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After about an hour or so the six of them got off the ferry and drove towards the dream house Ryan had seen a few images from Amelia of the house and knew that house was a beautiful home it was all surreal to him for the majority of his life he was never surrounded by people who held down decent jobs. His father was a cocaine addict and even though his family had money they were still the type of people who were pretty much lowlife's and they never cared enough about him and he figured that's probably why he first got onto drugs because he grew up only seeing his parents addicted to them and it pretty much all he knew. However since he started being with Amelia he was exposed to something he never had in his life before people who actually cared about him her L.A friends were the first people who even bothered about him, it made him realise that he had to change his life and get everything in order he wanted kids with Amelia and was determined to make sure that his kids would not be exposed to the kind of life he had and he knew Amelia very much felt the same way. He also wanted to show Valentina that they would have the life she should have had growing up no more pain and suffering he knew that was something Valentina needed she had to heal, he knew her life had been one crazy rollercoaster and he knew she desperately needed stability something he was determined to give her, Amelia had mentioned to him before that she needed to give Val that stability because she worried that if Valentina didn't get some sort consistency she was going to spiral the way Amelia had. He looked over at Derek he knew he had to talk to him and reassure him that he wouldn't go back to his old life and that in fact he wanted to turn his life around and be the husband and father figure Amelia and Valentina needed but Ryan wasn't a fool he knew it was going to be a toll order convincing Derek shepherd that but he was determined to try and do just that.

They soon pulled up onto the drive way and Ryan observed he knew the views were breath taking based on the photos but seeing them in person was different again he wanted to have all of this with Amelia and Val, he was determined to make that happen. They got out of the car and walked inside and as he had imagined the interior of the house was just as beautiful the house was beautifully decorated and made him see this was the kind of house he wanted his future kids to have. Meredith had shown him and Amelia to guest room. Shortly after Val and Sam walked up to Sam's room and Amelia and Meredith left and sat in the living room leaving only him and Derek in the kitchen area.

"We should talk outside Ryan what do you say?"

Ryan knew that this would be now or never he had to have it out with him and try to convince him just how much he loved Amelia and how much he wanted to be a good stepfather to Val.

"Yes we should."

The two men walked outside and sat on the porch although neither of them knew what to say and Derek figured he should just come out straight with he didn't want to beat around the bush about all of his concerns.

"I am going to be flat out honest here I do not like you and if had a say I would have made sure that my sister and niece were as far away from you as they could be, however for some unknown reason my sister is love with you and that must mean there has to be some small amount of good hidden within you because my sister has never been with someone long enough for her to even consider the possibility of marrying them, let alone allow them to be in Valentina's life and I am still trying to figure out what it is Amelia's sees in you because quite frankly you being in my house is scary and I even hate the thought that my kids have to be within ten feet of you but I am warning you now and I will only warn you once you do anything and I mean anything that put's my sister my niece, wife or my kids life in any danger or you harm them in anyway I will kill you I don't care what will happen to me but I'll make sure you are as good as dead and I will have best friend Mark Sloan help me he has always cared about Amelia and Valentina he also cares about my family and the two of us won't care if we put you six feet under, Amelia's life has always been a mess and Val's life ha been pretty much the same and I want to spare them of anymore pain and misery do you understand me Ryan?"

"Derek I understand why you hate me so much and believe if it were the other way around I would be saying the same thing but I really do love your sister and I do want to turn my life around and be a different person than what I was I know you hate the fact that I got your sister hooked onto drugs again and believe me when I say I'm sorry I can't turn the clock around but I can change and make a life that your sister and niece deserve, I know how much the two of them have suffered and believe me when I say I want all of the pain and suffering to end."

"Hating you for getting my sister back onto drugs is only one of the list of reasons why I hate you do you have any idea how much my niece went through seeing her mum become so addicted to drugs that she couldn't even live with her, or do you know what is was like for Valentina when you and Amelia went off the grid for twelve days because I do that girl didn't sleep for those twelve days she cried her eyes out all night she skipped school for twelve days because she thought that she was going to get a phone call from a cop saying they found her mother dead and that she was going to be an orphan. She experienced things that no sixteen year old should have had to see or experience at all that was the hell that I had to help her through seeing that has scarred her for life and has undoubtedly messed up her mental and emotional health but you never once thought of that did you didn't think about that sweet girl."

"Derek I did think about Valentina and I know for a fact that Amelia did as well I can't take back all of the pain and suffering that girl went through and there will never be any word to say that could even begin to describe how sorry I was for putting her through that and that's why I am determined to make amends and try to right all of the wrongs that I have created I want to get my life in order and I want to show everyone that I can be the person I should have been from the beginning, not that you would know this but my whole life I was exposed to seeing my parents being addicted to cocaine my life was a mess they never cared about me and that's why I started doing drugs because I had nothing but meeting Amelia made see what I needed to see her friends in L.A helping me get sober brought me back to reality and showed me what I had to do with my life it also showed that there are people who do care about something I never knew until they helped."

As Derek looked Ryan's he could see the sorrow held within them but he could also see the love that he held for Amelia within them and while he wasn't about to admit this to Ryan Derek thought that there may be a possibility that Ryan really was trying to change his life around Derek knew that time would tell if he meant what he was saying and he if would stay committed into changing his life for the better.

