I have my phone if anyone needs anything." he tells her and she nods.

He walks over to the bar where Toby and Ezra are sitting. They each have glases in there hands and are chatting quietly until Ezra spots him over Toby's shoulder and nods his head making Toby spin around on his stool. Caleb walks up to the bar and pulls out his wallet. Grabbing some bills out he hands them to the bartender "Shot. Strongest you've got.' he says and the bartender nods, taking the money from his hand.

"There he is, looking like James Bond. Nice suit man." Toby says trying to lighten the mood but it doesnt work.

"Thanks...but you've seen it before, it's my go to funeral suit." he deadpans as the bartender sits the shot glass full of brown liquid down in front of Caleb on a napkin. He grabs the glass and downs the shot almost immediately. It burns as it goes down, but he holds the glass up for another one.

"Funeral suit? Like the one you were to funerals?" Ezra asks.

The bartender fills his glass back up and Caleb picks it up off the bar and looks at it for a minute. "Yep, I'm in mourning, can't you tell?" he says partly as a joke but also very much the truth. He downs the shot and holds up the glass for another one. He reaches into his pocket and grabs his wallet for more money.

"Caleb-" Toby starts but Caleb cuts him off

"Please don't tell me I'm being moody like a girl. I know I am and I can't help it okay?" he says as the bartender hands him another shot "It's not supposed to be this way... that should be me in that church today but I screwed that up so today really sucks for me." he says as he downs the shot and slams the glass back down onto the counter. He looks over at his friends who just stand there looking at him. The bartender comes over to refill his glass but he waves the man off, knowing any more alcohol in his system will make this day harder.

"I was just going to say that I feel for you man. I would be crazy by now if it was Spence getting married."

"Aria too." Ezra says with a nod from his spot behind Toby.

"We get it...thats why we thought you wouldn't want to hit this thing by yourself...plus, more man power for when you crash this thing." he says with a chuckle.

Caleb laughs for a second then stops "You know, I've thought about it..standing up and telling her...but she doesnt deserve that. She deserves the happy ending...so I'm going to be a friend and sit quietly in the back and watch as my life spirals out of my control."

He stands from his stool and heads for the doors of lobby leaving Toby and Ezra at the bar.