"If you truly mean what you are saying then good I do not want my sister or my niece going back to that dark place in their life, so show us her family that you mean what you say go back to school or get a job do whatever but show us that you are willing to put your life in order and maybe I will see hope for the two of you and if you love her as much as you claim to love her you will stay committed and make the difference to your life."

Ryan knew that this would be his one chance to prove to Amelia's family that he could be more than what they thought of him and that can be a decent person in society and he was going to fight with whatever he had to prove this and make them see just that.

Meanwhile upstairs in Sam's room

Sam was glad that it was now just the two of them she knew Val had so much to talk about and Sam had so much to say to her cousin ever since she had heard about what happened in L.A Sam had made it a point to check up on Val daily and make sure that her cousin wasn't going to slip she had to protect her although Sam was younger than Val by a few months Sam had always felt like she had to protect her cousin they had both been exposed to different lives. She couldn't imagine what it must have been like for Val when her mum got back onto drugs Sam for the most part had the picture perfect life parents who even though weren't together loved her and raised her together she had a step mum who loved her as though she was her child she had siblings she adored to the end of the earth and she had a grandma and aunts that loved her but for Val that was vastly different. She didn't know her father and so she never had a real dad in her life her grandma for the most part didn't care about her and her aunts were pretty much the same they didn't care about her and Sam suspected it had to do with the fact that she her aunt Amy's daughter, Sam knew had she been anyone else's in the family child that Val would have been loved and cared for in the same way she Zola and Baily had been and Sam could never understand why they didn't love her because to Sam it wasn't Valentina's fault that her life had turned out the way it did she knew Val never asked for this and if Sam was honest she would never be able to make sense of it.

"Val I have to ask did you end up getting tested for STD's?"

"No I didn't Sam I never got tested."

"Val are you insane or something you should have been tested how do you know you haven't got something from that bastard I mean you could hepatitis or some of the kind of disease and you aren't being treated for it have you been sick or anything lately?"

"I've had some vomiting recently also I've been really tired but I just assumed that was down to all the stress and recently the lymphnodes on the side of my neck have flared up a little but they don't hurt and before you ask there is no way I'm pregnant or anything I've been getting my periods."

"Valentina Addison Shepherd have you lost it or something you've been having these symptoms yet it hasn't occurred to you to get tested, look I'm not going to argue with you anymore tomorrow we are going to Seattle Pres and you are getting those tests no one there will no you so we should be safe but I'm not going to allow you to ignore these symptoms any longer you're my favourite cousin and I'm not letting anything happen to you, I know you have avoided it because of what happened but you just can't keep thinking it will all go away you probably have some kind of infection that just needs treatment."

"Fine Sam if it will keep you off of my back I'll with you to get tested mum starts work tomorrow and your parents also have work so we should be able to get out unnoticed, but anyways that was not all that we have to talk about when we were in L.A I found pregnancy tests several of them at first I thought they were your mum's but I realised she couldn't get pregnant anymore and I knew I wasn't pregnant so then I figured it out that my mum must have been the one pregnant and she hasn't told me yet, I'm not even sure she's told Ryan yet either but I'm assuming she hasn't."

"Wow that's heavy of all the thing I thought you were going to tell me I didn't think that would be one of them I mean how do you feel about it you must be happy that you'll be getting a sibling?"

"Yeah part of me is happy that I'm going to be a big sister but an even bigger part of me is scared I'm scared for my unborn sibling and I know I have to protect my brother or sister because there is no way I'm letting my brother or sister go through what I've been through seeing that first hand has me more determined that I will protect that child from being exposed, to that kind of life my brother or sister needs to have the life that I didn't have the happy and mess free childhood and a life where they don't have to suffer all of that pain and stress."

"I hear you Val and I totally get what you are and you're right that unborn child does not need to be involved in all that chaos that child just needs a happy and healthy life but do you really think that your future brother or sister can be spared all of that I mean can Ryan really keep his promise?"

"I don't know Sam but I just have to hope that he will keep his promise because there is no way I want that child to suffer because I love my brother or sister to much to see them being exposed to that life."

"Val have you actually told anyone about the rape?"

"No I haven't and I'm not going to and that means you can't either Sam I don't want anyone knowing about and I don't want to talk about it to anyone that is a night that I want to forget about for the rest of my life."

"Val you can't just forget about what happened that night and you should tell your mum and Ryan or at least your mum I know you want to forget about and not make her feel anymore guilty but I see it in your eyes Val the pain is written all over your face and if you don't at least seek help and talk about it you'll never deal with it and never heal from what happen and that pain will consume you."

"Sam I said that I don't want to tell anyone I only told you because you are the closest thing I have to a sister so you have promise me Samantha that you won't tell anyone I have to forget all about that night and after I get tested we are not talking about it again."

"Ok Val I promise I won't say nothing but I still think you need o talk with someone about it."

Sam had a feeling that for some reason Val wasn't going to be able to hide what happen and forget it some how she knew that one way or another it was going to come out and Sam didn't know why but she had a feeling it would happen soon.

Authors note: ok guys that was the third chapter I hope you guys liked and if you could please review/favourite/ follow it would be appreciated as it helps me to know what you are thinking xxx.